When a disease strikes a human being, it can cause many forms of affliction, depending on several factors- the immune system of that affected, the form of disease and how dangerous that disease could be. Once it enters your body, the only way to remove it is to innoculate some sort of medicine, hoping that it would work and cure the body of that affliction. Not all medicine are helpful though, as some diseases can ultimately lead to death. Same theory applies with everyday problems. Not all solutions work, and the seriousness of a problem depends on its nature, and how an individual tackles it.
Ever since moving in to Palmville, John Bow experienced disparate emotions. Excited at the thought of finally living in a place worthy of being called a home, and happy at the prospect of not having to deal with security guards eyeing him suspiciously. On top of that, he could finally place full concentration on his studies without needless distractions, and he had been reunited with an old friend. The downside- initially getting into perpetual conflicts with a certain someone and the tiresome walk to and from college. But the pros definitely outweigh the cons, as he seems to have adjusted to life pretty well. But of late, he seems to have been muscled by problems pertaining to his future, one common scenario faced by almost all teens and young adults. Not so an issue last year, it seemed to have amplified now as he contemplated staying put or searching for greener pastures elsewhere. As if that was not a burden enough, he had to tolerate Hans Basil's unnecessary dish of attitude on a daily basis, for reasons unknown. But it seems on that front, the entire messy saga had finally concluded.
Hans Basil was fully aware that nothing goes his way, but even with the knowledge he was powerless for he was fighting a war with the intangible. But, he seems to learn a few lessons, one being that opportunity comes knocking only once. The past month, that opportunity came for him when he could quit, but he threw it away. This time, he grabbed it, and he utilized it well. Hans was waiting with John for Diane Shine and Nick Ivans to complete their tasks, when John started conversing with him randomly. Sensing an opportunity, Hans grabbed it and subsequently resulted in a heart-to-heart conversation with his ex-roommmate, the first real conversation they have had since Hans' return. John now had a clearer picture of the entire misunderstanding, and the chapter could be closed for the opening of the next. But doubts still linger if the honesty from the pair was sincere, or just a mere facade at making the other believe everything was okay and rosy again.
Without John as his hostel accomplice, Hans needed a new outlet to ease his misery. Nick Ivans provided that support with his undivided loyalty and time, but Hans still received new outlets, a chance outing with someone not from the norm leading to random nights of meetings and conversations. And it was one particular night where this mystery friend revealed shocking news that if ever leaked could destroy more than one student in Sunway. Hans had no problem keeping secrets. Only thing was, the secret concerned a friend. Would Hans honour his word, but betray his friend in the process? Or would he put his friend first, and betray the trust his new acquaintance had put in him?
That was the least of his problems though, after reality bit him hard that this semester was not going to be a walk in the park, his math test results a bitter indication of things to come, as he suffered the agony of being last in class. In addition, circumstances made him regret his decision to return even more. Hans was being beaten down struggling to cope with the hectic pace of studies, and now that he made his decision to return, an external source is pulling for his return- the Singapore Government. Having escaped government service by virtue of his studies last August, it seems the free pass lasted only once, with his return back to his hometown expected within the upcoming weeks. Defer, and face punishment. Hans just can never get a break.
Missing-in-Action Sanya Dival had been pretty quiet of late, absent from the social scene and gliding through Sunway like a ghost, with only glimpses of her appearance. There could be good reason. Last year, Sanya and Hans were viewed as Sunway's "It" couple, perched on their thrones and enjoying life in college. But what goes up must come down, and it did. Fights and conflicts had lead to them breaking up, and it appears that individually, they could not achieve what they had accomplished last year, with a new male and female student in the spotlight this time round- Brazilian Lukas, and Diane Shine. With his actor good-looks and million dollar smile, Lukas had all of Sunway's girls falling at his feet. Included was Angie Flo, whose heart melted at first sight. As for Diane, she seemed to be the centre of male attention, shoving Sanya off the spot she had sustained for long periods in her peak period. It looks like Sanya had a plan up her sleeve, setting her eyes on a new guy in college, identity relatively unknown. Could he be the catalyst that skyrockets Sanya back to the top?
While Angie Flo isn't daydreaming about Lukas or gazing at him, she either studies, or puts her good heart to good use. Being one who shares a lot of concern for her friends, Angie pained to see her close friend Hans feel miserable due to his falling out with John, so she tried playing peacemaker. Her attempt bombed as both Hans and John were tight-lipped on the issue, refusing to disclose any information. Angie, while having good intentions, should not be too concerned with their status yet, for there seems to be trouble brewing in her own paradise. She had suffered her own problems with Sanya the past few weeks, and history looks to be repeating itself. Struggling with studies as well, Angie appears to be in the same sinking boat as Hans.
In Sunway, no one seems to be having it easy. Nick and Sue Anne battle matters of the heart, the latter's brother and John dealing with studies and Angie and Hans grappling with both issues. With each new day come new problems, but solutions do not appear as fast as the problems. And with these niggling issues piling up perpetually, will they culminate in the mental breakdown of these students? Who has the mental capacity to overcome the tribulations thrown at them? With power comes great responsibility, and with problems come great despondency.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
*The Midnight Show
Every year is littered with significant days. From the beginning, there is New Year's Day, where resolutions are made but rarely fulfilled. Recently passed was Valentine's Day, love basking in the spotlight for couples to admire each other's adoration. National Day marks the independence of a country, while there are days of religious pertinence in lieu of the diverse religions in the world. For the happily married, there could be a wedding anniversary. But for every single being in the world, there is one day that contains significance to them- their birthdays. The day that could bring joy or sorrow, that yet another year has passed, and another cycle of ageing is complete. But being one year older does not necessarily constitute to a year's worth of intelligence gained though.
Angie Flo and Hans Basil were masters of surprises. Last year witnessed the shock birthday surprise thrown for John Bow, who was completely unsuspecting. This year, albeit in lighter fashion, the recepient of the surprise was Sue Anne. This time it was tad different as it was not her real birthday, and there were more surprise planners courtesy of Theo Oscar and Diane Shine. The surprise party went well, as the celebrations continued late into the night. But Sue was about to learn a painful lesson on her real birthday.
Prior to her birthday, Nick Ivans, Sue, Diane and Hans had developed a new study plan, whereby they would congregate at the college foyer and study together. Initial sceptical of the success rate, the plan worked well and became integrated into their nightly routine, as Nick and Diane found their nights more interesting and Hans could finally pick up some momentum after struggling since semester 2 started. On top of that, they gained a new friend by virtue of Diane- Cheez Kenzo. His friendly nature soon endured the others to him as he joined in the nightly study routine.
Sue had the misfortune of enduring being insinuated "dumb" after a report stating that high heels were linked to low IQ, and her predilection for heels did not help. And she further substantiated that report after suffering a fall on the eve of her birthday which resulted in a blemish on her supermodel legs. First warning- heeded?
After another study session in the foyer, the four friends headed to the bus stop outside the hostel where they engaged in conversation amidst supper and music. Midnight came and gone, and Sue's birthday arrived- in continuous terrible fashion. She somehow failed to spot a bag of water on the bench, sat on it, and ended up wetting her behind. Uncomfortable start to her 19th year. Putting the mini traumatic experience behind her, the conversations continued, where one of Hans' dark secrets was accidentally revealed to the other three, one even John Bow was not aware of. Judging from the reaction of his friends, it seemed the secret was safe with them. But surely he can't be a hundred percent confident though, especially not after last weekend's crazy occurences were disseminated less than a day it happened. This after it was solemnly agreed not to be revealed.
For several days, John, Sue and Hans suffered the agony of being picked on by the Econs lecturer Pat Riba. Once seen as a nice lecturer by the trio, she seemd to have turned into an evil monster this semester, having it for them. And the fact that they cannot save themselves by answering her questions just made it all the more worse. And of course, in line with the past 'tragic' events, the bad streak had to continue, with Sue again being picked on by the lecturer. Seems like her birthday was turning into a living nightmare. And as if dealing with the confusion regarding Dan Wise was not enough, a certain Mr Mysterious looked to have annoyed himself into her life, adding more to her woes. One semester she had it all going for her, and the next, everything is taken back and re-worked. Maybe the small birthday lunch with Diane, Angie and Hans after class eased her pain slightly. Maybe.
As the end of yet another week approached, things were heating up, especially with 'Boho Night' on the cards. Hans and Sue had been looking forward to it particularly after the many failed attempts, with the last successful night carried out last year. And this night was in danger of failing again, but Mitch DJ and Ana managed to salvage the situation.
