Friday, October 31, 2008
Farewell Fallacy
As previously mentioned, luck can change almost immediately, either for the better or worse. Hans Basil was at the recieving end of Lady Luck's cruel games. While he had been feeling lucky the past few days, the last day of college proved the abovementioned point. Hans could be considered wealthy, despite he himself tightening his cash flow. He had never experienced any financial shortages, and always survived comfortably, sometimes with added luxuries from his family. But a surprise visit from his mom, sister and brother may have changed all that.
Hans could not have been more pleased at that surprise, but he soon discovered that it was not the only surprise he was in store for. And after learning the nasty shock that was laid in front of him, suffice to say, 'wealthy' was no longer an adjective under Hans Basil. Has Rich Boy become Poor Boy in just one day? And with an online notice informing him that certain financial complications could cost him his place in the final exams, it seems things are exponentially getting worse for poor Hans.
Just to play fair, Lady Luck decided to include Hans' close friend, John Bow, in the same list. John, who saw his little joke on Hans cause a mini rift between them earlier, had the misfortune of facing more people who continued making a mockery of his new look. It so very nearly caused him to blow, but he managed to keep it under wraps. And to add to his misery, he had to burden his mind with more accomodation-related financial problems. Would John have been crushed to smithereens without his "pillar of strength"? It seemed Lady Luck was feeling generous in disseminating the bad luck. And the poor victims, John and Hans, had a heart to heart conversation amidst all their personal problems. Would this resolve their issues? Or only prolong the inevitable?
Perhaps the student who faced the fastest changes in luck had to be Nick Ivans. From feeling lucky the past few days, his luck, along with his heart, plummeted to the dark depths in just a day. The effect was instantaneous and obvious, but nothing could be done. Hans was only a bystander in the whole 'game' Lady Luck was playing, and could not help Nick. While the latter endured a torrid night, he was hoping it did not interfere with his English Finals the next day. Whether it did remains to be seen, but what is known is the fact that Nick's luck changed again the next day. Will what he aim for prevail? Or will Lady Luck have the last laugh...
Finals are approaching at breakneck speed, and it surely has caused a flurry of frantic studying, especially in the college library. Those seemingly no longer pawns in Lady Luck's game, mainly Sue Anne, Sanya Dival, Angie Flo and Jay Dic, focused on cramming whatever they could in their already-crammed brains. Hopefully all their hard cramming don't cause an overload and subsequent breakdown, just before Finals, ironically.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
The Luck Disorder
Back in his hometown for the holidays, John made a bold decision to cut his symbolic brown locks. His decision was based on the fact that his hair interfered with his face while studying, and that it would affect his concentration during the finals. Back in Sunway, his luck seemed to have changed. For the worse. While he had always aced his Econs tests, he somehow fluffed his trials. For English, John managed to score a magnificent 100% for practice, but during the trials, reality bit him hard. And that was not the end of his misery.
It was safe to say John had a decent social profile in college, but that might all change now. His new hairdo brought upon unwanted attention, and with it came unnecessary rumours. Many claimed his hairdo made him look like a girl, a weirdo and what not. And with John perpetually seen with Hans Basil, it only substantiated those rumours. Will he brush it aside? Or will it deflate his confidence and crush his social life?
Speaking of rumours, did Jay Dic unintentionally create one for himself? Blurting out how much he missed and loved another guy was definitely not normal. Then again, nothing was normal with Jay Dic.
Snaya Dival's luck seemed to have changed for the worse too. First, she lost her boyfriend. And while she managed to deal with it initially, loneliness seemed to have caught up with her as she now battles being single while trying to uphold her image as being the reigning Sunway 'Queen'. And as if having her car totaled over the weekend wasn't bad enough, she had to endure a nerve-wracking shopping trip by herself as she was stalked by a pervertic psycho. Were all these signs that things are now turning for the worse for Sanya? Has Sunway University College's "It" girl fallen off her throne?
While some may be facing bad luck, Lady Luck decided to even the field and shine on certain others, like Hans Basil, Nick Ivans and Sue Anne. Hans had been struggling to put his priorities in order and as a result his studies had been backsliding. But, he seemed to have received some divine intervention as he suddenly planned out a study guide which he had been abiding to. On top of that, he seems to be getting lucky in another field, one where he has perpetually courted controversy. Time will tell if his luck persists.
