I prolly spoke too soon..or typed rather..it seemed I was included in Shitty Sunday's Spoiling Surprise. (ok wth?!) And to tink i cld be fooled into tinking shit wdnt happen to me for once. while crap was dumped on my frens i was havin it good. yeah rite...
Pain was intensifying and getting more frequent. told my mom i wanted to get a scan to know wat the prob actually was. there was a dark blue black which i tot meant internal bleeding. my mom was all yeah ok well get the recommendation letter and go for the scan. ok. cool. went to the doc. was a fren of me parents. spent all of 2 seconds "checking" me and the remaining 1 hr chatting abt trips and holidays. In between "hahaha yeah it's a nice place" and "oh the place is better now?" he prescibed me useless antibiotics and painkillers. i asked wads wrong he said some 'ch....itis' and tt its normal. he then tol my mom tt if it was an infection i wd be running a fever. Fuck him it duzn even need to be an infection. there cld be other things. how the hell wd he know wad it was wen he barely checked me. he aint superman. more like supershit. and my mom was bloody helpful in getting tt letter, or even talkin abt a scan. i hope i bleed from my mouth or nose (oh wait i have been bleeding from my nose for eons) so that she can SEE tt its not nothing. Stupid fuckers.
Went to get dinner. Sis was being a bitch cos she wanted to eat out but my cuz din wanna. cmon shes 9. somehow my sis had been really hatin my cuz cos she claims she annoys her. im like wtf. shes 9, staying in some relatively foreign house with foreign ppl. least we can do is make her feel welcome. apparently my sis disregarded the responsibility bestowed to her by my mom to teman my cuz. so i took over. it must suck for my cuz to feel so bloody alone in a weird place. shes quiet and all but i jus dun want her to feel all bored and lonely.
So dinner. all of us were starvin and mom bot pizza. i bot my cuz ice cream while waiting and sis was still being lil miss bitchy. then my moms russian fren (the one who meddles with my hair) called and said she was gonna come over w her husband. rejected mom's offer for dinner cos they ate already. so we get home, i went online and later went down. had the shock of my life wen my mom offered our dinner to em and told them that all of us ate already and werent hungry. WHERE THE BLOODY FUCK IS THE FUCKING LOGIC BEHIND THAT??? I was so fucking pissed. told my sis and cuz to just crash the dinner. Mom asked me to eat but i rejected and stormed back upstairs. yeah tad petulant but wtf. WTBLOODYF. in the end my anger kinda overcame my hunger. donno how tt was possible. the only good thing of the nite was my cuz (dinie) tellin me that my older bro wanted to get close to me, but din know how to. i was shocked. my bro and i kinda don talk, tho we are on good terms. we were damn close wen we were younger but grew apart gradually. i felt kinda glad but told my cuz i cldn just jump into a r'ship. its like wat im doing with my cousins now. building bridges. been tinkin abt it since then. cldn stop smiling. ive alwaes wanted to be able to talk to him abt stuff i cant talk abt with my younger sibs. guess hes made the first signal. i prolly shd respond, but i don know how. im not gd with ppl. cmon im a social retard, a total misfit. and my own bro. i din even know he was going back to kl today. bloody pathetic. how do i not know these things. in my own home too. am i just so concerned with my own bubble i fail to notice other ppl? wth
Nick seemed to be doing ok, in a disturbing way. Delirious, extremely happy. i donno if i shd jus let him be or wat. Hope he does fine next year in coll. Still donno what my parents want from me, and for me. I only have a week left. Chatted with JB after ages. Asked if i was really not comin back and i was tinkin wtf how does he know? who the hell spreads this. tol him not confirmed. we chatted a while more n he tol me to let him know asap.
wads the point of living if we're all gonna die anywaes. u do good u do evil u die. ur rich ur poor u die. its not like we'll make a difference. even if we did it'll prolly die too. i jus need some enlightenment on life after death. minds been inundated with morbid thots of late. i wont be on earth forever. wad happens once i die? ill float ard earth? ill be locked in a cage in hell? ill be living again in heaven? hope my grandma can tell me. miss her like crazy and i still cnt forgive myself. secondhand serenade's bloody emo songs aren't helping. i just donno wad to do with life. maybe i shd just go back for sem 2. since i donno wad to do with my life, might as well live it without meaning, and just go thru the motions till i die. no point fighting for wat i want.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Extreme D-Day
Sunday, 28 December 2008 is a day I'm prolly gonna rmb for a long time to come. It is one of those days whereby emotions take centrestage and nothing else matters. And strangely enough I wasn't involved. At least not the bad part. It was so bloody extreme. There I had, 3 frens who were being emotionally scarred and tortured, 2 for similar reasons. 2 were from college, the other from Spore. Nick and Elisha were nursing broken hearts, and for Nick I was kinda affected too cos Im really close to him. But the one that just got to me the most was Rachel, who was being condemned to a home that could easily give Hell a run for its money, by her parents, who, from what I can infer judging from her words, could kick Satan out and rule Hell themselves. Suddenly my home felt like Heaven. She was close to a complete breakdown and I felt so darn helpless other than being able to offer words of support. Glad they helped. I just wish her parents wd stop living in the dark ages and treat her the way she deserves to be treated. NOT like some slave that has to accede to all shitty requests administered to her. Hell she doesnt deserve that. It was as if the Love God decided that today shd be the day everything goes wrong. Though for once I wasn't involved I still felt upset. I really hope things look up for them three.
While Depression was on one end of 28/12/08, Delight was on the other. I added one of my cousin, Fatin's msn add after being sucked into a 5-way msn convo with my bro and cuzins, which i spoke very lil, as usual. some time later she started chatting with me and i thot it wd get weird but it din. on the contrary it was really awesome and we hit it off so easily, just like me and dee. i was thrilled and so was she. it was a much needed shot i needed after all the depression that had been swirling ard. but it was kinda weird cos while i was being elated with her i was also chatting with rach and nick. two completely different emotions. so now i have built a bridge with another cousin. 3 down, a gazillion more to go.
Din go for Joshua's party cos I thot it was cancelled but it wasnt and Rjv only infd me like at 5pm yst and i cldn go cos had to go for dinner with family. damn. was actually lokin 4wd to it. then again even if i cld go i donno if i cld tahan cos my side was throbbing so bloody badly. Went to my granny's grave, and everytime i go there i just turn introspective and keep tellin myself i cannot repeat the same mistakes i did. theres so much regret i hold and the worst feeling in the world is tt i cant turn back time to change anything. i was such an ass (i tink i still am) and i really need to learn to make things rite and treat ppl better. sigh. i guess i can do that as i start a new chapter in my life as new yr approaches. (i still believe its a brand new chapter and not part 2 of and old one, though the 'authors' of my book may have different plots. Damn em. Oh well in every story there are twists. How fun wd it be if i could execute my plan. My book wd be a sure best-seller.
While Depression was on one end of 28/12/08, Delight was on the other. I added one of my cousin, Fatin's msn add after being sucked into a 5-way msn convo with my bro and cuzins, which i spoke very lil, as usual. some time later she started chatting with me and i thot it wd get weird but it din. on the contrary it was really awesome and we hit it off so easily, just like me and dee. i was thrilled and so was she. it was a much needed shot i needed after all the depression that had been swirling ard. but it was kinda weird cos while i was being elated with her i was also chatting with rach and nick. two completely different emotions. so now i have built a bridge with another cousin. 3 down, a gazillion more to go.
Din go for Joshua's party cos I thot it was cancelled but it wasnt and Rjv only infd me like at 5pm yst and i cldn go cos had to go for dinner with family. damn. was actually lokin 4wd to it. then again even if i cld go i donno if i cld tahan cos my side was throbbing so bloody badly. Went to my granny's grave, and everytime i go there i just turn introspective and keep tellin myself i cannot repeat the same mistakes i did. theres so much regret i hold and the worst feeling in the world is tt i cant turn back time to change anything. i was such an ass (i tink i still am) and i really need to learn to make things rite and treat ppl better. sigh. i guess i can do that as i start a new chapter in my life as new yr approaches. (i still believe its a brand new chapter and not part 2 of and old one, though the 'authors' of my book may have different plots. Damn em. Oh well in every story there are twists. How fun wd it be if i could execute my plan. My book wd be a sure best-seller.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Christmas dinners, fights and memories
12midnite. 25th December. Christmas. Parents in Indonesia. Me at home. Bored to death. Anu was home too with nothin to do so we both kept each other company. then she told me to save her from this guy who was conversing with her via comments on her status. so i did. and it led to that guy tellin her via a private msg "wdnt it be nice if shaheen stopped interrupting our convo" or something like tt. i was like bloody son of a shit asshole. firstly anu was the one who asked me to rescue her from HIM. and secondly he doesnt even know me. which brings me to a question ive always longed to know but never seem to find out- do i give ppl bad first impressions? fuck off la all u assholes working in tandem to make my life miserable.
while chatting with anu my internet acted up again and this time i left it alone. ended up having 3 windows with abt 15 tabs on each. bollocks. if tt wasnt bad enuf this stupid beetle flew in my ear and later bit me on my right hand. it hurt like shit and i was pissed but i cldn find it to end its miserable life.
Slept at 5 after chatting with my sister and alarmed at 10 cos i wasnt sure if i was gonna go to aaron's xmas lunch thingy. woke up at 10, felt damn tired so i slept again. after wat seemed like forever i woke up again, checked the clock and it was 1130. i was pleased. still got time. so slept i did. after eternity, i awoke for the 3rd time and holy son of a crap it was still 1130. i then rmb that the clock had been spoilt for weeks. i checked my phone and it was 230. fuck. bro told me rjv had called. so after a dash of calls to rjv and trevor we decided to meet at 630.
Ended up at aaron's at ard 7. been so long since i saw him and emilia. i felt so surprised and pleased wen his mom asked for a hug and claimed that we were like her own children. i was just so happy i donno y. i thot shed find me weird considering my crazy antics at her house at new year's (or was it last xmas). i think it was the same day where darius and i got into a fight over some trivial issue. cant rmb wat we fought abt. last xmas was also significant between me and noorie. that xmas at aaron's was fun. then there was the first time i went to his house in 2005 and me and rjv were causing such a ruckus outside tt his mom looked at us as if we were retarded. so considering all these it was so nice tt she felt tt way. certainly lifted my mood.
This xmas was even more fun. nothin spectacular and the company was more or less the same but somehow it was just better. food as alwaes was awesome and the eggnog was bloody heavenly. somehow made me yearn for vodka. lol. it was ard 9plus wen noorie said she was gonna arrive but somehow got on the wrong bus and eventually came ard 930ish i tink. she din know the way so all of us sans aaron and emilia went to fetch her and to take a smoke break. ended up slacking in the playgrd smoking while noorie and rach sang. the entire mood was fuckin awesome and i wished that moment cld just go on forever. it was then i started tinkin of anu and tol myself i shd fight for her. then i thot of nick. it wd be pretty stupid & mean to have so-called matched 2 ppl and then butt in and fight. i din wanna hurt and betray nick but i knew i wd also be miserable without her. oh well..... mood weirdly got a lil tense after. aaron got pissed tt we din call him out to smoke but it was one whole misunderstanding. was tad uncomfortable initially but after a while it got back to normal. pity the thing was short (donno if it was our fault for coming late). short it may be but still it was a blast. just like old times. times i can never live elsewhere, or with anyone else. sux. left at 1130 and came back at 1. on the way back talked w rjv abt wat i shd do. tol him i planned to get anu back and he was all for it, saying i shd. i want to so bad but i cant just kick nick away. damn. is it really worth it? i guess not. in the cab on the way home i decided to leave it and let it be......
parents were already home. wth. so fast. can't wait for joshua's gathering on sat.
while chatting with anu my internet acted up again and this time i left it alone. ended up having 3 windows with abt 15 tabs on each. bollocks. if tt wasnt bad enuf this stupid beetle flew in my ear and later bit me on my right hand. it hurt like shit and i was pissed but i cldn find it to end its miserable life.
