"The happiest people on the outside are sometimes the saddest on the inside"
Heard that once before. Not sure if its true. Doesn't matter. For me its not true. Cos i know im never happy on the inside. and hell no im never happy on the outside. Just on certain days u may be lucky and catch a glimpse of me smiling, laughing, crapping. But, I gotta feeling (not that tonight's gonna be a good good night) that this will all end. Stated previously, Im tad bipolar. Seriously though, all those "happy" moments are prolly used as a tool to mask my real self. A meer veneer.
Past few days has been a real pain. And it coincided with me conciously disconnecting myself from the world. From people. From friends. But I guess this makes it easier. For them. For me. And lame as it is to 'blog' abt it, its better than having to explain over n over to those who ask. Friends no longer have to deal with the emotional "stunts" I pull, and I dont have to care or concern myself too much with them. Cos all that culminates from this is pain. From being used. Being lied to. Lying to. And the list is endless. This way is easier. Im no longer human. Just an empty shell wandering the corridors of Uni, attending lectures, stoning etc. There is no more connection. I'm in a bubble.
When I look at you, when I speak with you, I will be emotionless. And unfortunately, it will seem like I do not care. Like I have attitude. You're right. And wrong as well. I dont care, only because I care too much. And I cant keep doing this. Hence the retreat into my oasis of solitude and emo-ness. Everything ends now. And everything begins now as well. Don't ask, for the answers have already been given. Can't keep dealing with this over n over. Yes, I'm weak. Deal with it. Oh wait, u no longer have to.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I'm Sorry
Holy month of fasting has dawned upon us all. And fasting I am. Yes, I am, despite all u ppl thinkin i aint. And in this holy month Yours Truly has decided to be tad more introspective (more than he already is)
Skipped Business Econs Stats class (or half of it rather). First time skipping a class. Cant understand shit about it. Attend lectures. Read the notes. And I still cant get it. Its damn frustrating. I really feel like tearing the damn book and burning it. And I just wanna drop this stupid subject. Spoke to the tutor, and he insinuated that Anu and I are stupid idiots who dun study and just club all day. Bloody hell. Tryna put in so much effort for something u really wanna learn and do, and u cant do it by yrself, and no one can help u. Sian. What's left to do? Just continue skipping and fail the damn thing? Its better than wasting 2 hrs every Thursday staring at the com or projection screen stupidly not knowing what the hell is going on.
I'm bipolar.
One minute im happy/high/lame/retarded/joking/smiling/laughing.
The next I'm emo/moody/pissy/angry/cold/full of attitude/nonchalant.
Sometimes with reason. Sometimes without.
I know its tiring to be around me. Having to deal with these so called "mood swings".
It's irritating. I get it. But I can't help it. I'm sorry.
Skipped Business Econs Stats class (or half of it rather). First time skipping a class. Cant understand shit about it. Attend lectures. Read the notes. And I still cant get it. Its damn frustrating. I really feel like tearing the damn book and burning it. And I just wanna drop this stupid subject. Spoke to the tutor, and he insinuated that Anu and I are stupid idiots who dun study and just club all day. Bloody hell. Tryna put in so much effort for something u really wanna learn and do, and u cant do it by yrself, and no one can help u. Sian. What's left to do? Just continue skipping and fail the damn thing? Its better than wasting 2 hrs every Thursday staring at the com or projection screen stupidly not knowing what the hell is going on.
I'm bipolar.
One minute im happy/high/lame/retarded/joking/smiling/laughing.
The next I'm emo/moody/pissy/angry/cold/full of attitude/nonchalant.
Sometimes with reason. Sometimes without.
I know its tiring to be around me. Having to deal with these so called "mood swings".
It's irritating. I get it. But I can't help it. I'm sorry.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Random Updates
This post is designed to keep u loyal readers updated about the life of Yours Truly. =.=
Cant get these songs outta my head:
Obsessed-Mariah Carey
Hotel Room Service-Pitbull
She Wolf-Shakira
Already Gone-Kelly Clarkson
小男人大男孩-Jam Hsiao (dont ask)
Goodbye-Kristinia DeBarge
Love Drunk-Boys Like Girls
Good Girls Go Bad-Cobra Starship Feat. Leighton Meester
Finally Back Home. After forever. Fasting month begins. Great. Weighed myself (really bimbo moment). 55kg. (cant be serious right? all that MacD, pizza, Jafaar suppers...). Damn pleased. Then sis tells me weighing machine is spoiled. pukimak.