Nick Ivans, depite knowing almost everyone in college, always felt the bitterness of being alone. His tricks and jokes, once a crowd pleaser, seemed to have fallen flat and hard as he tried, he never could revive them. While luck deserted him in his entertaintment aspect, it repaid him via another-one Nick had the misfortune of having experienced the dark side of before. Maybe this time he'll get lucky in that area.
Sue Anne had been complaining that she could never get any studying done. Whenever she forced herself to, distractions got in the way. Whenver she shoved those off, her mind wandered. When she put her mind to it, the words never seem to enter her brain. And so she resorted to whining and complaining to Hans, who could not help her as he himself was stuck in the same predicament. However, Sue recieved a pleasant surprise as she scored joint highest for the Accounts test, usurping even Jay Dic. No studying and highest in class? Some people have all the luck.
What about Angie Flo? Things seem to be pretty quiet with her these days. And will luck continue dealing its hand in the lives of these people? Or will they soon realise that luck can run out as easy and quickly as it first appeared...
Monday, October 27, 2008
The Bond
Weekends is what everyone enjoys. Two days of well-deserved rest after a long hard week of toiling and working, or in other cases, studying. While weekends offer most a chance at recuperating, it gives others the opportunity to catch up on lost work. That was exactly what Hans Basil had in mind. And with the absence of his "bromantic" friend John Bow, the odds were pretty high that he'd achieve his target. Unfortunately for him, this target, like all previous ones before, came to bust. Hans had set his Saturday as his "resting" day, and that was really easy to achieve, the day spent with his beloved laptop. The same went for Nick, who remained cooped up in his room, distraced from studies. While the two were loners in the day, they decided to converge at night, conversing after a football match. And for the second time in a week, another secret was disclosed.
Sunday was a more productive day, with Nick and Hans having a short lunch before the latter proceeded to the college library to study with Sanya. Hans and Sanya alone? A recipe for disaster? Or a cliche plot in their getting-back-together story? Well, it was neither, as both managed to get some studying done without much problems. So, no revived sparks between the pair. But there was though, for Sanya that is, as she soon found out shortly after departing from college.
It seems as though Sanya Dival's car is just destined for obliteration, as the plethora of marks on her car can attest to that theory. While most of the marks arrived from small collisions, the one she experienced was far from it, with a head-to-side 'bond' with another car completely destroying her own's front portion. Luckily, no one was injured, though Sanya experienced minor aches and pains. And luckily too, a deal was struck between both drivers, eliminating any threat of hostile confrontations.
Hans, Nick and two others, Ean and Leroy, had some of their own bonding to do- a movie outing. While the four used this rare free time to slack and relax, Hans soon discovered he could not afford to as news of Sanya's accident reached his ears. Thankfully, he managed to calm her down, as well as himself. And this led to him being able to bond with the others without much worry. Thankfully, their bonding session did them good. Hopefully, it won't have negative repercussions...
The extended weekend, apparently, did no one good, in terms of work efficiency, as most resorted to slacking, resting and having private bonding sessions with their laptops. With Finals looming closer than ever, will they look back at this week as the turning point? What about those returning back from home, like Sue Anne and John Bow? Can they readjust in time for the exams? Or will the comforts of home threaten to derail their studies. Will Jay Dic be able to put behind the week's disappointment and focus on his Finals? Can Angie, who visited her cousin, manage to hold her own and not get distracted by external influences? And what about Sanya, who had the misfortune of experiencing an actual collision? Will this affect her harder than she envisioned? As always, time will tell...
Friday, October 24, 2008
The Spotlight
Jay Dic never had the opportunity to showcase whatever hidden talents he may possess. No one approached him to ask him about his life, the problems he faced or the emotions he was going through. He was just a member of the audience watching the flurry of activities happening on the theatre screen that was Sunway University College. But there was one place and time where he created the spotlight for himself, and that was in Accounts, where he constantly reminded everyone that he was excellent in it. And so it was apt that it was during Accounts that the spotlight fell on him.
Angie, Sue and Alicia, a classmate, were discussing about the topic girls enjoy most-boys. In this case, they were reviewing the college hunks. Jay, who was seated nearby, overheard the conversation and added his own inputs-that there existed this student named Darren who was the most muscular of them all. Tad weird? Maybe. But the awkwardness didn't stop there, in fact, it was just beginning.