Slept at 5 after chatting with my sister and alarmed at 10 cos i wasnt sure if i was gonna go to aaron's xmas lunch thingy. woke up at 10, felt damn tired so i slept again. after wat seemed like forever i woke up again, checked the clock and it was 1130. i was pleased. still got time. so slept i did. after eternity, i awoke for the 3rd time and holy son of a crap it was still 1130. i then rmb that the clock had been spoilt for weeks. i checked my phone and it was 230. fuck. bro told me rjv had called. so after a dash of calls to rjv and trevor we decided to meet at 630.
Ended up at aaron's at ard 7. been so long since i saw him and emilia. i felt so surprised and pleased wen his mom asked for a hug and claimed that we were like her own children. i was just so happy i donno y. i thot shed find me weird considering my crazy antics at her house at new year's (or was it last xmas). i think it was the same day where darius and i got into a fight over some trivial issue. cant rmb wat we fought abt. last xmas was also significant between me and noorie. that xmas at aaron's was fun. then there was the first time i went to his house in 2005 and me and rjv were causing such a ruckus outside tt his mom looked at us as if we were retarded. so considering all these it was so nice tt she felt tt way. certainly lifted my mood.
This xmas was even more fun. nothin spectacular and the company was more or less the same but somehow it was just better. food as alwaes was awesome and the eggnog was bloody heavenly. somehow made me yearn for vodka. lol. it was ard 9plus wen noorie said she was gonna arrive but somehow got on the wrong bus and eventually came ard 930ish i tink. she din know the way so all of us sans aaron and emilia went to fetch her and to take a smoke break. ended up slacking in the playgrd smoking while noorie and rach sang. the entire mood was fuckin awesome and i wished that moment cld just go on forever. it was then i started tinkin of anu and tol myself i shd fight for her. then i thot of nick. it wd be pretty stupid & mean to have so-called matched 2 ppl and then butt in and fight. i din wanna hurt and betray nick but i knew i wd also be miserable without her. oh well..... mood weirdly got a lil tense after. aaron got pissed tt we din call him out to smoke but it was one whole misunderstanding. was tad uncomfortable initially but after a while it got back to normal. pity the thing was short (donno if it was our fault for coming late). short it may be but still it was a blast. just like old times. times i can never live elsewhere, or with anyone else. sux. left at 1130 and came back at 1. on the way back talked w rjv abt wat i shd do. tol him i planned to get anu back and he was all for it, saying i shd. i want to so bad but i cant just kick nick away. damn. is it really worth it? i guess not. in the cab on the way home i decided to leave it and let it be......
parents were already home. wth. so fast. can't wait for joshua's gathering on sat.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
A Poltergeist
Din sleep at all last nite. Guess Nocturnalitis is complete and has taken effect. tried sleepin at 330am. wasnt tired. disturbed my lil sis who was tryna sleep and ended up with a giant scratch on my left forearm. watched my bro play ps2 till abt 6. still wasnt tired. had popcorn chicken for b'fast. mom woke up and stared at me and my bro as if we were aliens. i mean i am la but don tink my bro is....
So anywae i thot Sean Wars Episode I & II were done and dusted but apparently there was Episode III: Revenge Of The Shit.or so i thot. I just coudnt bliv my good fortune wen he msn-ed me again last nite. i was psyching myself up for another cyberspace verbal battle wen he completely fooled me and apologized. yeah thats rite he actually apologized, asked me to forgive him (??? i thot i was in the wrong???) and said we shd have a fresh start. then i immediately knew anu had sth to do with this. i rmb her tellin me she din pick up his calls or sth. so i thot he was tryna get to anu by being nice to me. apparently not. he said anu tol him not to bother me and he "realised" his mistakes and wanted to end our very short bad blood. i was sceptical since i din know him but i was like ok and he was all see u in jan and i was like yeah. right. don tink he was sincere but who cares. im not gonna be an ass to him but im not gonna go all angelic on him.
Kept on tinkin abt the song 'Apologize' by Timbaland & OneRepublic and was singing it in my head and i tink it was my boredom + mental retardedness+ inability to sleep tt made these words spring to my mind and somehow i fit them into the song. i kept replaying the words and thot if they even made sense. ive never had this b4 where words jus enter my mind and form a song. but oh well they fit the tune of Apologize so...
So anywae i thot Sean Wars Episode I & II were done and dusted but apparently there was Episode III: Revenge Of The Shit.or so i thot. I just coudnt bliv my good fortune wen he msn-ed me again last nite. i was psyching myself up for another cyberspace verbal battle wen he completely fooled me and apologized. yeah thats rite he actually apologized, asked me to forgive him (??? i thot i was in the wrong???) and said we shd have a fresh start. then i immediately knew anu had sth to do with this. i rmb her tellin me she din pick up his calls or sth. so i thot he was tryna get to anu by being nice to me. apparently not. he said anu tol him not to bother me and he "realised" his mistakes and wanted to end our very short bad blood. i was sceptical since i din know him but i was like ok and he was all see u in jan and i was like yeah. right. don tink he was sincere but who cares. im not gonna be an ass to him but im not gonna go all angelic on him.
Kept on tinkin abt the song 'Apologize' by Timbaland & OneRepublic and was singing it in my head and i tink it was my boredom + mental retardedness+ inability to sleep tt made these words spring to my mind and somehow i fit them into the song. i kept replaying the words and thot if they even made sense. ive never had this b4 where words jus enter my mind and form a song. but oh well they fit the tune of Apologize so...
A Poltergeist
I'm looking for some rope
Headed six feet underground
I'm tryna find my way
But there's darkness all around
Told myself I need you
Never thought you'd up & go, away
My faith in you is shaken
Nothin' left for me to do, but say
I'm haunted by a poltergeist
I'm haunted...
I'm haunted by a poltergiest
I'm haunted...
I'd taken all my shots, gave my all
Tried my best for you
I need you 'cos my heart has no beat
But it's nothin' new
I loved you more than I could know
Now I'm just hollow
Stumblin' thru' the darkness
No one else I can follow
My mind's all gone
I'm haunted by a poltergeist
I'm haunted...
I'm haunted by a poltergiest
I'm haunted...
I'm haunted...
I'm haunted by a poltergiest
I'm haunted...
Ive no idea what this means..who knows maybe its a sign..especially after yesterday's freaky results from the questions thingy..yeah its just for fun but some were so true i got a lil freaked at others...
ok i have no idea y im not tired. sth is really wrong with me. speaking of ive been feelin really intense pain where i had my op and i tink sth happened, like the internal stitch tore or sth. cos it just bites and it hurts and this sux.. i shd prolly go check but my parents are like alwaes bz working/going out/chilling with frens/going overseas... how embarrassing tt they have far more interesting lives than i do.. sigh... hope i dun have to for a re-op.. but seeing that blue black near my stitches really disturbs me.. sigh... i guess its my destiny to be a subservient recluse. oh well. its christmas. cant bliv 2008 is gonna end. so soon. seemed so recent that 2008 started and i was, well, doing diff things. 2009. ill be 21. officially an adult. oh crap.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Retarded Q & A Segment
So I've been asked to take this thingy..anywaes looks like fun so what the hell...
l. Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Put This In your Blog
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Bleed It Out- Linkin Park
Oh well better to get it out of yr system by bleeding...
2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF ?
Remember The Name- Fort Minor
I guess thats good enuf lol...
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sk8er Boi-Avril Lavigne
Oh man I am fuckin screwed....
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Love Song- Sara Bareilles
I do? Nah not been tinkin abt love at all..then again...
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Good Life- Kanye West Feat. T-Pain
Hahaha wth so bloody true..oh crap does that mean number 3 is....
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Wish We Were Older- Metro Station
No no no!!! I'm old enough...
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Amnesia- Britney Spears
Yeah prolly true...soon I will...
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Murder- Ashlee Simpson
What??!!! Uh-oh.. oh well probably..
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Heaven On Earth- Britney Spears
Yeah like all the time.. ok y do i have so many Britney songs...
10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Ms Hangover- Flo Rida
I have no idea what the fark this means...
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
2 Man Show- Timbaland Feat. Elton John
hahahaha....wth is this sposed to mean..and aint elton john gay or sth..fuck im definitely doomed...
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Breaking Free- Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens
Yes this is damn bloody true...
13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE ?
Apologize- Timbaland Feat. OneRepublic
Yes my life is one whole sorry mess of apologies...
14. WHAT DO YOU WAN TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP ?
Through The Fire & Flames- DragonForce
Am I gonna be some sorta circus performer?
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE ?
Snow (Hey Oh)- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Ive not even thot abt snow..the last time i did was...oh fuck!!!!
16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING ?
False Pretense- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Damn rite cos ill NEVER get married...sorry whoever my "wife" is gonna be
17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Cry- Rihanna
Thats right people u better be crying wen im dead
18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Five Minutes To Midnight- Boys Like Girls
hmmm 11.55pm...im online...yeah guess tts my hobby as of now..lame..
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR ?
Disturbia- Rihanna
Too late my mind's already in disturbia....
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET ?
St. Anger- Metallica
Thats not no secret..Thats like completely known...asshole..
21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Cat & Mouse- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Does this mean i hate em all? hmmm need to check myself...
22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS ?
When You're Gone- Avril Lavigne
Wow how apt...
23. WHAT SONG WOULD YOU PLAY DURING YOUR FIRST TIME HAVING SEX?
Doing That Thing You Do- The Wonders
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Some accurate answers while others are just plain weird..oh well it was fun...
l. Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Put This In your Blog
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Bleed It Out- Linkin Park
Oh well better to get it out of yr system by bleeding...
2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF ?
Remember The Name- Fort Minor
I guess thats good enuf lol...
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sk8er Boi-Avril Lavigne
Oh man I am fuckin screwed....
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Love Song- Sara Bareilles
I do? Nah not been tinkin abt love at all..then again...
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Good Life- Kanye West Feat. T-Pain
Hahaha wth so bloody true..oh crap does that mean number 3 is....
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Wish We Were Older- Metro Station
No no no!!! I'm old enough...
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Amnesia- Britney Spears
Yeah prolly true...soon I will...
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Murder- Ashlee Simpson
What??!!! Uh-oh.. oh well probably..
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Heaven On Earth- Britney Spears
Yeah like all the time.. ok y do i have so many Britney songs...
10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Ms Hangover- Flo Rida
I have no idea what the fark this means...
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
2 Man Show- Timbaland Feat. Elton John
hahahaha....wth is this sposed to mean..and aint elton john gay or sth..fuck im definitely doomed...
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Breaking Free- Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens
Yes this is damn bloody true...
13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE ?
Apologize- Timbaland Feat. OneRepublic
Yes my life is one whole sorry mess of apologies...
14. WHAT DO YOU WAN TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP ?
Through The Fire & Flames- DragonForce
Am I gonna be some sorta circus performer?
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE ?
Snow (Hey Oh)- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Ive not even thot abt snow..the last time i did was...oh fuck!!!!
16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING ?
False Pretense- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Damn rite cos ill NEVER get married...sorry whoever my "wife" is gonna be
17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Cry- Rihanna
Thats right people u better be crying wen im dead
18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Five Minutes To Midnight- Boys Like Girls
hmmm 11.55pm...im online...yeah guess tts my hobby as of now..lame..
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR ?
Disturbia- Rihanna
Too late my mind's already in disturbia....
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET ?
St. Anger- Metallica
Thats not no secret..Thats like completely known...asshole..
21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Cat & Mouse- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Does this mean i hate em all? hmmm need to check myself...
22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS ?
When You're Gone- Avril Lavigne
Wow how apt...
23. WHAT SONG WOULD YOU PLAY DURING YOUR FIRST TIME HAVING SEX?
Doing That Thing You Do- The Wonders
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Some accurate answers while others are just plain weird..oh well it was fun...