Phil has dengue. wtf. told him to see doc like forever ago. stubborn as hell. just hope hes alrite.
Lala has alot of personal probs at d moment. Feel so bad for her. Feel bad for feeling helpless.
One stressful week of doing Management Assignment over. Now for Econs, Accounts and Business Stats Assignment. Can Seriously die man.
One MAJOR plan to accomplish in the next few days. Really hope I can pull it off.
Plan to cut this problematic hair tmr. Hope theres no mistakes whatsoever. *gulp*
Been feeling tad "confused" about a particular friend. Hard to explain.
Cant stop thinking of someone. A bit too much.
I guess thats about all I can remember.
[Im so fuckin in love with you. How do you stop yourself from loving someone you can never have?]
Cant get these songs outta my head:
Obsessed-Mariah Carey
Hotel Room Service-Pitbull
She Wolf-Shakira
Already Gone-Kelly Clarkson
小男人大男孩-Jam Hsiao (dont ask)
Goodbye-Kristinia DeBarge
Love Drunk-Boys Like Girls
Good Girls Go Bad-Cobra Starship Feat. Leighton Meester
Finally Back Home. After forever. Fasting month begins. Great. Weighed myself (really bimbo moment). 55kg. (cant be serious right? all that MacD, pizza, Jafaar suppers...). Damn pleased. Then sis tells me weighing machine is spoiled. pukimak.
Phil has dengue. wtf. told him to see doc like forever ago. stubborn as hell. just hope hes alrite.
Lala has alot of personal probs at d moment. Feel so bad for her. Feel bad for feeling helpless.
One stressful week of doing Management Assignment over. Now for Econs, Accounts and Business Stats Assignment. Can Seriously die man.
One MAJOR plan to accomplish in the next few days. Really hope I can pull it off.
Plan to cut this problematic hair tmr. Hope theres no mistakes whatsoever. *gulp*
Been feeling tad "confused" about a particular friend. Hard to explain.
Cant stop thinking of someone. A bit too much.
I guess thats about all I can remember.
[Im so fuckin in love with you. How do you stop yourself from loving someone you can never have?]