Jay, despite nobody asking, started voicing his plans to hit the gym in a bid to slim down and get into shape. He lamented the fact that he was obese and that everyone was talking about it-from his mom to his cousins. Jay then asked Alicia what she thought of his body. Excuse me? Alicia, clearly deplored, knew the answer, but could not reply. It was clear for everyone to see the type of body Jay possessed, and he knew it-he just wanted a second opinion. Unfortunately for Alicia, she was the victim, but she cleverly avoided the question. Jay continued babbling about gyms, exercise and slimming down, until even the lecturer, Miss Susie, got invloved. Just what was going through Jay's brain, if he even had one?
The spotlight did not stop shining there though...
In Economics, the lecturer, Miss Pat Riba, was dishing out the answers to certain questions. The class joker, Aron, decided to do some dishing of his own. This time though, the dishing wasn't for answers, but humiliation. And who better to recieve it, than Jay Dic himself. Aron managed to get Jay into the spotlight again by sabotaging him to assist Miss Pat in writing an answer. Jay wasn't too pleased, and swore under his breath, but at least he managed to achieve his dream of finally feeling like a lecturer himself, albiet for only five minutes. Jay should be careful though. Being under the spotlight means that your actions are scrutinised. Can he handle the pressure?
As the day wore on, it was clear that today just wasn't Jay's day. The Math tests were returned, and for the second time in a row, Jay lost out to Hans. Whatever happened to his sky high results? As if that didn't batter his ego enough, he learnt that Hans bettered him in total internal marks. While Hans basked in the shock, Jay was hotly bothered and cursed one too many times, mostly at himself. Perhaps it would be wise for Jay to learn that life under the spotlight isn't always as pleasant as it seems, and that he should not covet it as much as he had before.
Clearly, Angie Flo was not used to learning from mistakes, as she took to the wheel just one day after her "non-accident". This time though, it was only her and Hans, as they set off for a movie outing. Was Angie willing to risk her safety for a "date" with Hans? And she must have been feeling that it was her lucky day. Getting some personal time with Hans, which had been gradually disappearing for weeks, was great, and it went one better- she met his older brother, equally dashing, slightly less hot. Hans and his brother did some brief catching up, before the latter asked the former if Angie was his girlfriend. Hans, who saw it coming, casually denied and brushed it aside. Angie however, seemed flustered and suspiciously looked to have overdone her denial. Had the question Hans' brother asked hit a nerve with her? Or was it the response Hans himself gave?
As the day came to a close and the weekend approached, many of Sunway students departed to their hometowns for a brief 3 day visit, including Sue Anne and John Bow. What about the rest of the residents, especially Hans? Would he be forced to entertain himself now that he's alone? Judging from the rager that went on in his room, where Nick and few others were present, until the late night, he probably won't.The Proposal
Having spent his last two days trying to comprehend complicated Accounting concepts and formulae, Hans went into the classroom confident that all the words were still fresh in his mind. Luckily for him, the words were fresh, and he was able to put pen to paper. Not so lucky though, were the careless mistakes that had been dogging him since the past few tests. While the careless errors may have been insignificant and immaterial to the final marks in the past, this one could prove costly- an accumulation of 33% could be lost at a snap of his fingers. Or in Hans' case, the fingers of the marker.
It seems like Hans' and Sue Anne's friendship was in for a roller coaster ride. While the pair had to endure countless questions being thrown at them for the nature of their relationship, none of them anticipated the fight that would take place just before lunch. A simple invitation from Hans was flatly turned down, a first, by Sue. Stunned, Hans stormed off. And as if that wasn't bad enough, guess who Hans spotted at the college side gate preparing to depart for lunch? That's right. Sue. Controlling the shock and anger, Hans looked away and ignored her, but somehow managed to notice the subtle eye contact between her, and Sunway University College's resident hunk, Dan Wise, who was also present in the scene. Now was there something going on between Sue and Dan? What about Hans? Could things get any weirder than they already were?