Spoilin' For A Fight
I did mention tt the next person who dumps crap on me is gonna get it big time. and the fortunate reciever cannot be more appropriate- the one and only jackasshole S.G. or M.P.G. whichever name he uses cant mask the lascivious fractious adolescent he is. He did say he was gonna come look for me to kill me and i told him he shd, so tt i can bestow upon him the great honour of having his dirty ass kicked.this is the first time ive engaged in the ever-petulant cyberwar but it cldn be helped. well maybe it cldve.
So after chatting w me on fb abt she-who-shall-not-be-named. i had no idea that the jackass called her up and acted frenly with her and all. just what kind of motherfucker does that? i bet even batman's Two-Face would have been proud. naturally, i had to tell Anu the shit he said, considering she's my fren and he aint. i may have betrayed him in the process but thing is he aint my fren, and someone i abhor, so i get the free-pass. (i tink). so anu confronted him and after tt he blasted me online. said i betrayed him and how could i "pick a chick who dumped u for yr best fren over yr own fren"? he had no idea how bloody inaccurate that phrase was, but i din bother correcting him. that dumass even thot my msn pm "fuck Vietnam's pussy players" (in reference to the AFF Suzuki Cup whereby Vietnam beat Singapore 1-0 where Vietnam's players fell too easily) was abt him. he's not even a Viet(i tink). how stupid could he be. his dick may be experienced (self-proclaimed) but his brain is still non-existent.
So this motherfucker continued berating me online and i was getting pissed. Too bad that his tongue and his brain dont cooperate and co-function (prolly due to the fact that his brain doesnt exist). He expects to shoot off shit abt ppl and get away scot-free? hell no. so after the dust had settled i started being tad introspective, and realised this is exactly y i shd never ever involve myself in another relationship again. so many fuckin problems and shit. tht bloody asshole had his own problems with anu and somehow managed to drag me into it. on paper it seemed tt i did wrong cos i kinda went behind his back and told anu wat he tol me but like earlier mentioned to me at least tts not wrong. u spit shit abt my fren tt person is gonna know. and wad made it easier was the fact tt he was a nobody in my life. anu is no more my gf and at the risk of sounding like a complete asshole myself i don tink im gonna immerse myself with this kinds of shit anymore.
Cant bliv the next day (last nite) tt shithead actually chatted me up on msn again, askin if i had fucked with other ppl. i was tinkin wtf is his prob. he hates me so y continue bothering himself with me? stay out of my life bloody gigolo. he shd get a proper life like the rest of humanity, whereby brains are actually existent and functioning, and more than just the sexual organ is used. but i guess he doesnt possess the rudimentary needs for human living and his deficiencies as a basic human being cost him a place on earth, hence the need to live in his own bubble.
Cant bliv i actually wasted a post on one person (he shd feel honoured...yeah right) and more imptly cant bliv i just vilified him via cyberspace. i have just committed an act i had always deemed immature. oh well theres a first for everything right.
So after chatting w me on fb abt she-who-shall-not-be-named. i had no idea that the jackass called her up and acted frenly with her and all. just what kind of motherfucker does that? i bet even batman's Two-Face would have been proud. naturally, i had to tell Anu the shit he said, considering she's my fren and he aint. i may have betrayed him in the process but thing is he aint my fren, and someone i abhor, so i get the free-pass. (i tink). so anu confronted him and after tt he blasted me online. said i betrayed him and how could i "pick a chick who dumped u for yr best fren over yr own fren"? he had no idea how bloody inaccurate that phrase was, but i din bother correcting him. that dumass even thot my msn pm "fuck Vietnam's pussy players" (in reference to the AFF Suzuki Cup whereby Vietnam beat Singapore 1-0 where Vietnam's players fell too easily) was abt him. he's not even a Viet(i tink). how stupid could he be. his dick may be experienced (self-proclaimed) but his brain is still non-existent.
So this motherfucker continued berating me online and i was getting pissed. Too bad that his tongue and his brain dont cooperate and co-function (prolly due to the fact that his brain doesnt exist). He expects to shoot off shit abt ppl and get away scot-free? hell no. so after the dust had settled i started being tad introspective, and realised this is exactly y i shd never ever involve myself in another relationship again. so many fuckin problems and shit. tht bloody asshole had his own problems with anu and somehow managed to drag me into it. on paper it seemed tt i did wrong cos i kinda went behind his back and told anu wat he tol me but like earlier mentioned to me at least tts not wrong. u spit shit abt my fren tt person is gonna know. and wad made it easier was the fact tt he was a nobody in my life. anu is no more my gf and at the risk of sounding like a complete asshole myself i don tink im gonna immerse myself with this kinds of shit anymore.
Cant bliv the next day (last nite) tt shithead actually chatted me up on msn again, askin if i had fucked with other ppl. i was tinkin wtf is his prob. he hates me so y continue bothering himself with me? stay out of my life bloody gigolo. he shd get a proper life like the rest of humanity, whereby brains are actually existent and functioning, and more than just the sexual organ is used. but i guess he doesnt possess the rudimentary needs for human living and his deficiencies as a basic human being cost him a place on earth, hence the need to live in his own bubble.
Cant bliv i actually wasted a post on one person (he shd feel honoured...yeah right) and more imptly cant bliv i just vilified him via cyberspace. i have just committed an act i had always deemed immature. oh well theres a first for everything right.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Unexpected Expectancy
Woke up sweating like crazy. Thot I had a fuckin bad dream, like being haunted by some pontianak or chased by gays, but then realised it was bright, and then i rmbed i din have a dream. (duz it make sense?). then my dad came into my room and said there was a blackout. Great. Spent the next couple of hrs pacing ard my house. Mom infd tt thr were a couple of electricians reparing some cable outside and tt electricity was expected to return in the evening. Sigh. Had to leave home at 3 to meet me Spore buddies. While watching my sister polish her nails (yes im that bored and lame) the electricity came back(which was ard 130). went online and surprises of all holy surprises, Sean Gulati, this ass of a guy who was an annoying jackass while in college, started chatting with me on fb, asking me if i rmb who he was. i replied yes, forgetting to add unfortunately. we then started chatting abt random stuff and then i realised tt i may, just may, have pre-judged him. he seemed pretty decent and nice. then again it was only a random chat so it cant be a helpful and accurate gauge. tol him i had to go off and he said he wanted to chat more and i was like yeah cool. tt was pretty weird and random.
Left home at 3 plus and it was the first time venturing into the new JB Chkpt. It was huge and its interior matched KLIA's but it was complicating and annoying and tiring and did nothing to stem the jams and slow traffic. So much for an upgrade. What the old chkpt lacked in physical attributes it more than made up in simple efficiency. Sposed to meet the rest at Orchard at 5 but as usual Rjv and Rach were late. It accumulated to 2 hrs. 2 hrs!!! Yes it may have been annoying but I ignored it and just basked in the fact tt i cld meet my close frens again. Hey no one's perfect. Old me wd've blasted them and displayed all the attitude i cld sum up but remembering the consequences of that action the last time i did it, i stopped short. Chatted so much and then i asked for advice on a simple question: Better to lay off relationships completely or just have flings? The cause of this question? The whole debacle with she-who-shall-not-be-named which was mentally taxing. It may have been for only a while but it was so tiring tt ive kinda sworn off relationships. So i asked them tt qn. Trevor din even know wad flings were, Rjv said to not give up on her and Rach completely avoided the qn and talked abt me. It was then i realised sth. I may have frens there in KL but none can match with those i have here for one simple reason-age. my frens here are older than i am and can offer me the support or advice i may need at times, and tts where their age and experience comes in. while me frens in kl are well, frens, they are 17/18 and with no intended disrespect just arent the same. Not tt im complaining but sometimes i do need a lil guidance too. Seeing my faith in the divine have been undulating.....
Dinner was fun where the most unexpected topics were strewn across the table and everyone kept looking at us weird, prolly cos of all the ruckus we made. I don tink we'll ever be allowed into tt place ever again. Especially after this....
Left home at 3 plus and it was the first time venturing into the new JB Chkpt. It was huge and its interior matched KLIA's but it was complicating and annoying and tiring and did nothing to stem the jams and slow traffic. So much for an upgrade. What the old chkpt lacked in physical attributes it more than made up in simple efficiency. Sposed to meet the rest at Orchard at 5 but as usual Rjv and Rach were late. It accumulated to 2 hrs. 2 hrs!!! Yes it may have been annoying but I ignored it and just basked in the fact tt i cld meet my close frens again. Hey no one's perfect. Old me wd've blasted them and displayed all the attitude i cld sum up but remembering the consequences of that action the last time i did it, i stopped short. Chatted so much and then i asked for advice on a simple question: Better to lay off relationships completely or just have flings? The cause of this question? The whole debacle with she-who-shall-not-be-named which was mentally taxing. It may have been for only a while but it was so tiring tt ive kinda sworn off relationships. So i asked them tt qn. Trevor din even know wad flings were, Rjv said to not give up on her and Rach completely avoided the qn and talked abt me. It was then i realised sth. I may have frens there in KL but none can match with those i have here for one simple reason-age. my frens here are older than i am and can offer me the support or advice i may need at times, and tts where their age and experience comes in. while me frens in kl are well, frens, they are 17/18 and with no intended disrespect just arent the same. Not tt im complaining but sometimes i do need a lil guidance too. Seeing my faith in the divine have been undulating.....
Dinner was fun where the most unexpected topics were strewn across the table and everyone kept looking at us weird, prolly cos of all the ruckus we made. I don tink we'll ever be allowed into tt place ever again. Especially after this....
This used to be the chocolate fondue bowl and after we finished it rach decided to add tissues, sugar, the reciept and i forgot wad else. We are completely psycho...
Trooped ard Orchard where it was fuckin packed specially with xmas comin up. Thr were so many choirs and all of em sucked. specially the lil kids. i really felt like murdering em but rach stopped me. it was nearly midnite and my mom started smsing me askin wen i was comin back. rjv and rach suggested jus crashing his place. tt was always fun and like old times but it was hard. so i planned carefully with my younger bro who was stayin in Woodlands and jedi mind tricked my mom, saying i wd sleepover at my bro's. she was reluctant but my dad said it was fine. my DAD said it was fine! WTH!! Awesome.who knew the force was with me. ok lame. Crashed his place and played with pepper, the most adorable dog in the world.