AC had always been the venue of the weekend, where all happening students and young adults patronize to showcase their pool skills. Sue, Hans and Nick engaged in several rounds before Diane came along together with her friend Shawn and another. Lack of punctuality threatened to call off 'Boho Night', but Sue managed to convince Hans to stay and wait for the duo, while Nick set for home citing his undesirability to drink and party. But not before he disclosed a disturbing fact to Hans, who was bewildered beyond comprehension at the words that escaped his friends' mouth.
Once Mitch and Ana arrived, the fun amplified, and their latecoming was deemed void. Supplying the beverages, the duo together with the other 5 then left AC for Rock Cafe to start gorging themselves silly on alcohol and games. It started slow due to unexpected circumstances-the usually subservient workers suddenly turning offensive and uncooperative, but Shawn managed to set things right. And once he did, the true fun began, with typical antics on display and controversial questions asked. But the highlight had to be Sue Anne turning drunk while everyone else was still sober. Shrieks of "I'm so dizzy!", "Everything's spinning!" and "I'm not drunk!" echoed into the night sky as Hans, Mitch and Diane had to assist the newly turned 19 year old manoeuvre her way around. Things finally got less hectic once Sue evacuated some consumption before heading back, and managed to reach home safely, though not efficiently.
As morning grew on and light threatened to break the darkness, Hans, Diane and Shawn headed back to their respective hostels, glad that another weekend was here. But in Sunway, weekends was usually an excuse for partying, clubbing, hanging out-basically everything but studying. As the assignements start streaming in and the workload start piling up, judging from the current state of things, chances are the pile would increase faster than it is cleared. One can only hope Sunway's Mixed learn to prioritize properly, but they can be forgiven for not doing so, given the current circumstances some are in. With so many issues pinching at these individuals, one does wonder if college life is the most fun phase of a person's life after all.
Angie Flo and Hans Basil were masters of surprises. Last year witnessed the shock birthday surprise thrown for John Bow, who was completely unsuspecting. This year, albeit in lighter fashion, the recepient of the surprise was Sue Anne. This time it was tad different as it was not her real birthday, and there were more surprise planners courtesy of Theo Oscar and Diane Shine. The surprise party went well, as the celebrations continued late into the night. But Sue was about to learn a painful lesson on her real birthday.
Prior to her birthday, Nick Ivans, Sue, Diane and Hans had developed a new study plan, whereby they would congregate at the college foyer and study together. Initial sceptical of the success rate, the plan worked well and became integrated into their nightly routine, as Nick and Diane found their nights more interesting and Hans could finally pick up some momentum after struggling since semester 2 started. On top of that, they gained a new friend by virtue of Diane- Cheez Kenzo. His friendly nature soon endured the others to him as he joined in the nightly study routine.
Sue had the misfortune of enduring being insinuated "dumb" after a report stating that high heels were linked to low IQ, and her predilection for heels did not help. And she further substantiated that report after suffering a fall on the eve of her birthday which resulted in a blemish on her supermodel legs. First warning- heeded?
After another study session in the foyer, the four friends headed to the bus stop outside the hostel where they engaged in conversation amidst supper and music. Midnight came and gone, and Sue's birthday arrived- in continuous terrible fashion. She somehow failed to spot a bag of water on the bench, sat on it, and ended up wetting her behind. Uncomfortable start to her 19th year. Putting the mini traumatic experience behind her, the conversations continued, where one of Hans' dark secrets was accidentally revealed to the other three, one even John Bow was not aware of. Judging from the reaction of his friends, it seemed the secret was safe with them. But surely he can't be a hundred percent confident though, especially not after last weekend's crazy occurences were disseminated less than a day it happened. This after it was solemnly agreed not to be revealed.
For several days, John, Sue and Hans suffered the agony of being picked on by the Econs lecturer Pat Riba. Once seen as a nice lecturer by the trio, she seemd to have turned into an evil monster this semester, having it for them. And the fact that they cannot save themselves by answering her questions just made it all the more worse. And of course, in line with the past 'tragic' events, the bad streak had to continue, with Sue again being picked on by the lecturer. Seems like her birthday was turning into a living nightmare. And as if dealing with the confusion regarding Dan Wise was not enough, a certain Mr Mysterious looked to have annoyed himself into her life, adding more to her woes. One semester she had it all going for her, and the next, everything is taken back and re-worked. Maybe the small birthday lunch with Diane, Angie and Hans after class eased her pain slightly. Maybe.
As the end of yet another week approached, things were heating up, especially with 'Boho Night' on the cards. Hans and Sue had been looking forward to it particularly after the many failed attempts, with the last successful night carried out last year. And this night was in danger of failing again, but Mitch DJ and Ana managed to salvage the situation.
AC had always been the venue of the weekend, where all happening students and young adults patronize to showcase their pool skills. Sue, Hans and Nick engaged in several rounds before Diane came along together with her friend Shawn and another. Lack of punctuality threatened to call off 'Boho Night', but Sue managed to convince Hans to stay and wait for the duo, while Nick set for home citing his undesirability to drink and party. But not before he disclosed a disturbing fact to Hans, who was bewildered beyond comprehension at the words that escaped his friends' mouth.
Once Mitch and Ana arrived, the fun amplified, and their latecoming was deemed void. Supplying the beverages, the duo together with the other 5 then left AC for Rock Cafe to start gorging themselves silly on alcohol and games. It started slow due to unexpected circumstances-the usually subservient workers suddenly turning offensive and uncooperative, but Shawn managed to set things right. And once he did, the true fun began, with typical antics on display and controversial questions asked. But the highlight had to be Sue Anne turning drunk while everyone else was still sober. Shrieks of "I'm so dizzy!", "Everything's spinning!" and "I'm not drunk!" echoed into the night sky as Hans, Mitch and Diane had to assist the newly turned 19 year old manoeuvre her way around. Things finally got less hectic once Sue evacuated some consumption before heading back, and managed to reach home safely, though not efficiently.
As morning grew on and light threatened to break the darkness, Hans, Diane and Shawn headed back to their respective hostels, glad that another weekend was here. But in Sunway, weekends was usually an excuse for partying, clubbing, hanging out-basically everything but studying. As the assignements start streaming in and the workload start piling up, judging from the current state of things, chances are the pile would increase faster than it is cleared. One can only hope Sunway's Mixed learn to prioritize properly, but they can be forgiven for not doing so, given the current circumstances some are in. With so many issues pinching at these individuals, one does wonder if college life is the most fun phase of a person's life after all.
Monday, February 23, 2009
*The Sacred Valentine
14th February. The day of the year where love is in the air; couples spending extravagantly on lavish dinners and outings to declare their love and compassion to their significant other. For the attached, this single day could be the greatest of their lives. For the single, it could be the worst, having to witness nauseating public displays of affection at all corners, reminding them of their own lonely days. But there are others though, who look upon this day as just another normal day with no significance- Sunway's Mixed. And luckily for them that they did.
Valentine's Day could not have started more terribly than it did for Hans Basil, Nick Ivans and Dan Wise. As if having to sit for a test was not bad enough, the test had to be taken on a Saturday. And to compund the trio's misery, all were single. Not that that particular fact affected their Math test.
While Nick and Dan found the test simple enough to comprehend but not easy enough to be overrun by complacency, Hans was facing an unprecendented nighmare. While he breezed through all his internal and even external tests last semester, the first one proved to be a major stumbling block. Once the academic superstar, he now had to descend from his throne as he looked to Nick and Sue Anne for assistance in Math the night before, losing all superiority he had accumulated. Last year witnessed the rise of carelessness costing him precious marks; this time though, he wasn't lucky enough to even be careless, for he did not acquire the knowledge to attempt the questions. Poor, poor Hans. Aiming to eradicate carelessness, and now the cycle has worked backwards.
Nick and John Bow did not have a good start to the supposed day of love. While brotherly love may have been aplenty, it was all vanished in an instant of folly. Nick and Hans were enjoying themselves extinguishing zombies in the local cyber cafe when the fomer received a distress call from John informing that the tap had leaked and the unit was flooded. Nick remained unfazed, claiming he was not a plumber and he could not do anything. Little did he know he possessed certain skills he did know know about. Or maybe common sense prevailed.