Sanya Dival and Angie Flo displayed the typical best friend persona in college-eating together, slacking together, studying together, and their frequent chat in the ladies. Yes, besties who did everything together, including backing each other up in their quest to manipulate and convince others to have their way. Jay Dic and Hans were the lucky victims of their persuasive talk. In Jay's case, he was unlucky, for he soon experienced the eccentric driving skills of Thomas Gean, a friend of Sanya and Angie. After that incident left Jay so shaken, he swore never to drive ever again. Who knows, that may be good thing. And perhaps Angie should follow suit. After all, she may have been lucky no one witnessed her little "accident" involving Sanya's car. But you never know Angie. What human eyes fail to see, mechanical eyes can.
And it seems that finally Hans and Sanya have managed to come to a conlusion over their complicated ties, but not before Hans brought up a proposal so shocking it derided Sanya's and his morality. Just what was the proposal? Friends with benefits. Yes, three words that make every vestige of emotion replete with pleasure without strings attached. Fun? Yes. Cheap? Also yes. It seems Sanya's feelings for Hans were too great to ignore, and she immediately agreed. Her impulse caused Hans to display shock, but beneath that facial expression, he was almost all too pleased. But senses soon gripped Sanya who texted Hans, informing him she could not agree to the terms, resulting in temporary numbness to Hans. Maybe he ought to learn there's no such thing as free pleasure without responsibilities.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
The Significant
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
The Change
Just as Accounts was Jay's forte, English was Hans' throne where he reigned supreme. Or so he thought. He could always ride on the pride of being the number one scorer in class, until his close friend, John, usurped his position by scoring 100% for a practise paper. Yes, it may have only been practice, but the shock of losing out to someone was too great for Hans to swallow. A case of sour grapes? Thankfully for Hans, he regained superiority in the next practice. Hopefully complacency doesn't overthrow him off his high perch.
Ever since returning to College after his operation, Hans had been feeling emotionally unstable. While his moods only reverberated off the meter from lame to emo, of late, he seemed to add anger and darkness to his list of best friends. And his emotional best friends seem to be threatening his real ones. While John & Hans have been close friends since the start of semester, a wall seemed to have been erected between them, a wall Hans thinks will continue growing. Is this the beginning of a backsliding friendship? As always, only time can tell.
Sanya Dival was another victim of Hans' changed attitude. For the first time since knowing each other, they had a fight, with Hans storming off and Sanya needing to call him back. All because Sanya wanted to know what THE thing was. Hans intended for his 'game' to continue, but Sanya was getting tad annoyed. So Hans succumbed to his ex and finally told her the problem, and was met with a silent and awkward look from Sanya. Will they get back together now that she knows what it is? By the look on her face, probability is low.
And what about Sunway's 'Silent Hottie', Sue Ann? While she attracts attention from hot-blooded perverts who never seem to let their eyes relax, little is known about what goes on in her head, and heart. Is there anyone she's interested in? Perhaps a little incident might shed some light, despite it being far from conclusive.Hans, Angie and Nick were having their not-so-routine drink after lessons when they met with Sue. Angie thought she might have picked up something between Sue and Hans. Women intuition? And with the texting going on between Hans and Sue on a daily basis, there may jus be something there...Who knows?
What's in store for the "changed" Hans Basil. Will his new "best friends" threaten to derail him off the social train and back into obscurity? Will his "Miss Significant", who's yet to be introduced, play any 'significant' role? What will happen now that Sanya knows the truth, and how will it affect Angie. Will John realise the wall before its too late? And what about Jay Dic? Has overachievement pushed him off the edge that it's caused him sleepy days in college and backsliding marks? Can he buck up before Finals? Find out in time to come, along with the much anticipated introduction of Hans' "Miss Significant".
21 October 2008
Jay Dic is the kind of boy who seems to be perpetually tied to his mommy's apron strings. What he may lack in independance and social culture he makes up in intelligence and overachievement. Jay's aim to recieve the prestigious scholarship seemed to be sliding further and further away from his grasp. With the academic results he's been getting in English and Econs, even a free pass to Semester 2 may be a bridge too far. Who said his intelligence was whole?
Hans, dazed and blank from his late nights of random onlining, struggled to keep up with Accounts. His mind wondered back to the previous night at 1:45 am, where his dark thoughts kept him awake. Unable to resist the oppressive power of his thoughts, he sought help from his close friend Nick, who eased the situation with a few Marlboro Lights. Is Hans finally caving in to what he swore he never would? Addiction? And what was with the intense texting between him and Sue during class? Is there something going on that people don't know about? After all, Hans was wearing a shirt with the words "PLAYBOY IN SHIRT" emblazoned on it. A hint or a clue? Or a lame attempt at trying to be one?