Ok here u cant see his cute face...nvm..After watchin movies and stuff the rest were tired and slept ard 430. i tried to sleep but i wasnt tired. tossed and turned, listened to music, browsed thru photos, mingled with my thots and before i knew it it was 7. wtf. i got up, watched pepper laze ard till the others woke up. left at 10 and the damn stupid chkpt is just damn inefficient. wads the point of having a hundred booths if theres only 2 lanes for cars and buses and all. dumasses. reached home at 12 plus sweating like a pig. found out ac/dc's album finished dling. cool. 14 days to Sem 2(for now, seeing talks with parents have yet to start)
Friday, December 19, 2008
Bleeding Blood
With approximately 16 days to semsester 2, it seems these holidays have been shitty not just for me but everyone i had contacted, with boredom being king of the hols. cant any of us have a decent holiday? apparently not. oh well theres only 16 days b4 school starts again and tt may be a gd thing, it may not. for me, i don feel like going back for sem 2. prolly tell me parents wat i want and see wat they say. my dad will prolly kill me for wasting so much money and time for sem 1 only to quit after but maybe if i can drill the thought tt its not wat i want into his brains he may just acquiesce. hopefully. i have never been decisive and now maybe its the holidays tts screwing up my mind and making me tink irrationally and illogically but i jus don see myself studying in sunway next yr. if only i know wad i wanna do. but i dont. damn this hols have really screwed me up. listening to weird songs like metal, rock and chinese songs, watching chinese shows, being a full fledged nocturnal animal, one on the brink of a complete mental breakdown. not tt im gonna rehash britney's stint few yrs back, tho i may follow her hair shaving antics.
with the net now back, it has prevented an all out obliteration of my sanity. despite the net being extremely slow and unstable, im jus satisfied tt its back. how ive missed it. but i wdnt mind it being faster la. suddenly things are looking bit brighter, tho my eyesight is deteriorating. home is tad more peaceful. met up with dinie (cuz) last nite after midnite. surprised parents allowed me out. spent couple hrs jus chatting. felt pretty good. at least im one step into rebuilding my relationships with my cousins. im prolly the most deficient person on earth (hence my belief tt im an alien) and my family's the most dysfunctional one out there. so past couple of days have been pretty good, tho i still cant stop tinkin abt she-who-cannot-be-named-(actually-she-can-but-im-trying-to-give-her-a-dramatic-effect-which-i-realised-now-looks-just-plain-retarded). keep tinkin abt how weird its gonna be next sem. (another reason not to go back. seems like all the cons of going back outweighs the pros). other than tt everything else seem ok. i swear to God the next person who dumps crap on me Im gonna shove chopsticks into his/her nose, stab his/her eyes with forks, smack his/her face with a frying pan, plunge a pair of rusty scissors into his/her ass and kick him/her in his balls/her punani(however u spell it). if all these don make me feel better so help me God ill just murder him/her with my bare hands. there's enough crap with me to last 2 lifetimes. im definitely retarded. damn theres no mental hospital ard my area.
with the net now back, it has prevented an all out obliteration of my sanity. despite the net being extremely slow and unstable, im jus satisfied tt its back. how ive missed it. but i wdnt mind it being faster la. suddenly things are looking bit brighter, tho my eyesight is deteriorating. home is tad more peaceful. met up with dinie (cuz) last nite after midnite. surprised parents allowed me out. spent couple hrs jus chatting. felt pretty good. at least im one step into rebuilding my relationships with my cousins. im prolly the most deficient person on earth (hence my belief tt im an alien) and my family's the most dysfunctional one out there. so past couple of days have been pretty good, tho i still cant stop tinkin abt she-who-cannot-be-named-(actually-she-can-but-im-trying-to-give-her-a-dramatic-effect-which-i-realised-now-looks-just-plain-retarded). keep tinkin abt how weird its gonna be next sem. (another reason not to go back. seems like all the cons of going back outweighs the pros). other than tt everything else seem ok. i swear to God the next person who dumps crap on me Im gonna shove chopsticks into his/her nose, stab his/her eyes with forks, smack his/her face with a frying pan, plunge a pair of rusty scissors into his/her ass and kick him/her in his balls/her punani(however u spell it). if all these don make me feel better so help me God ill just murder him/her with my bare hands. there's enough crap with me to last 2 lifetimes. im definitely retarded. damn theres no mental hospital ard my area.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
An Jing
So still without the net, phone and on the verge of complete bankruptcy, home had turned into a hell hole/mental asylum. there was only so much tv and ps2 can do. on sat night (2 sats ago i tink) my bro invited me to a dinner with all the cousins in spore. i wanted to go cos i was fucked at home but i din wanna go cos id feel awkward. i know my cousins but i don have the fundamental relationship with em. it was prolly due to us moving away from spore back in 1994 tt made me alienated from all my cousins on my moms side. somehow my bro, who as far as i can rmb also did not fraternize much with our cousins, had been hanging out with em and all...prolly reconnected via fb or sth. so i was stunned tt my bro kinda like rebuilt his r'ships with em. he used to be a complete reclusive hermit. unlike my eldest bro who is completely sociable. as for me i was, well, in between. neither sociable nor unfrenly. just middle. guess it sux bein the middle child. anywaes, over the yrs my 2nd bro seemed to have changed and took over my eldest bro's traits and i inhabited the shell vacated by him. i used to tink tt back in kl wenever i felt like some social outcast it was bcos chinese seemed to be the national language. but after the dinner with my cuzins i tink its just me. im officially a social retard. the whole dinner was so damn freakin awkward for me cos i jus sat thr listening to ppl speak. my bro got along w em all pretty fine and i was lookin like an idiot. couldn be happier wen we left.
so from that horrendous saturday till now, not much has happened. other than my mom suddenly turning me into a puppet and hell bent on pulling the strings- controlling wat i do with my hair as if its hers, controlling wat and wen i can eat, even my clothes. and somehow im grounded. i have no idea y. and shes not one to openly speak to me abt stuff. its like a tacit understanding tt i just have to accept all the shit my parents dish out. great. i swear im adopted. contemplated marking my arms with a pair of scissors one night but they looked tad dirty so i din.
met noorie last fri. she was shocked/surprised/elated and just cldn bliv i was thr in person. so we chatted and stuff and her best fren was thr and we kinda talked.just a lil... walked ard some mall and i cld feel tt she wanted to hold my hand but i donno y i either kept putting my hand in my pockets or fiddling with my bag. then finally i acceded and let her hold my hand. then she became pretty chummy with me and i was feeling awkward. apparently her feelings for me never left all these months tho i cant say i reciprocated cos i din feel the same way anymore and i was still tryna get back with anu. i kinda told her tt and she said she understood but it kinda killed her and made me feel like shit. its jus tt ive been tinkin so much abt anu and all and wanted so badly to get back with her and work out our differences. but like always one problem comes fast and furious after another.
Smsed anu later at nite and the next afternoon all tt i needed to say then i found out nick told her he liked her. and therein lies the dilemma no one ever wants to be in. ever. 2 guys liking the same girl. and both guys being good frens. nick is like a brother to me and i know he likes anu damn alot. he once told me tt hed jus go berserk if he fails in a relationship after his past failures. tt kinda got me tinking. anu then told me she also likes nick, tho she doesn know wat she wants. wen dak exits, nick enters. i was getting tired of all this so i told anu to jus pick nick, seeing tt he din have my problem, he'll take less subs than i will which means more time and hes a nice guy, not ass-y like the rest of us. i felt like shit but i guess it was best for her since she likes him too. and after tt i jus sunk lower than ever b4 and tt prompted my decision to lay off girls and not bother abt relationships ever again. it really sux cos my feelings for anu probably like amplified over the past month or so but then i din wanna hurt nick. all my frens say i have to be selfish in love and tt i was so stupid in doing wat i did. oh well who cares. im still tinkin if i shd go back for sem 2. thr seems to be nothing to go back to. tho my dad will prolly disallow me to quit seeing i already did one sem. then again i don know if i can afford next sem, pending current circumstances. i guess i just gotta wait and mingle with the silence.
so from that horrendous saturday till now, not much has happened. other than my mom suddenly turning me into a puppet and hell bent on pulling the strings- controlling wat i do with my hair as if its hers, controlling wat and wen i can eat, even my clothes. and somehow im grounded. i have no idea y. and shes not one to openly speak to me abt stuff. its like a tacit understanding tt i just have to accept all the shit my parents dish out. great. i swear im adopted. contemplated marking my arms with a pair of scissors one night but they looked tad dirty so i din.
met noorie last fri. she was shocked/surprised/elated and just cldn bliv i was thr in person. so we chatted and stuff and her best fren was thr and we kinda talked.just a lil... walked ard some mall and i cld feel tt she wanted to hold my hand but i donno y i either kept putting my hand in my pockets or fiddling with my bag. then finally i acceded and let her hold my hand. then she became pretty chummy with me and i was feeling awkward. apparently her feelings for me never left all these months tho i cant say i reciprocated cos i din feel the same way anymore and i was still tryna get back with anu. i kinda told her tt and she said she understood but it kinda killed her and made me feel like shit. its jus tt ive been tinkin so much abt anu and all and wanted so badly to get back with her and work out our differences. but like always one problem comes fast and furious after another.
Smsed anu later at nite and the next afternoon all tt i needed to say then i found out nick told her he liked her. and therein lies the dilemma no one ever wants to be in. ever. 2 guys liking the same girl. and both guys being good frens. nick is like a brother to me and i know he likes anu damn alot. he once told me tt hed jus go berserk if he fails in a relationship after his past failures. tt kinda got me tinking. anu then told me she also likes nick, tho she doesn know wat she wants. wen dak exits, nick enters. i was getting tired of all this so i told anu to jus pick nick, seeing tt he din have my problem, he'll take less subs than i will which means more time and hes a nice guy, not ass-y like the rest of us. i felt like shit but i guess it was best for her since she likes him too. and after tt i jus sunk lower than ever b4 and tt prompted my decision to lay off girls and not bother abt relationships ever again. it really sux cos my feelings for anu probably like amplified over the past month or so but then i din wanna hurt nick. all my frens say i have to be selfish in love and tt i was so stupid in doing wat i did. oh well who cares. im still tinkin if i shd go back for sem 2. thr seems to be nothing to go back to. tho my dad will prolly disallow me to quit seeing i already did one sem. then again i don know if i can afford next sem, pending current circumstances. i guess i just gotta wait and mingle with the silence.
..of weird convos, emotions, and thoughts...
this post is gonna travel a couple a weeks back since i had no net this whole time and i plan to document every phase of my life..yeah as if..
so last i wrote i was in the hostel turning nocturnal (the transformation has since been complete)...well came back 2 or 3 fridays ago..tink it was 2.. and i had the weirdest convo with a taxi driver..actually with anyone... (convo occured in malay and is directly translated)
Taxi Driver(TD) : (after the usual "where to" and all) Are you indonesian?
Me: (wtf??!! Indon??!!) No. I'm S'porean.
TD: Oh. (pauses). So where's your village? Which part of Indon are u from?
Me: (Fuck!) No I'm from Singapore.
TD: Ohhhh Singapore. So where's your village in Singapore?
Me: (What?!) Erm no there's no village in Singapore. It's like an island. Just one state.
TD: Oh I see. So what are you doing here? Visiting relatives?
Me: No. I live here.
TD: Oh. Which part of Indonesia do your relatives live in?
Me(getting really annoyed): I dont have relatives in Indonesia. Only in Spore and Malaysia.
TD: Ok. Have u been to indonesia?
Me: (what is it with this guy and indonesia??) No.
TD: Oh. (long pause) I heard Sporeans are good at playing girls. Is that true?
Me: What? No no no. Well I don't know.
TD: What about you? Any girlfriends? (eyes me in the mirror)
Me: No. Broke up already.
TD: Sure or not? Handsome guy like you surely have 4 or 5 girls right? Don't bluff la.
Me: No really. I'm single.
TD: Really? You look like the playboy sort.
Me: (Not again).*smiles*
TD: So why'd u break up? Were u too rough during sex? She couldn't take it? (laughs)
Me: (WTBLOODYF)*tries to hide shock* No no.
TD: So how many girlfrens uve had? how many time have u 'played' them?
Me: (getting really annoyed and shocked) Never. I've never 'played' them.
Taxi arrives at home. I pay the damn fare
TD: Nice chatting with you tho ur so quiet.
I smile, roll my eyes and slam the door shut. Damn bloody malay asshole who just ruined my trip back home. at least there was my beloved cousin who was comin to my house from aussie
So after dumping my bag (which has remained unpacked until this day) in my room and randomly surfing tv channels, my mom told me my cousin had arrived. the last time she came in jan i had just finished night shift, i was tired like hell and basically ignored her. she claimed i gave her dirty angry looks. so this time i planned to be nice. tho i was tired and pissed by tt idiotic taxi shithead. diana(my cuz) and i became close via fb but nvr really conversed in person so i knew its gonna be weird. and weird it was. i smiled and said hi. she went "aaahhh no angry look!". i was like yeah. so we kinda smiled and stared at each other. there was the basic how are u and stuff. then she went to talk to my bro and tt was my cue to retreat to tv upstairs. at least i was nicer than last time. then she came up and we kinda warmed up to each other and pretty soon we were both in my room chatting. then my other cousin came and we all hung out and chatted and it was pretty fun. then everyone decided to hit spore at like 10plus and i was like no way in hell i was exhausted so i stayed home with my sis.
No this ain't my sis..she's my cousin Dee who might as well be my sister.... oh well....so much more to lament but im tired typing...