Kitchen-Flooded. Living room- Wet. John Bow- Tirelessly sweeping water out of the kitchen, racing against the rate of water leaking from the tap. As Hans watched on, amused, Nick launched himself into the kitchen, meddled with a few items and before long, he had managed to turn the leaking tap off. John look nonchalant, probably dissimulating embarrassment, while Hans' look was one of shock. He continued watching the pair clean up the mess, wanting to assist, but not knowing how to. And after the whole chaos, still not a friendly word had been passed between John and Hans, while Nick expressed his disgust and disappointment at the deficiencies his seemingly ill-eqipped housemate possessed.
After the initial vast emptiness that engulfed Hans after John moved out, he wished that loneliness would not be his sole company. Strangely, he acclimatised well, utilising the room and resulting privacy to his full advantage. Now adapted to the solace that the room provided him, it seems his run of fun is about to end, with the shocking news of a new roommate. With stories of uncooperative roommates told from friends etched in his mind, it seems this time, Lady Love had taken over the reigns of destruction from Lady Luck. Has anyone ever been so unlucky to endure so much suffering in so little time? Well, there's always a first for everything.
Singles Jac Bizkit, John, Nick, Sue and Hans went for the regular game of pool to release stress and worry less. While tension was clearly visible between Hans and John, there was rapport between the others. And when John left due to the nauseating deadline of the dreaded research paper, no one envisaged that the fun would amplify truckloads.
The remaining 3 guys and girl departed for the globally ubiquitious McDonalds due to Hans' rumbling stomach, despite having patronised that outlet countless times. And that turned out to be the best decision ever made for the day. Without John, Hans and Jac could bond more easily, and they did, setting up the mood for the 1 and a half hours spent in the tiny fast-food joint, with jokes running, laughter reverberating around and sporadic serious conversations taking place. Secret like information were disseminated between them as each enjoyed themselves thoroughly. Whoever said singles couldn't have fun on Valentine's Day?
The cherry on the cake whose baking process started off badly- Sue and Hans crashing Nick's unit in Palmville, the triumvirate furthering their bonding in the swimming pool. The night ended tad badly though, with lack of sleep being a determinant of energy, and the following morning got worse for Hans as John continued his silent treatment. But this time, Hans was not too bothered by it, seeking comfort in the knowledge his plan had been launched and he was successful hitherto, fighting back to keep himself from falling. It seems this time round he possessed an obstinacy conspicuously lacking last time round.
Valentine's. Only Diane Shine truly engaged in it, spending the evening with her significant other, while the rest mingled with themselves. Love knows no boundaries, love is blind and the list goes on. But at times, those phrases are slightly twerked, and when it is, all hell can break loose. News of someone batting for the other team has surfaced, amidst murmers of his past failures in relationships with the opposite sex. Whether this is true can't be substantiated with evidence, but if it is indeed, then things certainly look more interesting in the city that never sleeps.
Valentine's Day could not have started more terribly than it did for Hans Basil, Nick Ivans and Dan Wise. As if having to sit for a test was not bad enough, the test had to be taken on a Saturday. And to compund the trio's misery, all were single. Not that that particular fact affected their Math test.
While Nick and Dan found the test simple enough to comprehend but not easy enough to be overrun by complacency, Hans was facing an unprecendented nighmare. While he breezed through all his internal and even external tests last semester, the first one proved to be a major stumbling block. Once the academic superstar, he now had to descend from his throne as he looked to Nick and Sue Anne for assistance in Math the night before, losing all superiority he had accumulated. Last year witnessed the rise of carelessness costing him precious marks; this time though, he wasn't lucky enough to even be careless, for he did not acquire the knowledge to attempt the questions. Poor, poor Hans. Aiming to eradicate carelessness, and now the cycle has worked backwards.
Nick and John Bow did not have a good start to the supposed day of love. While brotherly love may have been aplenty, it was all vanished in an instant of folly. Nick and Hans were enjoying themselves extinguishing zombies in the local cyber cafe when the fomer received a distress call from John informing that the tap had leaked and the unit was flooded. Nick remained unfazed, claiming he was not a plumber and he could not do anything. Little did he know he possessed certain skills he did know know about. Or maybe common sense prevailed.
Kitchen-Flooded. Living room- Wet. John Bow- Tirelessly sweeping water out of the kitchen, racing against the rate of water leaking from the tap. As Hans watched on, amused, Nick launched himself into the kitchen, meddled with a few items and before long, he had managed to turn the leaking tap off. John look nonchalant, probably dissimulating embarrassment, while Hans' look was one of shock. He continued watching the pair clean up the mess, wanting to assist, but not knowing how to. And after the whole chaos, still not a friendly word had been passed between John and Hans, while Nick expressed his disgust and disappointment at the deficiencies his seemingly ill-eqipped housemate possessed.
After the initial vast emptiness that engulfed Hans after John moved out, he wished that loneliness would not be his sole company. Strangely, he acclimatised well, utilising the room and resulting privacy to his full advantage. Now adapted to the solace that the room provided him, it seems his run of fun is about to end, with the shocking news of a new roommate. With stories of uncooperative roommates told from friends etched in his mind, it seems this time, Lady Love had taken over the reigns of destruction from Lady Luck. Has anyone ever been so unlucky to endure so much suffering in so little time? Well, there's always a first for everything.
Singles Jac Bizkit, John, Nick, Sue and Hans went for the regular game of pool to release stress and worry less. While tension was clearly visible between Hans and John, there was rapport between the others. And when John left due to the nauseating deadline of the dreaded research paper, no one envisaged that the fun would amplify truckloads.
The remaining 3 guys and girl departed for the globally ubiquitious McDonalds due to Hans' rumbling stomach, despite having patronised that outlet countless times. And that turned out to be the best decision ever made for the day. Without John, Hans and Jac could bond more easily, and they did, setting up the mood for the 1 and a half hours spent in the tiny fast-food joint, with jokes running, laughter reverberating around and sporadic serious conversations taking place. Secret like information were disseminated between them as each enjoyed themselves thoroughly. Whoever said singles couldn't have fun on Valentine's Day?
The cherry on the cake whose baking process started off badly- Sue and Hans crashing Nick's unit in Palmville, the triumvirate furthering their bonding in the swimming pool. The night ended tad badly though, with lack of sleep being a determinant of energy, and the following morning got worse for Hans as John continued his silent treatment. But this time, Hans was not too bothered by it, seeking comfort in the knowledge his plan had been launched and he was successful hitherto, fighting back to keep himself from falling. It seems this time round he possessed an obstinacy conspicuously lacking last time round.
Valentine's. Only Diane Shine truly engaged in it, spending the evening with her significant other, while the rest mingled with themselves. Love knows no boundaries, love is blind and the list goes on. But at times, those phrases are slightly twerked, and when it is, all hell can break loose. News of someone batting for the other team has surfaced, amidst murmers of his past failures in relationships with the opposite sex. Whether this is true can't be substantiated with evidence, but if it is indeed, then things certainly look more interesting in the city that never sleeps.
Monday, February 16, 2009
*The Musical Dan-gue Fever
One month past into the second semester, and for Sunway's Mixed, studies had taken a back seat in the order of their priorities, unable to gain any significant momentum. Despite being forewarned that the semester held the promise of an intense workload, none seemed too bothered or worried. Except for John Bow, slogging back at home for fear he would not meet the given deadline for his Research Paper. Absent from Sunway, there seemed to be nothing much missed. Apparently.
With the absence of John, Hans Basil ironically gained the opportunity to mingle with the latter's good friend Jac Bizkit. Despite being acquainted through John for nearly 8 months, the pair had never really conversed. Perhaps John himself was a block that prevented it from happening; no one knows. Dinners with Nick Ivans and Jac Bizkit, sometimes with Sue Anne and Diane Shine, surely added some gloss to Hans' otherwise mundane nightlife. And one particular dinner was about to get tad more interesting.
Another normal dinner was on the cards when Hans called out Sue and Nick, who invited Jac. The dinner turned on its head when it was crashed by Shayne, Ash and Aron. The triumvirate gave the dinner extra exuberance as adrenaline levels were raised, with disparate conversations strewn across the table and Aron's whacky suggestions, that involved the prospect of law-breaking- molotovs. Hans, Nick and Jac politely refused participation, but Sue duly obliged, albeit refusing the first time. She was lucky the second round was not caught on camera, for she was equipped enough to know the ramifications of pernicious activities in phones.
The shenanigan had ended- Sue's relationship with Dan Wise was nothing more than a sham, a poor show on display for all of Sunway to observe and ogle. Sue's obvious lack of disconcert at Dan's obvious lack of attention and affection was all too clear to conclude that they were never together. But it seems what can't kill you does not make you stronger, but engages you in reverse psychology.