Sunday, August 16, 2009
YOU AND I
Slopes, Graphs, Curves and Price
When Demand falls it increases the lies
Katz, dogs, Roles and Skills
Debit, Credit, Accounts and Bills
You learn that X and Y are variables
But then your X is no longer available
You strive to fight away your fears
Only for it to end in tears
We're from two different worlds but act as one
When Uni ends our friendship's done
You turn your back and face the world
Realized you've been a misunderstood girl
Suffer in tunnels and await that light
Find no reward for all you've tried
Put others first before thyself
You're just an item on the shelf
You heed their calls and fulfill their needs
And yet they bite the hand that feeds
You try too hard to please them all
But in the end you're the one to fall
Learn that trust is hard to come by
Don't ask who, don't ask why
We seem close, the best of friends
Yet we know all this will end
They say you changed; your acts and words
Yet all you feel is just deep hurt
You keep going one day a time
Feel hollow for no reason or rhyme
We talk, we laugh, we joke, we share
Display concern because we care
And yet despite the ties that bind
And open eyes but we're still blind
Cant figure if it's fiction or fact
If what you're showing is all an act
Lame, High, Drunk or Emo
You seek the truth you want to know
We think that we are all aware
Of our friends' feelings and thoughts
But ask yourself if you really do
Or what you know is all in naught
After all the darkness that you've been through
Hoping someone will come and save you
From Tutorials and Lectures, Liars and Bitches
Two-faced Assholes and shameless Leeches
Who comes to you only when they need you
You feel confused about what to do
And Yours Truly may seem like he doesn't care
But yet he feels he's always there
Tries his best but is only used
Nothing to win and everything to lose
But once the dust settles and night arrives
You start to realize these are part of our lives
When Demand falls it increases the lies
Katz, dogs, Roles and Skills
Debit, Credit, Accounts and Bills
You learn that X and Y are variables
But then your X is no longer available
You strive to fight away your fears
Only for it to end in tears
We're from two different worlds but act as one
When Uni ends our friendship's done
You turn your back and face the world
Realized you've been a misunderstood girl
Suffer in tunnels and await that light
Find no reward for all you've tried
Put others first before thyself
You're just an item on the shelf
You heed their calls and fulfill their needs
And yet they bite the hand that feeds
You try too hard to please them all
But in the end you're the one to fall
Learn that trust is hard to come by
Don't ask who, don't ask why
We seem close, the best of friends
Yet we know all this will end
They say you changed; your acts and words
Yet all you feel is just deep hurt
You keep going one day a time
Feel hollow for no reason or rhyme
We talk, we laugh, we joke, we share
Display concern because we care
And yet despite the ties that bind
And open eyes but we're still blind
Cant figure if it's fiction or fact
If what you're showing is all an act
Lame, High, Drunk or Emo
You seek the truth you want to know
We think that we are all aware
Of our friends' feelings and thoughts
But ask yourself if you really do
Or what you know is all in naught
After all the darkness that you've been through
Hoping someone will come and save you
From Tutorials and Lectures, Liars and Bitches
Two-faced Assholes and shameless Leeches
Who comes to you only when they need you
You feel confused about what to do
And Yours Truly may seem like he doesn't care
But yet he feels he's always there
Tries his best but is only used
Nothing to win and everything to lose
But once the dust settles and night arrives
You start to realize these are part of our lives
Monday, August 10, 2009
10 Things I Hate About Today...
1) Woke up with an irritated nose.
2)Ashwin invited us to swim. Swim! Unfortunately I already had plans...
3)To complete my Biz & Econs Stats Assignment. Which I was unclear about.
4)Met Midget who just somehow annoys me. Prolly cos of our "history".
5)Heard of Anu's lil incident. Made me scared for her.
6)Spent 8 clueless hours trying to do (3). All I managed to do was (a) of Part 1. Still got (b), (c), Part 2, Part 3 and Report.
7)Heart and Stomach decided to act up. At the same time.
8)Realized there is alot alot alot of work to be done in the coming days.
9)Man United looked like shit (performance wise. Not jersey wise. Or Dan Wise [inside joke])
10)Despite getting minimal work done I still could find time to blog.
2)Ashwin invited us to swim. Swim! Unfortunately I already had plans...
3)To complete my Biz & Econs Stats Assignment. Which I was unclear about.
4)Met Midget who just somehow annoys me. Prolly cos of our "history".
5)Heard of Anu's lil incident. Made me scared for her.
6)Spent 8 clueless hours trying to do (3). All I managed to do was (a) of Part 1. Still got (b), (c), Part 2, Part 3 and Report.
7)Heart and Stomach decided to act up. At the same time.
8)Realized there is alot alot alot of work to be done in the coming days.
9)Man United looked like shit (performance wise. Not jersey wise. Or Dan Wise [inside joke])
10)Despite getting minimal work done I still could find time to blog.
Friday, August 7, 2009
....And the Day continues...
=While highlighting key phrases in the Econs textbook, came across a section on tips to effective studying. One tip was to not just highlight. I highlighted that tip.
=I pondered for a drink to buy at PV’s convenience store, and after forever, settled for 100plus. Then JB tells me he has 100plus at home.
=I have no problem saying “I love you” to friends. I just can’t say it to the significant other. Oh and guy friends too.
=Philemon wore a jacket and jeans with fake ipod earphones dangling. He demanded I take a picture cos he ‘looked good’. Like wtf?
=I received decent female attention in MUFY. I receive zero attention from girls in Monash now. But I do attract the guys every now and then. WTF?
=Mich mentioned a name, and Anu linked it with this assholic guy with a punchable face. It turned out to be him. We felt so great. It got better cos his name could be made fun of. Perasan, Presentation…..(inside joke)
=Shimi played Jonas Brothers’ “When You Look Me In The Eyes” in Anu’s car. Everyone went “Whaaat???!!!” A minute later he and I were singing to the song, and the girls weren’t.
=While trying to get a pink lighter, I picked Ann’s pink container instead. She laughed. Hours later I asked her for a lighter. She passed me a blue pen. At least the container had a resemblance to the lighter.
=It had been torturously scorching the past weeks. And life in Uni was terrible. It was windy, cool and rainy on my birthday. And the day just kept on getting better. I felt it was a truly special day indeed.
04 August 2009.
2130+hrs: At Anu’s house. Sposed to interview her mom, ended up being interviewed instead. Sposed to get management work done, onlined instead.
2245hrs: In Anu’s room with Shimmi, Ahmed, Ann and Ashwin. They were jamming, blogging, reading… I was online.
2330hrs: Chatted with JB, and he had me super confused with his cryptic sms-es and convo. Said he had a surprise or something. Left me excited and tad anxious. I didn’t know what he was up to.