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Check....No Juliet
Managed to slp at ard 830 ish after macbreaksfast. woke up at 12 ish and saw dak's msg tt he and anu were comin at 1. i was like wtf. so soon. had a quick bath b4 meetin em with nick of coz.. went to get my bus ticket and wen i came back to the car saw anu lyin on dak's shoulder. tts wen it hit me tt no matter how hard i try i prolly will never get her ever again. guess i only have myself to blame for takin her for granted (kinda i tink) while we dated. now tt i want her more than ever she has her eyes for her duckie. had quite a nice msn convo with her yst whr i did let her know how i felt and stuff and for certain moments i tot thr was a possibility we could get back together. but each time tt feeling cropped up it was instantly snuffed out with her saying she likes dak. guess i gotta be content with just being her fren. and while im at it i cld be a nice one and not a dark one.
played pool at ac after pickin ashwin up and despite me winning several games i wasnt in the mood cos i kept tinkin abt her.oh well. going back tmr anywaes so itll prolly help being away and shit.. met jacob in the library and poor dude still strugglin with exams.
finally can meet Dee tmr nite and hopefully all my Sporean buddies. Noories been pretty excited (i tink) abt meetin me. said she cant wait much longer. what exactly duz tt mean? tt she cant wait much longer. like if she keeps waiting and waiting then she wdn wanna see me again? lol..retarded...
hopefully things don go back to the way they were b4 i left home. no net no $ no phone. at least here had net and frens. home is like...zilch..well fri will be ok. sat might. sun wont. sigh. semester 2 shd just start now. ok im definitely retarded..
played pool at ac after pickin ashwin up and despite me winning several games i wasnt in the mood cos i kept tinkin abt her.oh well. going back tmr anywaes so itll prolly help being away and shit.. met jacob in the library and poor dude still strugglin with exams.
finally can meet Dee tmr nite and hopefully all my Sporean buddies. Noories been pretty excited (i tink) abt meetin me. said she cant wait much longer. what exactly duz tt mean? tt she cant wait much longer. like if she keeps waiting and waiting then she wdn wanna see me again? lol..retarded...
hopefully things don go back to the way they were b4 i left home. no net no $ no phone. at least here had net and frens. home is like...zilch..well fri will be ok. sat might. sun wont. sigh. semester 2 shd just start now. ok im definitely retarded..
Eyes Wide Open
Ok its 7.23am as im typin this and ive not slept the whole night. this is retarded. wen i came back from 1u i was tired as hell. uploaded pix and did random onlining. din tink id make it past midnite. stupid net was damn slow by the time i uploaded pix it was like 230 or sth. donno how the hell i made it past 3am 4 am 5 am until now. so im sposed to buy my bus ticket for tmr today. dono if i can tahan the entire day or if ill be a zombie. this is crazy.tried slpin at 630 but nick kept talkin to me... for a moment i tot i was slp talkin. then i realised it was 7 and thr was sunlight. wtf...
tried n tried to slp n i jus cldn..then nick started playin songs...kinda got me awake..thot of swimming l8r..i got up to see the pool and realised my "lil bro" was awake. wide awake.wth. i wasnt even tinkin of anythin and all of a sudden thrs a mountain. tried to get my bro 2 slp but obviously cldn force it to. sigh. so attended to my lappie and wrote this random post..then nick got hungry and believe it or not called macd. wtf.this is crazy...
my life is definitely turning crazy.. just realised ive been tinkin alot abt anu. like too much. (she wasnt the cause of the mountain btw)...i really wanna get back with her but then we mite have probs next sem and then thrs her whole issue with duckie, who i myself have come to like. ok not in tt way la. i used to abhor him for the whole thing with anu but then i decided to give him a chance and test my new self. he's a really nice guy and really funny too. just tt i tink if it comes down to me and him anu will pick him cos of my 'lil' prob, which i hope to exterminate asap. but its not like a switch. so in a couple of hrs im gonna meet anu and mayb duckie and ashwin to buy my ticket ad just chill. cant wait to see my beloved Dee tmr night. been waiting super long for this. ok its 756. this is crazy.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Right Now (Bla Bla Bla)
Keep wakin up not believing im actually in Sunway, of all places. surely my life cant be so lifeless tt i have to resort to this god forsaken place for holidays. It seems tt way. so 1 day in sunway and already ive done more than the entire time ive been at home. sweet.
Glad everyone enjoyed the day, and the birthday ppl enjoyed their gifts. Peace Out!
So its tuesday (actually its wed now) and its Nick's bday. spent the first hrs of his bday cocking ard in his room. slept ard 4 or 5 am. had no concrete plans for his bday so had to plan sth l8r. woke up at 2 and started onlining and making plans with anu angela and ashwin. things got very hectic and it became frustrating cos angela wasnt free(not her fault) and thr were other stuff tt prevented an outing from materialising. plan was to go out at 8 ish and celebrate but as usual it all fell apart. then angela kinda saved the situation by saying she was free the next day (today). after more smses and msn convos it was decided tt we would celebrate anushya's and nick's bdays at 1u. thk god. so nick un4tunately had to spend his bday with me as we both hit ac and pyramid to look for anu's bday gifts. sought help from angela who described this shirt tt anu wanted. looked for it but cldn find it. ended up buying her a smurfs shirt and knowing she liked spongebob, nick and i walked ard for hrs lookin for anything spongebob. finally found a spongebob beanie. cant bliv in the stupid mall they only had ONE spongebob-y thing. felt kinda glad and we went back. nick said he enjoyed his bday tho thr wasnt anythin special and tt made me happy. hopefully tmr wd be gd. and yea it was.
at nite nick continued his lil radio show. its really damn funny and this time anu joined in via fb. lol. slept at 4. had flu and cldn really sleep properly. woke up at 12 sth and anu infd tt daksha was gonna join us. ashwin mite too. cool. so nick and i reached 1u ard 2 plus and anu angela and dak came ard 4 cos of the jam. i felt relieved tt i did not blow up. i know my old self wd have blown up and just showed attitude at them for arriving late. but thkfully i had the brains to keep my self and attitude in check. anywaes it wasnt even their fault. moreover i din wanna spoil the whole outing. lunch was fun tho the poor cake got smashed here and thr and daksha got burnt. poor boy couldn get decent butter for his waffle. first was completely melted, 2nd was hard as hell. and he has the funniest scream ever. cldn stop luffin wenever he screamed.
aaron joined us later and anu and angela started going crazy wen he mentioned his gf was comin along. apparently his gf is chindian and a model and very hot. which made angela paranoid. lol. had fun pushin anu in a trolley and bowling (not her). aaron and his gf left after bowling and angela oso left cos she was ill. so the 4 of us watched Quarantine. kinda nice and scary. not scary scary but shocking scary. ok nvm u dun get me. i dun even know who 'u' r. so on the whole the double bday celebration went fine and everyone was happy, tho anu looked lifeless after bowling. felt bad i cldn buy anythin for nick and anu. stupid situation im in..
The cake Angela bot. Stupid fags wdn lite...
The Birthday Boy and Girl...Awwwwww
Glad everyone enjoyed the day, and the birthday ppl enjoyed their gifts. Peace Out!Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Finally!
So much has happened since i last came into contact with existence, which was abt 2 weeks ago i tink, on a tuesday. tt was the day i left sunway for home, which was apparently sposed to create an eruption of a much anticipated joy. instead all it created was room for boredom and resulting irritation. this had been the situation for the past 2 weeks: no money, no net, no phone. which basically = no life. so ive been pretty much stuck at home doing nothing at all, besides playin my ps2 all day. had so many plans made wen i came back but circumstances cldn permit these plans to be carried out. yeah i really shd stop makin plans cos they jus don materialise. it sux soooooo much tt ive become more crazy than i cld ever imagine myself becoming.
So hrs and days passed by whr i jus sat idle in front my tv playin me ps2 like some video game addict, with absolutely no life whatsoever. Fuckin holidays. home had become a hell hole and very depressing. But, there was a glimmer of hope that could be the saving grace in preventing every vestige of my sanity from complete obliteration...
b4 the hols thr were plans made by JB & Nick to go up to Sitiawan to celebrate the latter's bday, and the day was set for monday,1st dec. So naturally and understandably i became excited like some deprived maniac (who can blame me) and was lookin 4wd to this trip. Nick was bloody excited as well and kept in frequent contact with me via sms...seeing i had no net. and anushya became my boredom buddy as she called me almost every nite. i guess thats the only good thing to have come out of this hols- me and anu bonding like nvr b4. while we dated i nvr really knew her. and now i do..well..kinda..i know her more..who knows...
in a short space of a few days me nick and anu became more tight and we made plans to meet up and hang and have a double bday celebration after the sitiawan trip. then came the fucking crushing blow- nick's dad suddenly din allow him to go to sitiawan, citing some reasons. on top of tt JB was ill and the rest weren't free. Great. Just fuckin great. i din know who to blame or vent my frustration at. But i felt really bad for nick, who's kinda like my younger bro. he was lookin 4wd so bloody much to spendin his bday with us and last min couldn.. and i felt damn helpless. smsed JB to try and salvage the situation but he himself was ill so din wanna bother him too much. Then Nick infd tt he cld go to kl cos his aunt was going. my mind started racing and it was decided that we would hit KL on the designated monday instead of sitiawan. since the rest werent free the Sitiawan trip cld be postponed and the KL trip brot 4wd. guess things were saved after all...
After a hectic rush of smses and plans (yes i still made em despite recent failures), there was now sth on my holiday agenda other than ps2 or pirated dvds. and so monday came. And i cant bliv as im typing this im back, of all places, in my hostel in Sunway. wth!!! i study in sunway, live in sunway and now im on holiday in sunway. im definitely retarded. fuckin bus drove so slowly i arrived an hr later then the intended time, anu picked me up along with nick daksha ashwin and her dog. she expected me to be bald but obviously im never ever gonna shave. she had no reaction tho. tad disappointed. spent the day in ac whr i lost my winning streak and had dinner at, sigh, medan. met jacob and tize bin. after dumping my stuff in my room went to bangsar to shisha and chill.kinda fun but after a while started feeling woozy and i just started stoning. so far 2 ppl have said i now look like pete wentz and another 2 say i look like jim carey. god help me..
Hope this is the turning point in the hols...
So hrs and days passed by whr i jus sat idle in front my tv playin me ps2 like some video game addict, with absolutely no life whatsoever. Fuckin holidays. home had become a hell hole and very depressing. But, there was a glimmer of hope that could be the saving grace in preventing every vestige of my sanity from complete obliteration...
b4 the hols thr were plans made by JB & Nick to go up to Sitiawan to celebrate the latter's bday, and the day was set for monday,1st dec. So naturally and understandably i became excited like some deprived maniac (who can blame me) and was lookin 4wd to this trip. Nick was bloody excited as well and kept in frequent contact with me via sms...seeing i had no net. and anushya became my boredom buddy as she called me almost every nite. i guess thats the only good thing to have come out of this hols- me and anu bonding like nvr b4. while we dated i nvr really knew her. and now i do..well..kinda..i know her more..who knows...
in a short space of a few days me nick and anu became more tight and we made plans to meet up and hang and have a double bday celebration after the sitiawan trip. then came the fucking crushing blow- nick's dad suddenly din allow him to go to sitiawan, citing some reasons. on top of tt JB was ill and the rest weren't free. Great. Just fuckin great. i din know who to blame or vent my frustration at. But i felt really bad for nick, who's kinda like my younger bro. he was lookin 4wd so bloody much to spendin his bday with us and last min couldn.. and i felt damn helpless. smsed JB to try and salvage the situation but he himself was ill so din wanna bother him too much. Then Nick infd tt he cld go to kl cos his aunt was going. my mind started racing and it was decided that we would hit KL on the designated monday instead of sitiawan. since the rest werent free the Sitiawan trip cld be postponed and the KL trip brot 4wd. guess things were saved after all...