Nick had been troubled by numbers determining his future and outcomes, and of late, Sue and Hans found a different immaterial determinant of their decisions and outcomes- music. Late nights of harmless fun involving musical "questions and answers" soon turned serious as the duo realised song titles were accurately answering their questions. All scepticism disappeared when two completely disparate song answers materialised in the most unpredictable way. Which later led the way in Sue placing matters of her heart into the hands of the seemingly omnipotent music player.Sue battled nights of frustration as she fought her mind, wondering if she had in fact truly fallen for Sunway's resident hunk. Part of herself claimed she had, while the other half remained rooted in denial. Unable to satisfy her questions, she turned to music, whose answers only corroborated the painful truth she had never thought possible. It seems she learnt the lesson Hans did last year- you only yearn for something once you lose it.
The week passed by rather uneventfully, save for a few significant events, one being Hans' visit to Nick's and John's unit in Palmville. While he found the place homely and decorative, he could hardly bring himself to adore it as it reeked of betrayal, reeling him back to his days of alienation. Nick could sense Hans' feelings, but felt helpless. But it seems he soon turned into Hans' saving grace as he fulfilled the promise that John had made instead- being there for and with Hans whenever possible. With Diane and Sue completing the mini clique, the foursome look to enjoy fun times ahead. Could this be the light Hans desperately needed? After finding out John's true nature and character the hard and painful way, it seems he has launched his plan to let go. And for the first few days of its launch, his plan seemed to be working, as he became less attached with his ex-BFF and engaged more with Nick, Diane and Sue.
Activities sans studies have taken centrestage, but everyone ought to know that the workload would soon crash on them non-stop, and they need to find a way to curb the fun before they get obliterated under the immense pressure to meet deadlines. While numbers continue haunting Nick, Sue and Hans find themselves intensely hypnotised by the allure of music's clairvoyance, which has spread to mobile phones. And apparently, they managed to involve Nick, Angie Flo and Sanya Dival into the phenomenon, though not as obsessed. Will Hans' fight to remain sane continue going strong, or will John manage to find a way to break his resistance yet again? As for Sue, it seems all past unluck has culminated in the confusion swirling Dan Wise. With events roller-coastering and spiralling every single day, there seems to be no certaintly in these lives, with new surprises springing every new day.
*The City Slickers
Jac Bizkit
=========================================================Weekends in Sunway could be summed up in a word: Diverse. At times, it could be so boring the silence envelops your mind and you wish the two days would pass by quickly so that school could start, saving every modicum of whatever sanity is left. Sometimes, the 48 hours is filled to the brim with fun; too fun in fact that the hours disappear before your very eyes, making you wish the weekend never ended. At most times, it was the former that most of Sunway's Mixed experienced. And with Hans Basil no longer within the same accomodation location as Nick Ivans and John Bow, chances were high he would continue living life in solitude, while Nick and John would be living it up in Palmville. Well, not everything goes according to plan, does it?
Ever since his return to Sunway, Hans had found it extremely difficult to readjust, not helped by John Bow's cold shoulder attitude. With Katy Perry's hit song 'Hot N Cold' being the theme of their current friendship, Hans tried his best at comprehending the result of his return, his closest friends now mere course mates, his studies deteriorating. While the good-natured side in him told him to push on, the dark side threatened to release itself yet again. History was not on Hans' side though, with the last time him releasing it ending up with humble pie on his face. Maybe this time might just be different. Maybe.
Research Paper, the single work in the course weakening probably every student in Sunway. John Bow was no exception. After hearing of Hans' completion of the Introduction, he vowed to start, returning to his hometown given the extended weekend courtesy of a festive holiday. For once, he avoided the numerous distractions that knocked his door. But yet, he still lacked the edge needed in getting started, and ended up building sandcastles in the air.
With John gone for the weekend, Nick Ivans was having one of the most torrid weekends ever- alone, sans internet or cable television. After days of being complicit with John in giving Hans the cold treatment, he decided to u-turn, calling for the latter to save him from ultimate boredom. But it seems what goes around comes around, as Nick found out the hard way.
Angie Flo put her turbulent days behind her as she hosted a rager for her Sunway friends, with Sanya Dival, Sue Anne, Diane Shine and Hans amongst those invited and present. Nick was too, but he was bounded by IELTS restrictions. The party took time to settle, and once it did, fun flowed endlessly, as did the beer. As with any party, games involving drinking took centrestage as the alcohol lightened the mood and the revellers let loose, albeit still in a respectable manner. Amidst the partying, Sanya's constant asking for Nick bewildered Hans, wondering if the duo had re-lit last year's snuffed flame. But it didn't bother him too much though. With Nick sulking at home, Hans was having a blast over at Angie's. Whoever saw this coming?
After the party ceased, Hans, Diane, Sue, Shayne and Michelle departed for 1 U, where they hit the arcade and reignited their tween years, except for Hans who had never felt comfortable in one. For him, it was fun enough watching the others enjoying themselves. What was not though was receiving text messages from a desperate Nick, who was being consumed by boredom. Hans' mind was in two places, but ultimately he decided that he had to put himself first at times, and that was exactly what he did, remaining with the other 4 arcaders, leaving Nick to bond with the silence in the Palmville Paradise.
Once the gaming had stopped, it was time for dinner, and the 5 friends made a pit stop to the Curve, definitely a change of Sunway's mundane scene. Indulging in the extremely sumptuous food that Sunway could not offer was something the five enjoyed thoroughly, a distinct contrast to the dinner Nick was having at the banal Rock Cafe with Jac Bizkit, a close hometown friend of John and Dan Wise. Indulgence in the Curve did not just apply to the food, as Hans may have appointed himself a new apprentice, after Nick, in a certain pernicious activity. Can this "apprentice" maintain the image upheld all these months? Or would the new activity get caught on camera and shed black light on the apprentice's image?
Well, one activity did get caught on camera, something so shocking that if ever revealed could potentially cause detriment to two individuals' social statuses in college. And in these technology-savvy world, what the camera catches soon ends up on the internet. But the two individuals need not worry though, for the pictures and videos did not end up anywhere on the worldwide web. They were only seen with other eyes.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
*Reminder
Posts with a * are based on true occurences, but not everything is fact. Those that are indeed factual may be exaggarated to a certain extent. It is advisable to not believe everything and read the posts purely for fun, laughter, peace and joy. Seriously.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Haunt You Every Day (Weezer)
I asked thrice. 2nd was Invisible (Ashlee Simpson), 3rd was Hit Me With Your Light (Ryan Cabrera). lets ask a fourth and see if it really works... Stop This World (Ne-Yo)..sigh...(u assholes who don get wad im talkin abt can jus fuck off). i cant continue complaining and talking abt IT (actually I can but thing is theres no point.) wads the use if the person who u intend to tell it to doesnt listen.furthermore theres no opp to tell it. its pointless. this is by far the worst feeling ive ever felt.no one had managed to make me damn upset like this. its so damn diff from last yr and its killing me so bloody much. i really don tink i can continue the facade any longer. its damn hard to look and feel happy wen that THING is bothering me so much. how fast can things change man? i feel like a freakin stranger (secondhand serenade confirmed it).or maybe its jus me. mayb i brot it upon myself. i dont know. i jus know i wanna talk it out with that person but...sian..i just cant.. since wen did it become like this...so hard to talk?wen that whole move occured? definitely. no one has ever had an effect on me like this ever...i really shd stop this crap and study..right thats another issue...
Since sem 2 started ive not gotten my momentum going and im barely finishing hw, barely understanding anything and not studying. i cant catch up the shit i missed and paying attention in class doesnt do any good cos everythings confusing. which brings me to the point tt i shd never have returned at all. im jus gonna flunk all my tests and exams and shit. why why why. its all going back to sec school all over again.
went to palmville again and this time it was better. thks to Nick. Right now he's one of the ppl keeping me sane. swam with him for abt an hr and it was awesome just talking and bonding with him. haven really done that since ages after a couple of things happened and all. whole feeling was great but at the same time it cant really cure the shit feeling i have inside regarding the other person. and it got worse there. like a confirmation. i was just feelin like fuck. and im helpless. in truth now more than ever everything mentioned b4 looked like lies. i tell myself its not. but the way he acts is so damn diff man tt i jus dont know wad to do anymore. he used to be the only one keepin me going. now hes the only one makin me emo and shit. fuck man.