2358hrs: While onlining, lights suddenly went off. Anu and her sis Nim entered the room carrying something. Everyone started singing “Happy Birthday”. Someone was playing the birthday song on the organ thingy. I was completely overwhelmed and shocked. Probably didn’t react the way I was supposed to. But hell! It was good. Anu, Ann, Shimmi, Ahmed and Ash, I love u guys. Not just for that, but for being super cool friends. Seriously.
05 August 2009.
0000hrs: JB types “eh happy birthday” on MSN. I was like what that’s the surprise? Then he said “surprise! No surprise.” I was so =.=. Nick called and chatted a while. Bro called, and the messages came in.
0100hrs +: Anu sent us back, and Ahmed bitchslapped my face. It was the perfect start.
Econs lecture was manageable. Pretty good day so far. Best thing was the weather. Windy, chilly, cool. Perfect. After the long days of heat. During lecture break, Addy surprised me with a gift she had bought with Shen. WTH! I was super shocked. Could this day get any better? Apparently yes.
Was with JB during break. He sent me something on Bluetooth. It was the funniest yet most touching thing I’d ever seen. THAT was the surprise he wanted to give me. Couldn’t stop laughing and tearing. Never saw it coming. Love u man. Not just for that. But for being the best friend I could possibly have. Seriously.
JB went for class. I was hungry. So Anu, Ann and I went to Pink to eat. Ordered food while waiting for Lala who had break. Lala came, with Jarvis…and a whole bunch of ppl and a cake. A CAKE. WTH! Completely din see this coming. Phil, Mich, Joey, Andrew, Sung Jin, Andre and some other guy whose name I donno were there as well. Belted out that birthday song again. Loudly. OMG. Overwhelmed. Sppechless. DAMN! And Lala made this super cool card. MADE. Really touched me. Love u Lala. Not for the card and the whole celebration, but for being there all the time. Seriously.
OK. This had to be it right. One old man couldn’t take so many surprises in one day. Well, maybe just one more. It wasn’t a surprise, cos this one came from me. Ipod Classic vs Ipod Touch. Settled for classic for rm 999. 120GB. FUCK! Definitely the best the day I’ve ever had in a freakin long time. Oh and the next morning, while walking out of Suria Mas, spotted this coffin looking crate near the stairs. Ann and I started laughing like nobody’s business. Again, its an inside joke. Blame yourself for not being inside. Lol.
To all those who made this day truly remarkable, thank you. It was amazing.
=I pondered for a drink to buy at PV’s convenience store, and after forever, settled for 100plus. Then JB tells me he has 100plus at home.
=I have no problem saying “I love you” to friends. I just can’t say it to the significant other. Oh and guy friends too.
=Philemon wore a jacket and jeans with fake ipod earphones dangling. He demanded I take a picture cos he ‘looked good’. Like wtf?
=I received decent female attention in MUFY. I receive zero attention from girls in Monash now. But I do attract the guys every now and then. WTF?
=Mich mentioned a name, and Anu linked it with this assholic guy with a punchable face. It turned out to be him. We felt so great. It got better cos his name could be made fun of. Perasan, Presentation…..(inside joke)
=Shimi played Jonas Brothers’ “When You Look Me In The Eyes” in Anu’s car. Everyone went “Whaaat???!!!” A minute later he and I were singing to the song, and the girls weren’t.
=While trying to get a pink lighter, I picked Ann’s pink container instead. She laughed. Hours later I asked her for a lighter. She passed me a blue pen. At least the container had a resemblance to the lighter.
=It had been torturously scorching the past weeks. And life in Uni was terrible. It was windy, cool and rainy on my birthday. And the day just kept on getting better. I felt it was a truly special day indeed.
04 August 2009.
2130+hrs: At Anu’s house. Sposed to interview her mom, ended up being interviewed instead. Sposed to get management work done, onlined instead.
2245hrs: In Anu’s room with Shimmi, Ahmed, Ann and Ashwin. They were jamming, blogging, reading… I was online.
2330hrs: Chatted with JB, and he had me super confused with his cryptic sms-es and convo. Said he had a surprise or something. Left me excited and tad anxious. I didn’t know what he was up to.
2358hrs: While onlining, lights suddenly went off. Anu and her sis Nim entered the room carrying something. Everyone started singing “Happy Birthday”. Someone was playing the birthday song on the organ thingy. I was completely overwhelmed and shocked. Probably didn’t react the way I was supposed to. But hell! It was good. Anu, Ann, Shimmi, Ahmed and Ash, I love u guys. Not just for that, but for being super cool friends. Seriously.