After a hectic rush of smses and plans (yes i still made em despite recent failures), there was now sth on my holiday agenda other than ps2 or pirated dvds. and so monday came. And i cant bliv as im typing this im back, of all places, in my hostel in Sunway. wth!!! i study in sunway, live in sunway and now im on holiday in sunway. im definitely retarded. fuckin bus drove so slowly i arrived an hr later then the intended time, anu picked me up along with nick daksha ashwin and her dog. she expected me to be bald but obviously im never ever gonna shave. she had no reaction tho. tad disappointed. spent the day in ac whr i lost my winning streak and had dinner at, sigh, medan. met jacob and tize bin. after dumping my stuff in my room went to bangsar to shisha and chill.kinda fun but after a while started feeling woozy and i just started stoning. so far 2 ppl have said i now look like pete wentz and another 2 say i look like jim carey. god help me..
Hope this is the turning point in the hols...
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Fark The Dark
So this had been my day to day activity BEFORE/DURING exams: Wake up, study/have exam, eat lunch, study/have exam, eat dinner, study, sleep.....This has been my current day to day activity AFTER exams: Wake up, online/swim, lunch, pool/Pyramid/swim, dinner, online, sleep. Dinner usually consisted of MacD, BK, Subway etc. Money flows out of me pocket like water while unhelathy crap flows into me tummy. Pretty soon im gonna turn into a fat piglet.
Yes, im so lame and pathetic that i have no life. After exams was sposed to be THE moment, but sadly, nothin went my way. Ok, not nothing. There were those odd times where i relived my old life with some other frens outside my regular circle. Those nights out were damn fun but they cldnt really be enjoyed cos of triffling irritants botherin my mind
Before exams, i had plans with my roomie to just slack and go out and spend money like crazy (not on food, tho that kinda took a large proportion of me $). Just after the exams, I kinda let my crazy retarded side out and i overreacted to a small issue that blew up. Guess my emotion was elastic- large change in emotions due to small issues. Ok cut the econs crap.
This was what happened: Couple of me frens, Anu and Angela planned to have lunch and go to ac with their frens (the bunch of ppl i drank and slacked with). They invited me, and apparently not my roomie (JB).I wasnt in the mood to hang out directly after econs, and so decided to go back with JB. He then persistently asked me y i din join em and stuff and i kept sayin i had no mood to go out. I then got mad at him for askin me so many times and i so agreed to go out just to shut him up. In the process i kinda gave him attitude...which lasted the entire day.. i came back at 10 and he asked me where i went. i was like "out" and ignored him. Pretty bitchy and unfair to him. After all he's my closest fren and ppl don usually treat frens like this. I guess im really an alien who jus duzn understand ppl's emotions. (one of my close frens back in spore said this..now i tink its true)..moreover my lil outbursts in the past have always ruffled feathers and caused unnecessary tension.. when the fark will i ever learn tt i gotta stop being so petulant...
So things between me and JB were kinda left cliffhanger-ish and it sux that the hols din go according to plan and i feel really bad that he had to waste few days cooped up in his room with nothin to do..oh well i cant turn back time can i..i hope i can turn my stinky attitude.. i dunno how ppl actually tolerate me..
So this is prolly one of the darkest ever phases of my life im going thru right now and its so apt that its during the hols..the irony... at least exams are over... and then theres the prob with my ex, anushya.. yea weve kinda broken up ages ago but im kinda dumbfounded y im still affected by wat she does... reading her blog and finding out shes 'dating' this so called fren of mine with really detailed descriptions of their smses and actions was like being stabbed in my head and heart... yes, we're no longer together but reading all that crazy shit just got to me..i donno y.. and it made me feel really pathetic and worthless..and, this sounds really bad, made her look like some cheap desperado.. oh well i don wanna start talking abt her..ok i kinda already did... and then theres the 'other' issue im not really sposed to talk abt... the most serious one of the three..but that one's completely outta my hands...
2dae's my last day in this hell hole and im while im glad to leave, im not really elated to be going home...prolly due to all the probs... i cant wait to meet all me frens back in spore and jus chill like old times..tho i really hope i don bring this side of me along..cos its only gonna hurt em and ive done enuf of that to last 2 lifetimes... im really amazed at my capacity to hold so much crap...and disseminating it as well.. im not sure if i wanna continue MUFY but like all other life issues its outta my hands and not my decision to make.. i should pay a visit to the legendary Bermuda Triangle and just disappear into oblivion forever..that should settle all problems and make everyone happy, especially me..
ok i just realised this post is the most emo one ive ever written..seriously what the hell's wrong with u dude...get a life... stop wallowing in self-pity...ok now im talkin and advising myself..i need to check into rehab...
Yes, im so lame and pathetic that i have no life. After exams was sposed to be THE moment, but sadly, nothin went my way. Ok, not nothing. There were those odd times where i relived my old life with some other frens outside my regular circle. Those nights out were damn fun but they cldnt really be enjoyed cos of triffling irritants botherin my mind
Before exams, i had plans with my roomie to just slack and go out and spend money like crazy (not on food, tho that kinda took a large proportion of me $). Just after the exams, I kinda let my crazy retarded side out and i overreacted to a small issue that blew up. Guess my emotion was elastic- large change in emotions due to small issues. Ok cut the econs crap.
This was what happened: Couple of me frens, Anu and Angela planned to have lunch and go to ac with their frens (the bunch of ppl i drank and slacked with). They invited me, and apparently not my roomie (JB).I wasnt in the mood to hang out directly after econs, and so decided to go back with JB. He then persistently asked me y i din join em and stuff and i kept sayin i had no mood to go out. I then got mad at him for askin me so many times and i so agreed to go out just to shut him up. In the process i kinda gave him attitude...which lasted the entire day.. i came back at 10 and he asked me where i went. i was like "out" and ignored him. Pretty bitchy and unfair to him. After all he's my closest fren and ppl don usually treat frens like this. I guess im really an alien who jus duzn understand ppl's emotions. (one of my close frens back in spore said this..now i tink its true)..moreover my lil outbursts in the past have always ruffled feathers and caused unnecessary tension.. when the fark will i ever learn tt i gotta stop being so petulant...
So things between me and JB were kinda left cliffhanger-ish and it sux that the hols din go according to plan and i feel really bad that he had to waste few days cooped up in his room with nothin to do..oh well i cant turn back time can i..i hope i can turn my stinky attitude.. i dunno how ppl actually tolerate me..
So this is prolly one of the darkest ever phases of my life im going thru right now and its so apt that its during the hols..the irony... at least exams are over... and then theres the prob with my ex, anushya.. yea weve kinda broken up ages ago but im kinda dumbfounded y im still affected by wat she does... reading her blog and finding out shes 'dating' this so called fren of mine with really detailed descriptions of their smses and actions was like being stabbed in my head and heart... yes, we're no longer together but reading all that crazy shit just got to me..i donno y.. and it made me feel really pathetic and worthless..and, this sounds really bad, made her look like some cheap desperado.. oh well i don wanna start talking abt her..ok i kinda already did... and then theres the 'other' issue im not really sposed to talk abt... the most serious one of the three..but that one's completely outta my hands...
2dae's my last day in this hell hole and im while im glad to leave, im not really elated to be going home...prolly due to all the probs... i cant wait to meet all me frens back in spore and jus chill like old times..tho i really hope i don bring this side of me along..cos its only gonna hurt em and ive done enuf of that to last 2 lifetimes... im really amazed at my capacity to hold so much crap...and disseminating it as well.. im not sure if i wanna continue MUFY but like all other life issues its outta my hands and not my decision to make.. i should pay a visit to the legendary Bermuda Triangle and just disappear into oblivion forever..that should settle all problems and make everyone happy, especially me..
ok i just realised this post is the most emo one ive ever written..seriously what the hell's wrong with u dude...get a life... stop wallowing in self-pity...ok now im talkin and advising myself..i need to check into rehab...
Monday, November 17, 2008
Monsoon
I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to have come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
'Till the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself
I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
A half moon fading from my sight
I see your vision it's in light
But now it's gone
And left me so alone
I know I'll have to find you now
Can hear your name and don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness
Feel like home
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
'Till the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself
I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to have come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
'Till the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself
I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
A half moon fading from my sight
I see your vision it's in light
But now it's gone
And left me so alone
I know I'll have to find you now
Can hear your name and don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness
Feel like home
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
'Till the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself
I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Saturday, November 15, 2008
The Final Destination (Part 2)
The Beginning of the End. College now an empty contraption as all exams are a distant memory, students packing up and departing for their respective hometowns, leaving Sunway University College and all pertinent memories behind. Closing a new chapter in their lives while re-opening old ones. Holidays have arrived, but the holiday spirit was not all around.
In a bid to unleash his Dark Side, Hans Basil had fired the first salvo, John Bow completely blindsided and taking the beating meekly. What Hans had failed to forsee and completely did not expect himself was the aberration of the battle. John may have lost the first round, but he was not going to acquiesce, and fought back with all guns blazing. The loquacious turned taciturn John unleashed his own darkness, more intense and deep than Hans' initial fire. Yet again for Hans, in a different aspect of his life, the tables have turned, with Round Two now won by John. After the impressive display of darkness that totally stymied Hans, it seems bets are on for future rounds to be taken by John, who looks to have subjugated his roommate. Two days, two rounds of fighting, no friendly word spoken. At the rate things were going, any chance of a repair looks lost, as the final falling out seems to have turned this once close friendship into a fiendship.
Nick Ivans' last papers were mind boggling and troublesome, but like everyone else, he put it where it belonged-in the past-and set his sights on the very near future. Despite the hanging issue that had yet to be settled niggling his mind, he swept it aside for the sake of basking in the post-exam atmosphere. And so it was that Nick, Ean, Hans and John headed to play pool. And it was then where Hans spotted Sanya Dival alongside Dash Reagan, a friend. While things had been moving pretty slowly between the two, they certainly look to be heating up now. Whether it was surprise, anger or shock that he felt, one thing was certain for Hans-expect the unexpected.
With the collegiate semester over, home was the destination on every students' mind. For Sanya, Angie Flo and Jay Dic, home was near college, within the environs. For the others, it was a matter of time before they departed, leaving their short legacies behind. First on the home-bound express was John, whose reclusive nature completely fooled Hans, pulverizing him in the process and making him eat humble pie. Now that he was off the Sunway radar, things were left hanging, and during the holidays, it remains to be seen if the time apart corroborates the falling out, or if absence makes the heart grows fonder.
Night-Out 2.0 was on the cards, with the same participants as the previous event attending. Among them were Sue Anne and Hans, whose once mundane day-to-day activities have now turned full throttle. Angie would have been pleased to know that Hans had overcome one barrier to socializing with her peers. While 1.0 was fun and relatively safe, 2.0 proved to be more interesting- drunks, tipsy ladies, spit drinks and water fights. Hopefully everyone got back safely.
As the time drew near for others to leave, Hans could not have expected the deadly turn of events that would rock his life. From being a Rich Boy to Poor Boy, Poor Boy to Play Boy and Play Boy to Lonely Boy, it seems his life is one vicious cycle controlled from the egregious Lady Luck, and he was now back to Poor Boy. Further financial strains have rocked his leaking boat, one so severe that his future now lies in tatters, undetermined, oppressed by the untangible opponent vehement on seeing his life battered at every available opportunity.
What does the future hold for these students? Will Sanya and Dash hold out and get together? Will John and Hans put aside their triffling squabbles for the sake of their friendship, or let them ruin it? Has the late nights got Sue hooked for more? With holidays in season, time will tell if she lets loose. What about Jay and Angie? Will they spend all their time at home? Or attempt to spice up their holidays? As for Hans, it seems he'll be leaving one world for another, one where his past becomes his present. Will the sparks between him and Erin Faroe July reignite? One thing is certain- Hans may be leaving for his old world, but the dark secret he's carrying, probably the darkest ever, one that will threaten his social existence if ever exposed or discovered, will travel along with him. He should hold it tightly, and pray Lady Luck never discovers it.
1 semester, 5 months, 136 days, hook-ups, break-ups, fights, lies and secrets..... What happens next...