"She was lost
In so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
Never for the grace of God
I've been alone
When I'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But I still go home knowing that I've got you
There's only us when lights go down
Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While your busy making plans
Suddenly hit you and then you realize
It's out of your hands
Baby you got to understand"
"Ave Maria"- Beyoncé
"And I wanna believe you
When you tell me
That it'll be ok
Yeah I try to believe you
But I don't
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out to be a different way
I try to believe you
Not today today today today today
I don't know how I'll feel
Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow
I don't know what to say
Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow
Is a different day
It's always been up to you
It's turning around it's up to me
I'm gonna do what I have to do
Just don't
Give me a little time
Leave me alone a little while
Maybe it's not too late
Not today today today today today
Tomorrow it may change"
"Tomorrow"- Avril Lavigne
Since sem 2 started ive not gotten my momentum going and im barely finishing hw, barely understanding anything and not studying. i cant catch up the shit i missed and paying attention in class doesnt do any good cos everythings confusing. which brings me to the point tt i shd never have returned at all. im jus gonna flunk all my tests and exams and shit. why why why. its all going back to sec school all over again.
went to palmville again and this time it was better. thks to Nick. Right now he's one of the ppl keeping me sane. swam with him for abt an hr and it was awesome just talking and bonding with him. haven really done that since ages after a couple of things happened and all. whole feeling was great but at the same time it cant really cure the shit feeling i have inside regarding the other person. and it got worse there. like a confirmation. i was just feelin like fuck. and im helpless. in truth now more than ever everything mentioned b4 looked like lies. i tell myself its not. but the way he acts is so damn diff man tt i jus dont know wad to do anymore. he used to be the only one keepin me going. now hes the only one makin me emo and shit. fuck man.
"She was lost
In so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
Never for the grace of God
I've been alone
When I'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But I still go home knowing that I've got you
There's only us when lights go down
Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While your busy making plans
Suddenly hit you and then you realize
It's out of your hands
Baby you got to understand"
"Ave Maria"- Beyoncé
"And I wanna believe you
When you tell me
That it'll be ok
Yeah I try to believe you
But I don't
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out to be a different way
I try to believe you
Not today today today today today
I don't know how I'll feel
Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow
I don't know what to say
Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow
Is a different day
It's always been up to you
It's turning around it's up to me
I'm gonna do what I have to do
Just don't
Give me a little time
Leave me alone a little while
Maybe it's not too late
Not today today today today today
Tomorrow it may change"
"Tomorrow"- Avril Lavigne
Monday, February 9, 2009
*The Shake-Up
Sunway could be seen as the city that never sleeps, one that offers a variety of activities for the people of disparate interests- a mall ,which in itself provides a plethora of services and activities, for the shopaholics, a cyber cafe for the gamers, clubs for the revellers, futsal centres for fans of the ball game and the list is practically endless. Within Sunway University College's district, there are tennis courts, swimming pools and a field for sports buffs. And in the hostel, there is staring at walls, floors, ceilings and being introspective. A new activity Hans Basil discovered extremely engaging. Hans Basil? In Sunway?.....
48 hrs before...
1153pm. Monday. 2 February 2009. The moment Hans Basil finally acceded to the calls to return, the once-obstinate wall around his mind finally shattered. Two significant people in his life had contributed the most in the u-turn, though he was to find out that one of them would later transform agonisingly different.
With a new decision in mind, all hell broke loose as Hans struggled to find his books and pack his things. He proceeded to inform Sue Anne of his changed decision, which resulted in an eruption of immense joy. And as if the world was working in tandem and celebrating Hans' return, fireworks lit the night sky. Hans kept the change to himself, with only Sue in the know. He could somehow foresee that the future in Sunway would be bleak, and vowed to make it better for himself. Poor Outsider should have known better, for his weak mind would soon be ravaged to shreds.
Upon news of Hans' return, reactions were varied, with Diane Shine being ecstatic, Theo Oscar relieved and Nick Ivans somewhat wary, expecting the worst, Hans' indecisiveness a thorn in his mind. Angie Flo felt her emotions were being played by that same vacillation, her ongoing saga with Sanya Dival taking a heavy toll on her gradually weakening mind. Her disbelief was not lost on Hans, as he pored over the decision he made one day back. And the truth slammed into him hard as realisation dawned on him that he had made the biggest mistake of his life, throwing the opportunity that had knocked on his door.
While news propogated and people soon recieved the info, only John Bow was kept in the dark, with Hans planning to surprise him after hearing of his friend's torturous days in college. Ultimately it seemed the surprise was for Hans, as John displayed little emotion, and looked to be in perfect condition, leaving Hans bewildered and in an even worse postition than he ever was in. Perhaps Hans expected too much of his 7-month friend, whose move away from the hostel looks to have started the depreciation of their friendship. This had been foreseen weeks ago, and Hans has to learn to acclimatise quickly if he is to salvage any chance of surviving in college. Poor Outsider. Everything simply refuses to fall in line for him.
Sue Anne had been elated when Hans had informed her the very second he changed his mind, but the downward spiral of her luck continued. Fresh from feeling the joy, it was soon inundated with shock and deep sorrow as another close friend suddenly told her of her intention to depart from Sunway. One friend returns, another leaves. With her relationship with Dan Wise below the radar the past few days, it seems Sue was experiencing life as a Lonely Girl. Short breaks with Theo, Angie and Hans may have eased her pain, but whether it will help in the long run can't be told.
The straight HDs attained last year seemed to be a fluke, as Hans realised he was seriously struggling to cope with his studies, unable to achieve the same form and momentum gained last semester. On top of that, rumoured BFF John Bow seemed to have gained his own BFF in the form of Nick Ivans, the pair now roommates and spotted inseperable in college, all insinuations of homosexuality removed. This huge blow, along with playing catch-up in studies, seems to have crippled Hans enormously as he contemplates life in college as a hermit. But he may have hope.
Diane Shine emerged from nowhere and became Angie's BFF after Sanya's absence as a friend, and now, it seems she as come to the rescue of Hans. The pair had never really conversed, but a couple of late night conversations seemed to have drawn the duo much closer, with both being able to talk about anything. Will Diane replace John and be Hans' new confidante? Or will Hans fight to set things straight with John and save what shred is left of their friendship?
Two days back, and already Hans' world has stopped, his resolve to quit stronger than ever before, his mind more troubled, his emotions torn to pieces. He vowed to himself to slog through the hell and finish his course. How he intends to do that remains to be seen, but he should be aware that nothing goes his way, and odds are high that he would be kicked when he's already down. John's inital concern seems to have disappeared, while Sanya looks to have taken herself out of Hans' life. Angie, Theo and Nick welcomed Hans' return with open arms, but each dealing with problems of their own. As for Sue, as if dealing with her friend's sudden departure wasn't painful enough, she soon realises matters of her heart she never felt before, complicating her life further. Just when will the darkness that had enveloped these lives disappear?
48 hrs before...
1153pm. Monday. 2 February 2009. The moment Hans Basil finally acceded to the calls to return, the once-obstinate wall around his mind finally shattered. Two significant people in his life had contributed the most in the u-turn, though he was to find out that one of them would later transform agonisingly different.
With a new decision in mind, all hell broke loose as Hans struggled to find his books and pack his things. He proceeded to inform Sue Anne of his changed decision, which resulted in an eruption of immense joy. And as if the world was working in tandem and celebrating Hans' return, fireworks lit the night sky. Hans kept the change to himself, with only Sue in the know. He could somehow foresee that the future in Sunway would be bleak, and vowed to make it better for himself. Poor Outsider should have known better, for his weak mind would soon be ravaged to shreds.
Upon news of Hans' return, reactions were varied, with Diane Shine being ecstatic, Theo Oscar relieved and Nick Ivans somewhat wary, expecting the worst, Hans' indecisiveness a thorn in his mind. Angie Flo felt her emotions were being played by that same vacillation, her ongoing saga with Sanya Dival taking a heavy toll on her gradually weakening mind. Her disbelief was not lost on Hans, as he pored over the decision he made one day back. And the truth slammed into him hard as realisation dawned on him that he had made the biggest mistake of his life, throwing the opportunity that had knocked on his door.