05 August 2009.
0000hrs: JB types “eh happy birthday” on MSN. I was like what that’s the surprise? Then he said “surprise! No surprise.” I was so =.=. Nick called and chatted a while. Bro called, and the messages came in.
0100hrs +: Anu sent us back, and Ahmed bitchslapped my face. It was the perfect start.
Econs lecture was manageable. Pretty good day so far. Best thing was the weather. Windy, chilly, cool. Perfect. After the long days of heat. During lecture break, Addy surprised me with a gift she had bought with Shen. WTH! I was super shocked. Could this day get any better? Apparently yes.
Was with JB during break. He sent me something on Bluetooth. It was the funniest yet most touching thing I’d ever seen. THAT was the surprise he wanted to give me. Couldn’t stop laughing and tearing. Never saw it coming. Love u man. Not just for that. But for being the best friend I could possibly have. Seriously.
JB went for class. I was hungry. So Anu, Ann and I went to Pink to eat. Ordered food while waiting for Lala who had break. Lala came, with Jarvis…and a whole bunch of ppl and a cake. A CAKE. WTH! Completely din see this coming. Phil, Mich, Joey, Andrew, Sung Jin, Andre and some other guy whose name I donno were there as well. Belted out that birthday song again. Loudly. OMG. Overwhelmed. Sppechless. DAMN! And Lala made this super cool card. MADE. Really touched me. Love u Lala. Not for the card and the whole celebration, but for being there all the time. Seriously.
OK. This had to be it right. One old man couldn’t take so many surprises in one day. Well, maybe just one more. It wasn’t a surprise, cos this one came from me. Ipod Classic vs Ipod Touch. Settled for classic for rm 999. 120GB. FUCK! Definitely the best the day I’ve ever had in a freakin long time. Oh and the next morning, while walking out of Suria Mas, spotted this coffin looking crate near the stairs. Ann and I started laughing like nobody’s business. Again, its an inside joke. Blame yourself for not being inside. Lol.
To all those who made this day truly remarkable, thank you. It was amazing.
Two Ladies who made the day remarkable. Amazing.
Who needs a cake when you got this! Creative beyond creative! Who needs to cut cake when you can stab the apple! Fantastic!
Lala made this. MADE! Just look at it. To say I was touched would be an understatement. And her messsage inside was so sweet too.
"To my dearest 'Grandpa', HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again!! Really sorry bout not getting you any present but hope you'll like this card that I specially made for you. Plus, just wanna say thousands and millions BIG THANK YOU. Thanks for being such a nice fren to me. So proud to have you as my bestie. And I'll always be proud of it. So, all the best to you and do enjoy your B'day. HO HO HO! Now you can do anything you want due your an adult now =) xoxo, blurest girl (Angela)"
How can you not love her?
And to reward myself (for the first time),I bought an rm 999 iPod Classic with 120gb storage. Definitely the best day. BUT FUCK I DROPPED IT ON THE FLOOR WHENI WAS CHARGING IT! JUST 2 DAYS AND ALREADY I DROPPED IT. WTFFF!!!
Final Words to close this post....
JB, Lala, Ann, Anu, Shimi, Ahmed,Ashwin, special reservation for u bunch of ppl. You know I love you guys. Seriously!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Birthday Management
Principles of Management on Birthdays:
= Incorporate Surprise into existing plan of action.
= Act oblivious towards said activity.
= Isolate target to achieve organizational goal.
= Attain conceptual skills-> think outside the box and break tradition.
= Practice musical objective surreptitiously in presence of target
= Adopt Sudden Approach (eg-> switching off of lights and carrying a bowl of mnm's, hersheys and an apple)
= Organisational Unity-> Singing of Birthday Song
= Team Bonding session -> Group hugs and photo taking sessions (disclaimer= bones may be broken in process)
* Thx Anu, Ann, Shimi, Ahmed, Ash and Nim for possibly the best ever start to a birthday I could ever have. Didn't see it coming. Completely loved it. Even the bitch slap.
* Thx JB for all your crap. Still cant bliv all yr nonsense. lol.
* Thx everyone else so far....
[probably to be continued later today. What a great start.]
= Incorporate Surprise into existing plan of action.
= Act oblivious towards said activity.
= Isolate target to achieve organizational goal.