In a bid to unleash his Dark Side, Hans Basil had fired the first salvo, John Bow completely blindsided and taking the beating meekly. What Hans had failed to forsee and completely did not expect himself was the aberration of the battle. John may have lost the first round, but he was not going to acquiesce, and fought back with all guns blazing. The loquacious turned taciturn John unleashed his own darkness, more intense and deep than Hans' initial fire. Yet again for Hans, in a different aspect of his life, the tables have turned, with Round Two now won by John. After the impressive display of darkness that totally stymied Hans, it seems bets are on for future rounds to be taken by John, who looks to have subjugated his roommate. Two days, two rounds of fighting, no friendly word spoken. At the rate things were going, any chance of a repair looks lost, as the final falling out seems to have turned this once close friendship into a fiendship.
Nick Ivans' last papers were mind boggling and troublesome, but like everyone else, he put it where it belonged-in the past-and set his sights on the very near future. Despite the hanging issue that had yet to be settled niggling his mind, he swept it aside for the sake of basking in the post-exam atmosphere. And so it was that Nick, Ean, Hans and John headed to play pool. And it was then where Hans spotted Sanya Dival alongside Dash Reagan, a friend. While things had been moving pretty slowly between the two, they certainly look to be heating up now. Whether it was surprise, anger or shock that he felt, one thing was certain for Hans-expect the unexpected.
With the collegiate semester over, home was the destination on every students' mind. For Sanya, Angie Flo and Jay Dic, home was near college, within the environs. For the others, it was a matter of time before they departed, leaving their short legacies behind. First on the home-bound express was John, whose reclusive nature completely fooled Hans, pulverizing him in the process and making him eat humble pie. Now that he was off the Sunway radar, things were left hanging, and during the holidays, it remains to be seen if the time apart corroborates the falling out, or if absence makes the heart grows fonder.
Night-Out 2.0 was on the cards, with the same participants as the previous event attending. Among them were Sue Anne and Hans, whose once mundane day-to-day activities have now turned full throttle. Angie would have been pleased to know that Hans had overcome one barrier to socializing with her peers. While 1.0 was fun and relatively safe, 2.0 proved to be more interesting- drunks, tipsy ladies, spit drinks and water fights. Hopefully everyone got back safely.
As the time drew near for others to leave, Hans could not have expected the deadly turn of events that would rock his life. From being a Rich Boy to Poor Boy, Poor Boy to Play Boy and Play Boy to Lonely Boy, it seems his life is one vicious cycle controlled from the egregious Lady Luck, and he was now back to Poor Boy. Further financial strains have rocked his leaking boat, one so severe that his future now lies in tatters, undetermined, oppressed by the untangible opponent vehement on seeing his life battered at every available opportunity.
What does the future hold for these students? Will Sanya and Dash hold out and get together? Will John and Hans put aside their triffling squabbles for the sake of their friendship, or let them ruin it? Has the late nights got Sue hooked for more? With holidays in season, time will tell if she lets loose. What about Jay and Angie? Will they spend all their time at home? Or attempt to spice up their holidays? As for Hans, it seems he'll be leaving one world for another, one where his past becomes his present. Will the sparks between him and Erin Faroe July reignite? One thing is certain- Hans may be leaving for his old world, but the dark secret he's carrying, probably the darkest ever, one that will threaten his social existence if ever exposed or discovered, will travel along with him. He should hold it tightly, and pray Lady Luck never discovers it.
1 semester, 5 months, 136 days, hook-ups, break-ups, fights, lies and secrets..... What happens next...
The Final Destination (Part 1)
For most, the moment had arrived- The end of Finals, that one single moment where brains cease to function logically, the craving to inundate one's day with crazy activities, to paint the town red. Every vestige of emotion replete with euphoria, with all the time to party, club and enjoy, without studies being a priority. But yet, even with joy in the air and stress obliterated from everyone's vocabulary, Hans Basil and John Bow managed to pick a fight. How bromantic and completely incomprehensible.
The minute Miss Pat Riba announced that all students could vacate the Multi-Purpose Hall, silent cheer erupted from everyone's hearts. Despite the Economics paper being relatively tough, no one seemed to let it affect them. Why should they, with it being over. There was no point crying over spilt milk, or in this case, spilt ink. As such, everyone's heads were furiously planning the day's activity. Included in the list was Hans, who had plans made few days back with John to spend the cash and have a bash. But is seems Hans had still not learnt that no plans he makes are ever gonna make the cut. The only thing that would, apparently, was his dark side.
Angie Flo's entourage, which consisted of Sanya Dival, Shayne, Aron and several others, had planned for lunch before hitting town. While Sue Anne joined them, Hans declined, citing lame excuses. As for John, he didn't accept, nor did he he decline. He wasn't even invited.And so the activity of the day on Hans' and John's itinerary? Slacking in the hostel. Irrefutably banal. But John changed that, not for himself, but for Hans, stepping on more than the latter's toes in the process. And therein lied the cause of the fight.
And so Hans now had plans with Sanya, Shayne and Aron to play pool. Not before Hans had to deflect rumours, yet again, about his relationship status with Sue. This time, the rumours were more substantial. Where there is smoke there is fire, but for the millionth time, Hans denied it. Unknown to him though, Sue herself confirmed it. Not just a rumour anymore? Things certainly seem to be heading sinuously as the end approaches.
As Sue immersed herself with Angie's posse sans Angie herself, Hans immersed himself with one of his oldest and closest friends-alcohol. Along with Sanya, Shayne and Aron, Hans downed a bottle, ancient feelings of the past awaken and invigorated. While Hans saw first hand how easily Sanya could get intoxicated, there was no lecture from his side this time round, probably 'cos he was in the same game as well. Pot calling the kettle black? While Hans had gotten in touch with his unpleasant side recently, the supposed transition failed to materialise. With alcohol in hand, it seems Hans was turning, not into Dark Boy, but Drunk Boy.
Sanya, drunk, and Hans, still stable, paid an unwanted visit to Sunway Pyramid for lunch, where they were spotted holding hands and behaving just like old times, albeit more tipsy. While it was probably due to the intoxication, they say a drunk never lies. And the invectives that flowed from Sanya's mouth pertaining to a subject close to Hans were slurry, but meant nontheless. Now that Sanya had let out her thoughts to Hans, it caused a slight chain reaction, with Hans set on unleashing his Dark Side, but aimed only at one particular victim. The earlier fight had lit the fire; Sanya's perspective had fanned the flames.
Night, where all activities take place, and the non-happening ones take a back seat. One particular activity was the bacchanal in Shayne's room, where vodka and cards took centrestage, though only for a while as the alcohol got consumed faster than expected. It is known that once the drinks finish, so does the fun. More plans were then made to bring the fun outside. Hopefully there were no empty stomachs.
And while it certainly was dark outside, it was even darker in Hans' room, where he displayed the surface of his darkness to John. Round One when to Hans, but that was only because John was caught offguard.
Sanya, Angie and Jay Dic home and restricted, Nick, one of the unfortunate students still in the clutches of exams, and John, uninvited to any event, all enslaved in their individual world of solitude and solace where the defeaning roar of silence could drive anyone crazy. Outside, in the dying world, Hans, Sue and their new-found pals partied till sunlight broke the night sky, bringing light into the dark world.
The minute Miss Pat Riba announced that all students could vacate the Multi-Purpose Hall, silent cheer erupted from everyone's hearts. Despite the Economics paper being relatively tough, no one seemed to let it affect them. Why should they, with it being over. There was no point crying over spilt milk, or in this case, spilt ink. As such, everyone's heads were furiously planning the day's activity. Included in the list was Hans, who had plans made few days back with John to spend the cash and have a bash. But is seems Hans had still not learnt that no plans he makes are ever gonna make the cut. The only thing that would, apparently, was his dark side.
Angie Flo's entourage, which consisted of Sanya Dival, Shayne, Aron and several others, had planned for lunch before hitting town. While Sue Anne joined them, Hans declined, citing lame excuses. As for John, he didn't accept, nor did he he decline. He wasn't even invited.And so the activity of the day on Hans' and John's itinerary? Slacking in the hostel. Irrefutably banal. But John changed that, not for himself, but for Hans, stepping on more than the latter's toes in the process. And therein lied the cause of the fight.
And so Hans now had plans with Sanya, Shayne and Aron to play pool. Not before Hans had to deflect rumours, yet again, about his relationship status with Sue. This time, the rumours were more substantial. Where there is smoke there is fire, but for the millionth time, Hans denied it. Unknown to him though, Sue herself confirmed it. Not just a rumour anymore? Things certainly seem to be heading sinuously as the end approaches.
As Sue immersed herself with Angie's posse sans Angie herself, Hans immersed himself with one of his oldest and closest friends-alcohol. Along with Sanya, Shayne and Aron, Hans downed a bottle, ancient feelings of the past awaken and invigorated. While Hans saw first hand how easily Sanya could get intoxicated, there was no lecture from his side this time round, probably 'cos he was in the same game as well. Pot calling the kettle black? While Hans had gotten in touch with his unpleasant side recently, the supposed transition failed to materialise. With alcohol in hand, it seems Hans was turning, not into Dark Boy, but Drunk Boy.
Sanya, drunk, and Hans, still stable, paid an unwanted visit to Sunway Pyramid for lunch, where they were spotted holding hands and behaving just like old times, albeit more tipsy. While it was probably due to the intoxication, they say a drunk never lies. And the invectives that flowed from Sanya's mouth pertaining to a subject close to Hans were slurry, but meant nontheless. Now that Sanya had let out her thoughts to Hans, it caused a slight chain reaction, with Hans set on unleashing his Dark Side, but aimed only at one particular victim. The earlier fight had lit the fire; Sanya's perspective had fanned the flames.
Night, where all activities take place, and the non-happening ones take a back seat. One particular activity was the bacchanal in Shayne's room, where vodka and cards took centrestage, though only for a while as the alcohol got consumed faster than expected. It is known that once the drinks finish, so does the fun. More plans were then made to bring the fun outside. Hopefully there were no empty stomachs.
And while it certainly was dark outside, it was even darker in Hans' room, where he displayed the surface of his darkness to John. Round One when to Hans, but that was only because John was caught offguard.
Sanya, Angie and Jay Dic home and restricted, Nick, one of the unfortunate students still in the clutches of exams, and John, uninvited to any event, all enslaved in their individual world of solitude and solace where the defeaning roar of silence could drive anyone crazy. Outside, in the dying world, Hans, Sue and their new-found pals partied till sunlight broke the night sky, bringing light into the dark world.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
The Rehab
Day 1 of the unofficial Exam Break: Plans for Sue Anne and John Bow to return home, Nick Ivans and Sanya Dival to sort out their lives and Angie Flo and Hans Basil to focus on their studies. Guess only 4 of the 6 had their plans worked out.
After finishing his last minute packing, John invited Hans to breakfast. With his sister. Hans, despite his ravenous stomach screaming at him to accept the invitation, declined. He had enough of playing a dumbpost among the spoken alien language. Moreover, this wasn't a breakfast with friends but with his roommate's sister. That was definitely more weird. John knew that, but somehow managed to convince Hans to accompany him, and so he did. All in all, the breakfast was not all that bad. Considering.
With John and his sister departing Sunway for home, Hans had the room to himself, yet again. it wasn't as fun as he thought it would be, as boredom soon crept in. While his study plan stuck on his wall stated "Econs Unit 1" for work needed to be done for the day, he ignored it and ruminated for other possibilities. In the end, only one word came to mind-pool. With Nick and Ean temporarily free from the clutches of exams, a pool date was set.
While the trio enjoyed the pool, they soon grew bored of it and opted to have lunch at the now mundane Sunway Pyramid. There, Hans bumped into Sue Anne, albeit metaphorically, who was running errands for her mother. Both had only just complained the day before how banal the mall had become, yet both were there again the very next day. After a quick chat, both went their seperate ways. This time literally. It seems 'Boredom' was the dish of the day on Hans' menu.