It was a relatively quiet day in Sunway University College, with the mundane activities taking place in and around school, people going on about their daily activities. People like Sanya and Angie, who like every girl, needs a best friend to lean on. Thankfully, they have each other, and they have had the strongest of ties. But that's because nothing has shaken them up yet. When it does, will their friendship be able to withstand it? Or will it crumble and collapse into oblivion?
One thing is sure though, and that is the reappearance of a very significant girl in Hans' life. Though not physically, her sudden advent is sure to cause some ripples in Hans' already unstable life. With all the things weighing down in his mind, will Hans be able to control this? Will this significant girl be Hans' saving grace, or will she be the straw that broke the camel's back? Only time can answer this, so stay right here for updates, along with the introduction of the new "Miss Significant". Till then...
Monday, October 20, 2008
End of the Beginning
Sunway's All Round Entertainer. Provides the jokes, tricks and flicks. Master of the anatomy. Mr 'Popular', friends with almost all students in the college. Influenced by a friend to pick up a detrimental activity, became addicted, and now, he's influencing others. Youngest of the lot, but most experienced in his specific field of interest.
Constantly wrapped in her own world with little knowledge of the events occuring in and around College. Hardly ignorant.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Internalities
"Internalities" are the benefits & costs due to production or consumption of a good that affects the consumer or producer himself
Beh Jun Biao
My roommate and SOLE foundation of my social life here in KL/College. Yes, I am indebted to him for making my life here not-so-miserable. Vocally blessed and not afraid to flaunt it. Closet Entertainer.
Nicholas Ivan
The entertainer/comedian/Jack-of-Some-Trades. One who brightens up the mood around everyone with his immature and lame antics. Pretty good at magic and racist jokes.
Lim Tsu Ann
Has a love for Econs, and applies Econominc concepts into everyday life. Is a closet lame-o but portrays the proverbial "do-not-disturb-me" facade in school.
Anushya Vadivale & Angela Foo
They look better than this and this pic doesnt do them justice. Both of them are equally lame and i suppose they became that way as a result of hanging ard me too much. Musically talented and amazingly psychic.
Negative Internalities are the costs due to production or consumption of a good that affects the consumer or producer himself. When positive internalities arise, depreciation of positive feelings occur. Here is a negative internality:
Accounts
One confusing and mentally tiring subject that does not seem to provide any use in life. Plethora of useless applications exist in this subject. Made more annoying with the help of the lecturer. Nothing personal, just that with her at the helm, Accounts is doomed for failure.
There are other positive & negative internalities but they will not be covered in this syllabus.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Goodbye Apathy
So the week passed by rather insignificantly (does the word exist?) save the math and econs test/trial exam yst and today.. i felt fucked up for the math cos i din get the answer everyone else got and i studied that particular topic so hard..asshole..well hopefully i got the right one and everyone else got it wrong..ok fat chance of that happening.. wait..is it fat chance or slim chance? arent they both like completely opposite words but yet they portray the same meaning..weird...
Econs trials were surprsisingly good to me...cept for the bloody cold room..i swore my body temp dropped like crazy at a rate of 3degrees/min...my body temp is highly elastic... A lil increase in aircon temperature causes a more than proportionate change in my body temp...so amidst struggling to write, my teeth were chattering and i was shivering like a gorilla in the north pole...
After Econs went to AC to play pool..ive had a fluctuating relationship with AC..at times its my best fren and others it jus sux... today was one of those times it became my foe... lookin 4wd to it but after the first game i knew it was gonna be a crappy day..and i was right.. i won 3 out of like a gazillion games..i jus wonder how my frens are so good at everything..pool, badminton, studies, singing(ok not all of em, only one)..i know practice makes perfect and shit but ive been playin for so long and i still suck as ever..maybe im destined to be an ultimate failure...