While news propogated and people soon recieved the info, only John Bow was kept in the dark, with Hans planning to surprise him after hearing of his friend's torturous days in college. Ultimately it seemed the surprise was for Hans, as John displayed little emotion, and looked to be in perfect condition, leaving Hans bewildered and in an even worse postition than he ever was in. Perhaps Hans expected too much of his 7-month friend, whose move away from the hostel looks to have started the depreciation of their friendship. This had been foreseen weeks ago, and Hans has to learn to acclimatise quickly if he is to salvage any chance of surviving in college. Poor Outsider. Everything simply refuses to fall in line for him.
Sue Anne had been elated when Hans had informed her the very second he changed his mind, but the downward spiral of her luck continued. Fresh from feeling the joy, it was soon inundated with shock and deep sorrow as another close friend suddenly told her of her intention to depart from Sunway. One friend returns, another leaves. With her relationship with Dan Wise below the radar the past few days, it seems Sue was experiencing life as a Lonely Girl. Short breaks with Theo, Angie and Hans may have eased her pain, but whether it will help in the long run can't be told.
The straight HDs attained last year seemed to be a fluke, as Hans realised he was seriously struggling to cope with his studies, unable to achieve the same form and momentum gained last semester. On top of that, rumoured BFF John Bow seemed to have gained his own BFF in the form of Nick Ivans, the pair now roommates and spotted inseperable in college, all insinuations of homosexuality removed. This huge blow, along with playing catch-up in studies, seems to have crippled Hans enormously as he contemplates life in college as a hermit. But he may have hope.
Diane Shine emerged from nowhere and became Angie's BFF after Sanya's absence as a friend, and now, it seems she as come to the rescue of Hans. The pair had never really conversed, but a couple of late night conversations seemed to have drawn the duo much closer, with both being able to talk about anything. Will Diane replace John and be Hans' new confidante? Or will Hans fight to set things straight with John and save what shred is left of their friendship?
Two days back, and already Hans' world has stopped, his resolve to quit stronger than ever before, his mind more troubled, his emotions torn to pieces. He vowed to himself to slog through the hell and finish his course. How he intends to do that remains to be seen, but he should be aware that nothing goes his way, and odds are high that he would be kicked when he's already down. John's inital concern seems to have disappeared, while Sanya looks to have taken herself out of Hans' life. Angie, Theo and Nick welcomed Hans' return with open arms, but each dealing with problems of their own. As for Sue, as if dealing with her friend's sudden departure wasn't painful enough, she soon realises matters of her heart she never felt before, complicating her life further. Just when will the darkness that had enveloped these lives disappear?
Friday, February 6, 2009
*The Exodus
Holidays have come and gone, in a blink of an eye, the one week feeling like one day. For most, it ended too soon. For one, it couldn't have ended earlier. For another, it was 7 days of pure mental torture, a week of trauma. This time though, things were different. Boredom was hardly present, as disparate events ravaged through the personal lives of Sunway's Mixed, with contrasting ramifications. And as mentioned, the future looked bleak.
Sunway University College had been rocked by the quick dissemination of the news of Hans Basil's shock and sudden departure, his decision to terminate his course finally consented by his parents, albeit with strong resistance. Reactions to his absence came fast and furious, with diversity. Perhaps hit the hardest was close friend John Bow, who deluded himself thinking Hans was joking when he let slip the news a week back. Reality bit him hard as the non-existence of Hans in college adduced the fact that his friend had indeed quit, a fact John struggled to accept, or even comprehend. It seems the supposed D-Day for Hans, where John and Nick Ivans would finally shift accomodations, swung the opposite direction and slammed right into John's face.
Days of cognizance with regards to his future had culminated in Hans' bold yet arcane decision, which he remained intrasigent to despite the numerous calls from his peers to reverse it, citing it as one lacking nous. Angie Flo and Sue Anne's attempts to persuade Hans fell flat, as his impermeable nature heaped massive sorrow onto his female friends, one of which could no longer hold back her emotions. Sue's brother Theo Oscar was yet another name in the endless list of those trying to convince Hans to return, attempting to ingrain logic and sense into the latter, and just like everyone else, he failed miserably.
While Hans was home contemplating if the decision he made was right, his absence in Sunway caused Diane Shine a little tinge of regret; regret for not maximising the opportunities to know him better. Not too affected as she was not close to him, the same could not be said for Nick Ivans. After his undulating holidays and luckless forays into the lovegame, he had put friends first above everything else. Hence his aberrant aversion to the week-long break, where he would be away from the mentioned. As news of Hans reached his ears, he felt reticent yet sorrow, the latter transient as he felt helpless, well aware that Hans' mind, once made up, was inexorable. Who knows if the bright future that awaits him with John in their new abode would be able to erase whatever negative emotions he had accumulated.
Sanya Dival's reaction when informed by Angie was unexpected- her insouciance and nonchalance surprising Angie, herself deeply troubled. Perhaps it was due to the fact that Sanya had other issues to deal with to bother herself with Hans, one being the insidious wall that had erected between herself and Angie. Rumours were swirling that Angie had found herself a new BFF in Diane Shine and had forsaken her former bestie, a rumour the once subservient teenager vehemently denied. It seems Angie's acquiescent and exuberant nature had turned obdurate and melancholic, perhaps Sanya's perpetual dissimulation the stimulant for the change.
Being at home gave Hans a numinous feel, his mind not atrophied by the multitude of factors he abhorred so much. But the constant communication, which he recieved via different channels, from Sunway, from those expressing shock and sorrow, caused his peace of mind to be ephemeral, and everyone knows once Hans' mind starts thinking about something, it never stops. Therein lied the problem he faced while slacking in the comfort of his home's luxuries and around family. Hans was eqipped with enough sense to comprehend the logic his friends were spewing forth, and without an immediate plan for his future, common sense pointed towards Sunway University College. But Hans was reluctant, knowing full well the dangers of those he excoriated, the effects they could wreak on himself. Two days without sightings of Hans Basil witnessed the consummation of the inevitable. Or so everyone thought.
Earth may seem humongous, but it is just one planet in the vast universe. This one planet that holds life, and everything pertaining to it. On earth, many a times can one witness an exodus of things diverse. But one does not need to look far to see it occuring right here in the tiny town of Sunway- with Hans Basil disappearing for good, and John and Nick leaving, although still within the environs. It seems the tragedies doesn't end there, with the shock departure of someone unknown yet important set to crush someone's life.
Sunway University College had been rocked by the quick dissemination of the news of Hans Basil's shock and sudden departure, his decision to terminate his course finally consented by his parents, albeit with strong resistance. Reactions to his absence came fast and furious, with diversity. Perhaps hit the hardest was close friend John Bow, who deluded himself thinking Hans was joking when he let slip the news a week back. Reality bit him hard as the non-existence of Hans in college adduced the fact that his friend had indeed quit, a fact John struggled to accept, or even comprehend. It seems the supposed D-Day for Hans, where John and Nick Ivans would finally shift accomodations, swung the opposite direction and slammed right into John's face.
Days of cognizance with regards to his future had culminated in Hans' bold yet arcane decision, which he remained intrasigent to despite the numerous calls from his peers to reverse it, citing it as one lacking nous. Angie Flo and Sue Anne's attempts to persuade Hans fell flat, as his impermeable nature heaped massive sorrow onto his female friends, one of which could no longer hold back her emotions. Sue's brother Theo Oscar was yet another name in the endless list of those trying to convince Hans to return, attempting to ingrain logic and sense into the latter, and just like everyone else, he failed miserably.
While Hans was home contemplating if the decision he made was right, his absence in Sunway caused Diane Shine a little tinge of regret; regret for not maximising the opportunities to know him better. Not too affected as she was not close to him, the same could not be said for Nick Ivans. After his undulating holidays and luckless forays into the lovegame, he had put friends first above everything else. Hence his aberrant aversion to the week-long break, where he would be away from the mentioned. As news of Hans reached his ears, he felt reticent yet sorrow, the latter transient as he felt helpless, well aware that Hans' mind, once made up, was inexorable. Who knows if the bright future that awaits him with John in their new abode would be able to erase whatever negative emotions he had accumulated.
Sanya Dival's reaction when informed by Angie was unexpected- her insouciance and nonchalance surprising Angie, herself deeply troubled. Perhaps it was due to the fact that Sanya had other issues to deal with to bother herself with Hans, one being the insidious wall that had erected between herself and Angie. Rumours were swirling that Angie had found herself a new BFF in Diane Shine and had forsaken her former bestie, a rumour the once subservient teenager vehemently denied. It seems Angie's acquiescent and exuberant nature had turned obdurate and melancholic, perhaps Sanya's perpetual dissimulation the stimulant for the change.