= Attain conceptual skills-> think outside the box and break tradition.
= Practice musical objective surreptitiously in presence of target
= Adopt Sudden Approach (eg-> switching off of lights and carrying a bowl of mnm's, hersheys and an apple)
= Organisational Unity-> Singing of Birthday Song
= Team Bonding session -> Group hugs and photo taking sessions (disclaimer= bones may be broken in process)
* Thx Anu, Ann, Shimi, Ahmed, Ash and Nim for possibly the best ever start to a birthday I could ever have. Didn't see it coming. Completely loved it. Even the bitch slap.
* Thx JB for all your crap. Still cant bliv all yr nonsense. lol.
* Thx everyone else so far....
[probably to be continued later today. What a great start.]
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Seriously
= Acktually, the probrem is the lecturer's charasteristics. Seriously.
=Whoever said JB never studied? Seriously.
=I've seriously HAD IT with GUYS coming on to me. Just few mins ago some random malay dude added me on FB, and I thought he was my bro's fren. I added him and asked my bro/sis, who did not know the guy. BIG MISTAKE. Again. Dude chatted me up on FB. Asked why I aint asleep. Said he liked my hair. Asked what shampoo I used. WTF!!! and he spoke to me in Malay. This really takes the cake. Seriously!
= 12 hours spent on a 500 word essay. Seriously.
= Pre-conceived notion that (pardon me pls) Blacks are not nice people HAVE to be abolished. Seriously.
= I have an inner Shimi. We both take an hour to get ready. And we're both pretty. Seriously.
= I spent a night at my friend's place. He's a guy. My girl friends claim I had a happy 'morning-after' look. Like wtf?! Seriously.
= Sam gave me weird looks. I hated him. I gave him a chance. Became neutral. Learnt of his nature. Hate him to the core now. Seriously.
= Whoever said I'm emo? Seriously.
=Whoever thought JB was not a psychotic killer? Seriously.
=Whoever thought Tsu Ann would only pass out from drinking and not excess inhalation? Seriously.
=Whoever thought Tsu Ann would only pass out from drinking and not excess inhalation? Seriously.=Whoever said I never study? Seriously.
=Whoever said JB never studied? Seriously. =I've seriously HAD IT with GUYS coming on to me. Just few mins ago some random malay dude added me on FB, and I thought he was my bro's fren. I added him and asked my bro/sis, who did not know the guy. BIG MISTAKE. Again. Dude chatted me up on FB. Asked why I aint asleep. Said he liked my hair. Asked what shampoo I used. WTF!!! and he spoke to me in Malay. This really takes the cake. Seriously!=Two girls told me they loved me. Sadly the one I want thinks I'm a joke. Seriously.
=Mom called during lecture. I ignored and told her I had a lecture. She told me to pick up, in case of an emergency. She called me again during tutorial. I picked up. She scolded me for picking up while havin class. Seriously WTH???
=My bro tol me we both attract guys. I said yeah, sadly. He added he also attracts chicks. I didn't reply cos I didn't. Seriously.
=I'm currently in JB's room. I'm blogging. He's blogging. This feels like an extremely gay moment. Or a chick moment. Seriously.
=Shimi wanted to cut his hair, but decided not to. He told Anu "babe im not gonna cut my hair". I didn't hear the 'babe' and replied "What! Why?". They looked at me weird. I felt stupid. Seriously.
=JB wanted to take a pic of his messy room. I told him I beat him to it. I started thinking if we shared some psychic connection. Then I ignored it. Seriously.
=I was looking forward to heading home this weekend. Cancelled last minute due to lack of studying opportunities at home. I felt depressed, but so proud of myself that I actually prioritised studies. Seriously!
=I chatted with my brother. Until I realised he was actually my sister. I felt stupid. Why am I always stupid? Seriously.
=It was Thursday. Tsu Ann didn't club, actually studied and did not go *amming. I actually felt proud of her and told her I'd treat her an ice-cream the next day. It was the most fatherly I've ever felt.Seriously.
=I've to interview Anu's mom on tuesday for my management assignment. I'm really scared. Seriously.
=Speaking of.. Anu and I were discussing who should interview her uncle and mom. She said she'd interview her uncle. Then I said "fine i'll do yr mom". Seriously.
=I told a girl I liked her. She laughed at my face. I don't know which hurts more. The fact she thinks it's a joke or she liking somebody else. Seriously.
MY LIFE IS AVERAGELY FUCKED. SERIOUSLY!
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