So, I was kinda excited and happy the whole day (something really rare with me cos im either emo-ing or inundated with things to worry abt..which in turn causes me to turn emo) cos my bro informed he was gonna club with two other cuzins of mine..i miss clubbin like hell and obviously i was bloody lookin 4wd to it..then while playin pool he msged me askin me to make my way to wherever they were gonna club by myself in half an hr..i was like bloody hell im not even clubbily dressed and the KL transport system is my worst nightmare..(other than the recurring death ones i get)..so the derived conclusion was that ill not be joining em ..so i became tad upset and cldnt really enjoy the rest of the nite..
I wonder if im even normal in the first place...my emotions changes faster than Superman changes into his undies..one second im hyper, the next happy, then depressed, a min later emo, then apathetic, then being everyones best fren..wat the hell is wrong with me? i shd admit myself into a mental hospital for everyone's good.. I wonder if this merry-go-round of mood swings will stop see-sawing and sliding..ok i shd stop..cos its lame..and cos i donno other playground play things.. wadever u call them..
Three tests come up in the next week, two of which are jus gauges..and then finals in Nov.. the semester is passin by so fast and before i can say "Wow the whole semester is moving so fast and i din realise its already past half of october and its gonna be nov and we're gonna have to sit for finals", finals are gonna come crashing on me and itll knock me flat...bollocks...
Ive never studied so much in the past few days, no thx to math and mainly econs but hopefully the momentum carries on till finals..knowing myself it prolly wont..hell i dun even feel like studying no more..so much for even hoping..stupid jackass of an asshole...ok wat?
Oh, jus rmbed..MUFY talent quest was on thurs..was sposed to emcee the show but my wound and overall indecisiveness cost me the place..i reckoned i wdve done a better job..(nah i wdnt have..tht bloody student shit still haunts me)..most of the performances were rather sad and moody..save for a dance performance of 2 of my frens (there was another girl but i donno her) which was really good and SHD have won (moreover they practised like hell)..but accrding to wat i hrd the judges thot they were too sexy or sth(the performers, not judges...duh) i was rather disappointed at another fren's performance...she sang well wen practising..but the mic and sound system let her down..such a pity..cant the college afford better sound systems? i mean we pay crazy bucks and we get shit returns..same for the bloody hostels..increase rental fees but standard still like shit..wats up with all these blood-sucking fuckers who prolly woke up with watermelons shoved up their asses...
I hope the following week is good to me..(do i alwaes say this near the end of my post? yes i tink so..i shd be more creative...)ok..i hope...shit i cant tink of anything... oh well..jus hope that things don get too crazy..God knows my fucked up mind is unstable...one lil thing could jus cause my brain to blow..and all there'll be is jus air...lol..ok lame...bye la..
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Monsoon
Wednesday and Thursday (yesterday) were quite taxing since my woundy thingy hadnt exactly healed and im kinda takin a risk by movin abt too much but i had no choice cos i din wanna miss too many lessons...the 3 days missed really took its toll on me..playin catch up is an extremely sucky game and for once it made me stressed to the brim..not helpin was the fact that i had econs to study for on friday (todae)..paper was ok tho im sure i made careless errors again...so this weekend is gonna be fucky cos i have so much of work to do...and thats only academics...
Cant bliv this "dream-come-true" scenario (ok it wasnt exactly a dream) lasted all of one month...and its sad that it ended exactly on the one month "anniversary"...i guess some things jus don work out... and i dunno how things deteriorated..
So here's the story..boy sees girl..boy likes girl...girl is with a fucker...who leaves college and the country.."fate" intervenes and girl sees boy...girl likes boy...both admit liking each other and voila a relationship is created...get the plot so far? too bad if u dont.. feelings towards each other were really strong but TIME reared its headless head and threatened to destroy the wonderful union of boy and girl..but boy and girl remained adamant that they could work it out...unfortunately, the problems continued and proved too strong for both to handle..on top of that, boy was sensing a change in feelings, prolly cos he felt things had moved way too fast...but was reluctant to let girl know..partly cos he was confused and didnt know what to do..shd he jus end or fight the seemingly lost cause?
As time dragged on boy could feel that a major decision was needed to be made and he had a conclusion drawn. he was jus waiting for the right time to let girl know..but girl, being extremely psychic, sensed trouble and confided in her bestie, who refused to divulge any info..partly cos she was tryin to remain loyal to both boy and girl...But it remained a matter of time b4 the inevitable occured and on the one month anniversary boy planned to tell girl of his decision(really bad day btw)..but circumstances refused to permit this..but girl, being psychic(as mentioned) knew abt it & smsed boy later that night, and revealed her heart out to him...so boy called girl and the once happy union was now nothin but an empty shell...both agreed to remain frens and see wat time had in store but boy only hopes now that girl is ok with it (she said she is but who knows) and that things don get awkward... and boy jus realised that the one month union, though fun at times, was actually a battle to fight the problems than actually being together..strange...