Being at home gave Hans a numinous feel, his mind not atrophied by the multitude of factors he abhorred so much. But the constant communication, which he recieved via different channels, from Sunway, from those expressing shock and sorrow, caused his peace of mind to be ephemeral, and everyone knows once Hans' mind starts thinking about something, it never stops. Therein lied the problem he faced while slacking in the comfort of his home's luxuries and around family. Hans was eqipped with enough sense to comprehend the logic his friends were spewing forth, and without an immediate plan for his future, common sense pointed towards Sunway University College. But Hans was reluctant, knowing full well the dangers of those he excoriated, the effects they could wreak on himself. Two days without sightings of Hans Basil witnessed the consummation of the inevitable. Or so everyone thought.
Earth may seem humongous, but it is just one planet in the vast universe. This one planet that holds life, and everything pertaining to it. On earth, many a times can one witness an exodus of things diverse. But one does not need to look far to see it occuring right here in the tiny town of Sunway- with Hans Basil disappearing for good, and John and Nick leaving, although still within the environs. It seems the tragedies doesn't end there, with the shock departure of someone unknown yet important set to crush someone's life.
*Reminder
Posts with a * are based on true occurences, but not everything is fact. Those that are indeed factual may be exaggarated to a certain extent. It is advisable to not believe everything and read the posts purely for fun, laughter, peace and joy. Seriously.
Falling
How apt can the title be. yes again i asked iTunes...fuck u...
BIG MISTAKE. FUCKIN BIG MISTAKE. i envisaged it wen i was home, and now it has happened. or is happening. when im there, i yearn for here, and vice versa. shit. this is even worse than b4, and i feel so fucked cos now i can only blame myself. guess my string of bad decisions and bad luck continues. wayyy shittier. yes. i wanna quit.again. but im not. im jus gonna stick my ass here and finish this shit off, tho everydays gonna suck like hell. i can feel ppl gettin sick and tired of my indecisiveness. me too. im sick of my shit self. So much for tryna convince myself that this time it'll get better. yeah right since wen has 'happy' and 'optimistic' been in my vocabulary. who the hell was i kidding. how i wish i can turn back time. back to 11:53pm tt dreaded night. i cant. im just gonna stick it out here, and go thru hell daily. sian.
Accounts lecturer is a fuckin bitch. CMON i was absent for 3 fuckin days i din know nuts abt homework or wadever shit u were teaching (or maybe not seeing that u cant teach). don go all sarcastic on me bitch b4 i pull that tudung off and shove it up yr fuckn ass. great start. being blur in econs din help one bit. then the whole feeling tt made me wanna quit crashed into me again, this time much worse. whole time i was jus cursing myself for making the stupidest decision. no thx to the 2 ppl who ultimately changed my mind. i don blame em. i just blame myself. im really an ass. im not gonna hide anything and pretend its all rosy. coll life has never felt this bad ever. one of the ppl who changed my mind kinda left me all..i donno wad to say. i guess ultimately im gonna lose him as a fren. only one day back and i can already feel the pinch. yeah hes been my closest fren (mayb even best?) but it jus bothers me thinkin if ANYTHING hes been saying of late held any truth, or if all were jus words of deceit. its funny how in one day i can just not feel like a fren anymore. thats one of the worst feelings ever. i guess the whole lil "move" caused it.hit me much harder than anticipated and im being broken down just tryna cope with it. but i don blame him. or them rather. outsider huh. how true. this is worse than last sem. and its only one day! i saw this coming, and still got deluded. smart ass huh.
i guess theres nothin much i can do now. other than slogging thru life daily. i shdve listened to iTunes (fuck u). opportunity comes knocking once, it did, i grabbed it, and threw it away. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Darry sacrificed his future, Dally got himself killed cos the world was against him. Sign? lets see...
"Final Goodbye" - Rihanna. I knew it. but im not gonna lah...just so mentally taxing to keep thinkin of it. i jus feel like shit, like ive been tricked or sth. and i fell for it. if there was even anythin to fall for in the first place cos those words may have been true. i promised, but i wont keep em seeing u don keep yrs. but im sick of this shit ready lah. gotta learn not to trust ppl, and really, this time i cant be nice. ill just get it bad. and i foresee its just gonna get worse. its outta my hands now. 4+ more months. fuck man. god im gonna be 21. gimme a brain of an adult will ya? im sick of thinkin and actin like a petulant adolescent.
"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart"
Prob is now I don't believe true frens exist either. someone gimme a gun.
BIG MISTAKE. FUCKIN BIG MISTAKE. i envisaged it wen i was home, and now it has happened. or is happening. when im there, i yearn for here, and vice versa. shit. this is even worse than b4, and i feel so fucked cos now i can only blame myself. guess my string of bad decisions and bad luck continues. wayyy shittier. yes. i wanna quit.again. but im not. im jus gonna stick my ass here and finish this shit off, tho everydays gonna suck like hell. i can feel ppl gettin sick and tired of my indecisiveness. me too. im sick of my shit self. So much for tryna convince myself that this time it'll get better. yeah right since wen has 'happy' and 'optimistic' been in my vocabulary. who the hell was i kidding. how i wish i can turn back time. back to 11:53pm tt dreaded night. i cant. im just gonna stick it out here, and go thru hell daily. sian.
Accounts lecturer is a fuckin bitch. CMON i was absent for 3 fuckin days i din know nuts abt homework or wadever shit u were teaching (or maybe not seeing that u cant teach). don go all sarcastic on me bitch b4 i pull that tudung off and shove it up yr fuckn ass. great start. being blur in econs din help one bit. then the whole feeling tt made me wanna quit crashed into me again, this time much worse. whole time i was jus cursing myself for making the stupidest decision. no thx to the 2 ppl who ultimately changed my mind. i don blame em. i just blame myself. im really an ass. im not gonna hide anything and pretend its all rosy. coll life has never felt this bad ever. one of the ppl who changed my mind kinda left me all..i donno wad to say. i guess ultimately im gonna lose him as a fren. only one day back and i can already feel the pinch. yeah hes been my closest fren (mayb even best?) but it jus bothers me thinkin if ANYTHING hes been saying of late held any truth, or if all were jus words of deceit. its funny how in one day i can just not feel like a fren anymore. thats one of the worst feelings ever. i guess the whole lil "move" caused it.hit me much harder than anticipated and im being broken down just tryna cope with it. but i don blame him. or them rather. outsider huh. how true. this is worse than last sem. and its only one day! i saw this coming, and still got deluded. smart ass huh.
i guess theres nothin much i can do now. other than slogging thru life daily. i shdve listened to iTunes (fuck u). opportunity comes knocking once, it did, i grabbed it, and threw it away. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Darry sacrificed his future, Dally got himself killed cos the world was against him. Sign? lets see...
"Final Goodbye" - Rihanna. I knew it. but im not gonna lah...just so mentally taxing to keep thinkin of it. i jus feel like shit, like ive been tricked or sth. and i fell for it. if there was even anythin to fall for in the first place cos those words may have been true. i promised, but i wont keep em seeing u don keep yrs. but im sick of this shit ready lah. gotta learn not to trust ppl, and really, this time i cant be nice. ill just get it bad. and i foresee its just gonna get worse. its outta my hands now. 4+ more months. fuck man. god im gonna be 21. gimme a brain of an adult will ya? im sick of thinkin and actin like a petulant adolescent.
"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart"
Prob is now I don't believe true frens exist either. someone gimme a gun.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
One And Only (Timbaland Feat. Fall Out Boy)
Again i asked iTunes what i shd post this as and this came out. i bloody hell hope it aint referring to what i tink its referring to. songs are now scarin me shitless. honestly. its like takin over my life. i jus rmb how i kept saying music is my life. i guess now its comin true. and its cool and freaky. its unexplainable. how the hell can a retarded song from an equally retarded phone be correct over a scan? HOW? its insane i tell u. goddamn. this is freaky. its drivin me nuts. sian.
