Fuckin' Imperfect

The world is full of fucking pricks. Heinous idiots who think nothing but the world of themselves. Hasn't anyone heard of that ubiquitous phrase "do unto others what you expect others to do unto you" or something pertaining along that line? Maybe only I have. It has become tired pathetic game whereby the gears rewind and the motion restarts again and again. I do not go around proclaiming myself as a self-righteous asshole cos at times I fall into the abovementioned category of pricks. But enough is enough. This is the umpteenth time I've told myself, and the millionth time I've done nothing about. The time is ripe to make a new life for myself, as time is scarce, but opportunities are aplenty. But is it worth it to go after what you want, not giving a damn about who you step on or betray in the process? Maybe. After all, these pricks probably will do the very same shit to you, whether you know it or not. They go after what they want, and you end up a byproduct of the mess they create en route to attaining their ultimate objective, whatever the fuck it may be. It has always been ingrained in my mentality that we shd treat others well (cue that stupid phrase). But I think it's time for change. Not wholesale. But change nontheless. Maybe its the shitty hols. The endless months of mental torture. Maybe it's the fact that I'm tired of the same crap regurgitating. Or maybe I'm just emo. Whatever it is, change is necessary. For better or worse. Never a self-proclamation of righteousness, but it is never fair that the perpetual dispensing of kindness replete with sincerity is constantly reimbursed with fucked up ingratitude dripping with unparalleled expectations laced with obligation. Fuck that. Why waste your precious time on people who don't deserve a second of it. No man is God. I may be part of God's grand scheme or some plan He has, but I AM NOT PART OF ANOTHER MAN'S PLAN TO BE MERCILESSLY USED. It's time to hit the "off" button on this stupid game. Or if it can't be switched off, then be the player, instead of the one being played.

One thing I realised when sending off my 2 close pals off today was that, in the face of adversity, when you can't get what you want, you shouldn't give up that easily and you should look for alternative solutions. And never limit your options. Have a blast down under pw and reb. We will be missing you in this dead place. Doesn't seem to flow with the earlier contents. Lol.