So boy and girl now have a fresh start after a relatively tumultuous one month and hopefully things don get too heywire...(is tt correct?)...for now, boy jus hopes to concentrate on his studies as finals are so freakin near and plans to lay off girls in the meantime..and by that he duz not mean he'll start going after boys... May a good weekend + week lay ahead..too much have happened in the past few daes... Ciao...
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
End of Unofficial Extended Break
Signs of me being an alien:
-One meal can last me 2 days
-Ppl drink 7-8 glasses of water a day, I drink one in 7 days (sometimes less)
-I rarely understand ppl's emotion
-I have weird emotions and way of thinking
-Lame and Retarded are my best friends (to the very extreme its disturbing)
-And perhaps the most obvious one of em is the 2 antennas on my head
Im sure there are many more signs but this is what i can rmb...
During the break (official one week one), I barely did any studying, no thx to my wound (which has kinda healed tremendously and i can now walk without lookin like an oldie), but i also din study durin the extended period..all i did was slack at home by random onlining...and so i begun to get really worried cos id never missed class prior to this and i have a problem of playin catch up (not cos of my wound...ok lame)..so i donno if missin three days of school will harm my momentum...well i think ive been doin kinda ok in school (as compared to sec school whr i jus fooled ard and basically din study) and im hopin i can cope..ppl keep insisting tt im smart and i can cope ezily and honestly i get a lil pissed at that..i know for a fact im not smart..i jus follow lectures and do hw.. with finals jus a month or less away god knows i cant afford to slack ard as much as i did b4..but damn were those times of endless hrs slackin in coll with foofoo and nunu fun...i make it seem as if it was a long time ago and tt itll nvr happen again..lol..oh, and i realised tt i never actually luff out loud, let alone luff, wen i type lol (does anyone ever?), so i decided to change lol to cis-cryin in softly..yes im that lame (refer to point 5 under Signs of me being alien)
I donno why i keep worrying and thinkin about every damn thing my pathetic brain can tink of and worry abt..i can never seem to relax and im sure theres some psychological problem with me..i alwaes believed i was dropped on my head wen i was born..either that or im really mentally retarded and not know it..(do mentally retarded ppl know theyre mentally retarded?)... and as if my deteriorating hearing isnt bad enuf, my once self-praised perfect eyesight has decided to join my hearing in being afflicted.. i have to wear specs..i look weird and i feel weirder..pretty soon my nose will get worse and so will my tongue...and finally ill lose my sense of touch.. then ill be a complete alien..oh i geddit now its all the process of Alienization (see how extremely lame i can get? it's worrying)
There's so many things running thru my mind and frankly its drivin me nuts..(i am mentally retarded)...i jus wish for ONCE i can stop worrying abt something but i guess its jus the way im wired..one thing that alwaes envelopes my mind is the thought of being nice to someone..if i SHD actually be nice to ppl..ive had this thing so many times where ppl take advantage of my niceness and walk all over me..I swear nvr to be nice to ppl but wat do u know? Somehow or other i end up bein nice to em..again its jus the way im wired.. does bein nice really pay? i mean yea niceness shd be sincere and blah blah but theres so much one person..or alien..can take.. ok now im being tad emo.. maybe more than tad...and this is jus ONE thing that perpetually bothers me..of coz there are other things like college and studies and still other things that take centrestage in my mind but i feel lazy to type em out..anywae its not like ppl will actually read this long shit or like advice will drop from the sky..even if it did i reckon it will miss my head and drop to the floor..
I really hope that i can regain my momentum in school and start puttin in more effort in studying and reduce the slacking, fun as it was..hopefully the reduced slacking doesnt ruffle some feathers...knowin things it prolly will...but i guess i have to deal with it wen..and IF..it happens..hopefully it duzn..i got too much crap to deal with already...im gonna start packin my stuff then wash up and head for bed..hopefully i get a good day tmr considerin the past few days have been pretty fucked up.. ciao...