I guess its D-Day for me tmr.gotta see that bitch to finalise things. pissed my mom off on the phone. i hate her alot (the bitch, not my mom). wonder wat she'll say tmr. speakin of, im gonna step foot in tt dreaded place after a peaceful 2 day absence. cant bliv the amt of messages i rcvd from so many ppl askin me the same damn thing. i appreciate the concern but its gotta stop cos its drivin me nuts. really. but i reckon tmr i can just show my face and shut em all up. (not in a bad way tho it seems im makin it like tt)
Chatted with that south african dude Leon after god knows how long. damn miss cockin with him. that smart ass is jus so fun to talk with. then he tried bein helpful by forcin me to sleep cos i tol him ive been slpin at like 6 or 7 everyday. tt dude is jus so smart. ahhh now i sound like some psychotic gay fanatic. ew.
day 2. tsu ann is feelin much better, and for good reason. angela is feelin like crap, cos of other stuff. wish i cld just sayang her. ok wth. nick is..i donno. tt dude seems to be ignorin me. said hes been bz. oh well. anushya's like non existent. JB is..sigh..tt dude's prolly goin thru so much and its obviously my fault. told me some stuff tt made me really upset but im here, and completely helpless. things cant change. well maybe they could.
i really donno how ill feel tmr. overjoyed? pissed? nonchalant? normal?(which=emo).happy?sad? indifferent?ahh wth.
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
"Footprints In The Sand"- Leona Lewis
I guess its D-Day for me tmr.gotta see that bitch to finalise things. pissed my mom off on the phone. i hate her alot (the bitch, not my mom). wonder wat she'll say tmr. speakin of, im gonna step foot in tt dreaded place after a peaceful 2 day absence. cant bliv the amt of messages i rcvd from so many ppl askin me the same damn thing. i appreciate the concern but its gotta stop cos its drivin me nuts. really. but i reckon tmr i can just show my face and shut em all up. (not in a bad way tho it seems im makin it like tt)
Chatted with that south african dude Leon after god knows how long. damn miss cockin with him. that smart ass is jus so fun to talk with. then he tried bein helpful by forcin me to sleep cos i tol him ive been slpin at like 6 or 7 everyday. tt dude is jus so smart. ahhh now i sound like some psychotic gay fanatic. ew.
day 2. tsu ann is feelin much better, and for good reason. angela is feelin like crap, cos of other stuff. wish i cld just sayang her. ok wth. nick is..i donno. tt dude seems to be ignorin me. said hes been bz. oh well. anushya's like non existent. JB is..sigh..tt dude's prolly goin thru so much and its obviously my fault. told me some stuff tt made me really upset but im here, and completely helpless. things cant change. well maybe they could.
i really donno how ill feel tmr. overjoyed? pissed? nonchalant? normal?(which=emo).happy?sad? indifferent?ahh wth.
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
"Footprints In The Sand"- Leona Lewis
Monday, February 2, 2009
When I'm Gone (The Click Five)
This is the reply to my question "what shd i name this post as". sigh. i guess itunes knows shit too. or maybe im jus paranoid. no, i cant be. cos it worked to perfection last nite for me and tsu ann. and it did this morning to, altho some answers were pretty disturbing.
Some examples from my lil music bonding this morning( all answers taken from song no 7):
Q: Shd I return?
A: Runaway - Avril Lavigne (pretty obvious)
Q: What happens if I do return?
A: Better In Time- Leona Lewis (hmmmmmm)
Q: So it will get better in time huh?
A: The Wicked End- Avenged Sevenfold (fuck.fuck.fuck. definite no no then)
Q: Will I remain happy with this decision?
A: Purest Of Pain - Son By Four (crap)
None of this is made up. anywaes i don have a reason to. ok tts it im officially a retarded paranoid. talkin to my itunes and getting answers to questions i shd be answering myself. but i cant help it. cos it works. theres like alot more real answers but i aint gonna post em. first its too many, second i cant rmb all and 3rd some were pretty sensitive and cant be displayed. (tsu ann u shd know..and yes i re-asked again lol)..sigh...one day gone. shit feeling piling up. spoke to tsu ann oscar and jb durin their break. made me feel so much worse, specially jb. damn. wat to do man...lemme ask me player...
"never again" kelly clarkson...i swear my itunes has special powers... that or im officially mentally retarded. im banking on the latter..
Some examples from my lil music bonding this morning( all answers taken from song no 7):
Q: Shd I return?
A: Runaway - Avril Lavigne (pretty obvious)
Q: What happens if I do return?
A: Better In Time- Leona Lewis (hmmmmmm)
Q: So it will get better in time huh?
A: The Wicked End- Avenged Sevenfold (fuck.fuck.fuck. definite no no then)
Q: Will I remain happy with this decision?
A: Purest Of Pain - Son By Four (crap)
None of this is made up. anywaes i don have a reason to. ok tts it im officially a retarded paranoid. talkin to my itunes and getting answers to questions i shd be answering myself. but i cant help it. cos it works. theres like alot more real answers but i aint gonna post em. first its too many, second i cant rmb all and 3rd some were pretty sensitive and cant be displayed. (tsu ann u shd know..and yes i re-asked again lol)..sigh...one day gone. shit feeling piling up. spoke to tsu ann oscar and jb durin their break. made me feel so much worse, specially jb. damn. wat to do man...lemme ask me player...
"never again" kelly clarkson...i swear my itunes has special powers... that or im officially mentally retarded. im banking on the latter..
It Ends Tonight
Break has finally ended. Its just damn weird tt school starts in abt 5.5 hrs, and here i am at home blogging listening to music. I cant get over this feeling. one of dread.Four ppl had expressed sorrow over my decision, with one of 'em hitting me the hardest. Another wrote a post abt me (so flattering). I just cant shake off this fucked up feeling. I know ill be damn happy when i see them all, JB, nick, angela, tsu ann and etc. But the other circumstances wont permit that joy to last. All in all, the scenario doesnt look so serious, as explained by JB n Nick. But thing is theres more to it than tt. they prolly don know it. well maybe JB does. but its too late anywaes. nothin can be changed. I cant make everyone happy. I cant even please myself, cos i don even know wad i want.
Being at home just slacking is awesome. No worries and being around family. But what the fuck do i achieve from tt? i already wasted 2005. i don wanna be a 21 yr old adult who has done nothing in life. then again, im gettin pretty bored with life. yes, i am. i cant foresee studying for 3+ yrs, workin for god knows how long, then jus dying.
If only i can make a decision tt can please everydamnone. But nope. I guess next few days are gonna be damn hard for me, doing nothin while knowing my frens are studying/enjoying life in coll or wadever. Nicks not been online. Guess hes moved into Palmville. Frankly, Im happy for them three cos itll definitely be fun. then again, theres alwaes a loser in every scenario. Shd prolly talk to Rjv abt stuff, seeing hes one of the smartest frens i know. damn. this really sux. maybe i cld seek the help of my itunes shuffle, seeing it helped me and tsu ann last nite. yeah i will...
"Let us die young
Let us live forever
We don't have the power
But we never say never
Sitting in a sand-pit
Life is a short trip
Music's for the sad men
Some are like water
Some are like the heat
Some are a melody
Some are the beat
Sooner or later they'll all be gone
Why don't they stay young?
It's hard to get old
Without a cause
I don't want to perish
Like a fading horse
Youth is like
Diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever
So many adventures
Couldn't happen today
So many songs
That we forgot to play
So many dreams
Swinging out of the blue
We let them come true"
- Forever Young, Youth Group
I'm sorry...
Being at home just slacking is awesome. No worries and being around family. But what the fuck do i achieve from tt? i already wasted 2005. i don wanna be a 21 yr old adult who has done nothing in life. then again, im gettin pretty bored with life. yes, i am. i cant foresee studying for 3+ yrs, workin for god knows how long, then jus dying.
If only i can make a decision tt can please everydamnone. But nope. I guess next few days are gonna be damn hard for me, doing nothin while knowing my frens are studying/enjoying life in coll or wadever. Nicks not been online. Guess hes moved into Palmville. Frankly, Im happy for them three cos itll definitely be fun. then again, theres alwaes a loser in every scenario. Shd prolly talk to Rjv abt stuff, seeing hes one of the smartest frens i know. damn. this really sux. maybe i cld seek the help of my itunes shuffle, seeing it helped me and tsu ann last nite. yeah i will...
"Let us die young
Let us live forever
We don't have the power
But we never say never
Sitting in a sand-pit
Life is a short trip
Music's for the sad men
Some are like water
Some are like the heat
Some are a melody
Some are the beat
Sooner or later they'll all be gone
Why don't they stay young?
It's hard to get old
Without a cause
I don't want to perish
Like a fading horse
Youth is like
Diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever
So many adventures
Couldn't happen today
So many songs
That we forgot to play
So many dreams
Swinging out of the blue
We let them come true"
- Forever Young, Youth Group
I'm sorry...
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