Sanya Dival's day wasn't as boring or insignificant as Hans'. It started with her Chemistry paper, and culminated in a series of trips around town with her friends. Amidst all the fun and joy, Sanya's will to change remained as vehement as when she first made it, and she was determined not to disappoint Angie and more importantly, herself, again. Sanya seemed to making baby steps on the path to recovery. Would these same steps lead her back to regaining her throne in Sunway University College?
Apparently, Nick Ivans' luck had run out. Abruptly, and without warning. While he had enjoyed a healthy dose of luck the past week, it was all taken back in one swift motion. He had tried his hardest at crossing the bridge to recieve his rewards he so desperately coveted, but apparently the reward itself was flawed, probably a cruel trick Lady Luck had intended for all along. Or was it punishment for Nick's apparent overconfidence?
Day 2 of the unofficial Exam Break: Sue Anne and John Bow back at home and absent from the Sunway scene; Angie Flo and Hans Basil continue their struggle to study; Nick Ivans nursing a cracking life and Sanya Dival making remarkable progress in rediscovering her old self.
Perhaps the mantra "two heads are better than one" was the impetus behind Hans' decision to study Economics with Angie in the college library. Unfortunately, just like all his past decisions, it was a bad one, as he not only distracted himself from actual studying but also interrupted Angie, halting the momentum she had gained. With both friends struggling to study, they decided to visit, for the millionth time, Sunway Pyramid for lunch and gift-shopping for a friend. And they were accompanied by Sanya Dival and Jim A.D.. The four discovered that lunch was a longer affair than they had envisaged and in the end, the outing pushed past the hour mark which Hans and Angie had allocated. Hans should have realised by now that no plan he makes are ever going to materialise.
Back in college, Angie's mind was tormented by demons she never had before. While her life in college had been relatively care-free the past few weeks, it was the complete opposite now. The struggles to study bit at her thoughts while her friendship with Sanya was taking on a new twist. Hans could physically see the effects of Angie's demons, but he knew that he could not do anything, as he had offered all possible help he could. How would Bubbly Girl turned Troubled Girl cope with the new problems?
Jay Dic's life was unfortunately as bland as bread- all day at home studying, watching cartoons as a form of relaxation or a rare outing with his family. On Saturday night however, Jay was the epitome of joy as he recieved an invitation from Alicia to attend a surprise party for her boyfriend Shayne. Of course, Jay accepted the invite, and the huge smile plastered on his face throughout the party more or less told the story. Finally he had something interesting to do on a Saturday night.
At the same party, Sanya and Jim, along with Aron, his younger brother and several others, were present. While the party was a blast, Sanya had some blasting to do as she ended up having cake smeared in her hair. But in the spirit of joy and celebration, she completely remained cool and had a laugh over it, as her spirits, and not mind, remained high. After the party, she sent Jim home, and ran into Hans, figuratively. Would her joy remain or would it erode?Thankfully, it prevailed.
Shayne's birthday celebrations were not over it seemed, as Sanya and Hans called him out for a round of pool. While Shayne and Sanya took turns showcasing their individual skills, Hans sat in the corner a forlorn figure, unable to fathom why he could never improve. Hans should learn quickly he ought not to dwell on the unimportant, and focus on what was.
For the second time, Sanya played the role of a driver as she sent the birthday boy and her ex back. While Shayne trooped back to his hostel, Hans and Sanya had a rare heart to heart conversation in her car. Both cleared several sensitive issues and it seemed they had started a new chapter in their messy book. While the last time the pair chatted in the car culminated in a heavy making out session, this time, history did not repeat itself. What did though was the need for Hans to start being introspective. Now, Hans looks like the one in need of a behavioural change. How the tables have turned.
After finishing his last minute packing, John invited Hans to breakfast. With his sister. Hans, despite his ravenous stomach screaming at him to accept the invitation, declined. He had enough of playing a dumbpost among the spoken alien language. Moreover, this wasn't a breakfast with friends but with his roommate's sister. That was definitely more weird. John knew that, but somehow managed to convince Hans to accompany him, and so he did. All in all, the breakfast was not all that bad. Considering.
With John and his sister departing Sunway for home, Hans had the room to himself, yet again. it wasn't as fun as he thought it would be, as boredom soon crept in. While his study plan stuck on his wall stated "Econs Unit 1" for work needed to be done for the day, he ignored it and ruminated for other possibilities. In the end, only one word came to mind-pool. With Nick and Ean temporarily free from the clutches of exams, a pool date was set.
While the trio enjoyed the pool, they soon grew bored of it and opted to have lunch at the now mundane Sunway Pyramid. There, Hans bumped into Sue Anne, albeit metaphorically, who was running errands for her mother. Both had only just complained the day before how banal the mall had become, yet both were there again the very next day. After a quick chat, both went their seperate ways. This time literally. It seems 'Boredom' was the dish of the day on Hans' menu.
Sanya Dival's day wasn't as boring or insignificant as Hans'. It started with her Chemistry paper, and culminated in a series of trips around town with her friends. Amidst all the fun and joy, Sanya's will to change remained as vehement as when she first made it, and she was determined not to disappoint Angie and more importantly, herself, again. Sanya seemed to making baby steps on the path to recovery. Would these same steps lead her back to regaining her throne in Sunway University College?
Apparently, Nick Ivans' luck had run out. Abruptly, and without warning. While he had enjoyed a healthy dose of luck the past week, it was all taken back in one swift motion. He had tried his hardest at crossing the bridge to recieve his rewards he so desperately coveted, but apparently the reward itself was flawed, probably a cruel trick Lady Luck had intended for all along. Or was it punishment for Nick's apparent overconfidence?
Day 2 of the unofficial Exam Break: Sue Anne and John Bow back at home and absent from the Sunway scene; Angie Flo and Hans Basil continue their struggle to study; Nick Ivans nursing a cracking life and Sanya Dival making remarkable progress in rediscovering her old self.
Perhaps the mantra "two heads are better than one" was the impetus behind Hans' decision to study Economics with Angie in the college library. Unfortunately, just like all his past decisions, it was a bad one, as he not only distracted himself from actual studying but also interrupted Angie, halting the momentum she had gained. With both friends struggling to study, they decided to visit, for the millionth time, Sunway Pyramid for lunch and gift-shopping for a friend. And they were accompanied by Sanya Dival and Jim A.D.. The four discovered that lunch was a longer affair than they had envisaged and in the end, the outing pushed past the hour mark which Hans and Angie had allocated. Hans should have realised by now that no plan he makes are ever going to materialise.
Back in college, Angie's mind was tormented by demons she never had before. While her life in college had been relatively care-free the past few weeks, it was the complete opposite now. The struggles to study bit at her thoughts while her friendship with Sanya was taking on a new twist. Hans could physically see the effects of Angie's demons, but he knew that he could not do anything, as he had offered all possible help he could. How would Bubbly Girl turned Troubled Girl cope with the new problems?
Jay Dic's life was unfortunately as bland as bread- all day at home studying, watching cartoons as a form of relaxation or a rare outing with his family. On Saturday night however, Jay was the epitome of joy as he recieved an invitation from Alicia to attend a surprise party for her boyfriend Shayne. Of course, Jay accepted the invite, and the huge smile plastered on his face throughout the party more or less told the story. Finally he had something interesting to do on a Saturday night.
At the same party, Sanya and Jim, along with Aron, his younger brother and several others, were present. While the party was a blast, Sanya had some blasting to do as she ended up having cake smeared in her hair. But in the spirit of joy and celebration, she completely remained cool and had a laugh over it, as her spirits, and not mind, remained high. After the party, she sent Jim home, and ran into Hans, figuratively. Would her joy remain or would it erode?Thankfully, it prevailed.
Shayne's birthday celebrations were not over it seemed, as Sanya and Hans called him out for a round of pool. While Shayne and Sanya took turns showcasing their individual skills, Hans sat in the corner a forlorn figure, unable to fathom why he could never improve. Hans should learn quickly he ought not to dwell on the unimportant, and focus on what was.
For the second time, Sanya played the role of a driver as she sent the birthday boy and her ex back. While Shayne trooped back to his hostel, Hans and Sanya had a rare heart to heart conversation in her car. Both cleared several sensitive issues and it seemed they had started a new chapter in their messy book. While the last time the pair chatted in the car culminated in a heavy making out session, this time, history did not repeat itself. What did though was the need for Hans to start being introspective. Now, Hans looks like the one in need of a behavioural change. How the tables have turned.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Disclaimer
Events in these posts may or may not be linked to real life, and if they are, they may be exacerbated. There was no intention for these posts to be misconstrued. Apologies for inconveniences caused.
Friday, November 7, 2008
The Hyperbole
It would be a severe understatement to say that Hans Basil had been on a run of misfortune of late. His life was a dartboard, with every inch of the surface emblazoned with the words 'bad luck'. And who better to be the dart thrower than the cynical Lady Luck herself. And on the morning of the much-abhorred Accounts exam, Hans' bad luck culminated with the non-assignment of his seating desk. Well, it seems his past problem of being blacklisted and subsequent barring from exams may not have been completely cleared after all. Thankfully, he didn't press the panic button, and let nous prevail.
Irony was the word of the morning, with the Accounts paper being surprisingly less tough than what was expected. Hans had time to triple check his answers, Sue Anne could not forget Econs and learnt she could not apply Economic concepts in Accounts and John Bow felt the paper was relatively easier than past tests he had sat for. Irony. Save for Jay Dic, who was starting to transform into a more cloying version of himself. As if the bold remark the day before was not conceited enough, he went one step further by proclaiming the Accounts paper was easy. Everyone knows Jay prides himself on being the Account savant, but surely he remembered being beaten on several occasions. Hopefully history won't repeat itself, or there'll be more than just sweat on his face.
Hans, Sue and Angie Flo had made plans the night before to have a mini celebration after the Accounts paper to ease some steam and enjoy the welcomed 5-day break until the next paper. John planned to catch up with his sister while Sanya Dival's itinerary stated "Bad Girl Go Good" with 'stay out of trouble' in fine print below. As for Jay Dic, his was as interesting as going to college daily- the banal trip back home. No extraordinary outing on his list. Then again, what was extraordinary for him was the norm for the civilised society.
Hans' small outing soon overblew into a massive preponderance vacation to Sunway Pyramid, as Angie's other friends invited him and Sue to watch a movie with them, which they duly obliged. Things were moving pretty smoothly, but with Hans Basil, it's a tacit fact that no good thing lasts even for one day. Somehow, he failed to realise that Sanya's itinerary stated "Sunway Pyramid" as well, and as fate intervened, the two were strung together.
Ever since Sanya's propensity to pernicious acts, Hans had been trying to distance himself from her. He had felt confused not only at her behavioural change but at his too, a direct result of hers. One moment he was yearning for her, the next he could not stand her. Needless to say, his current one was that of mild irritation, as he could no longer figure out how to be that friend she so desperately needed. While Angie struggled putting in effort to save Sanya and their friendship, Hans had given up hope. And he impetuously let his feelings known. A little prudence would have been better, for it would have saved the resulting argument that occured later that night.
Hans and John enjoyed a rare night of bonding after the latter returned with his own bonding with his sister. Their bonding was done via pool, one activity both enjoyed more than almost anything. Well, as previously stated, nothing good lasts very long in Hans' life, as he soon recieved accusatory messages from Sanya amidst the pool game. It seemed Hans' life was doomed, a one way street straight to destruction with one unpalatable impasse after another.
Sanya was trying her hardest to change, and she needed her friends around her. Sadly for her, her best friend was on the verge of giving up while her ex had revoked his offer of support. To top it off, he did not remain a neutral figure in her life, but one who displayed indifference. These probably caused her to launch her angry messages that interrupted Hans' bonding session with John, but it was probably worthwhile, as Hans called her after the game of pool to give him a piece of his mind. Ironically, it appeared to help Sanya, as she vowed to get back on track. Whether the track she got on leads to the return of her old self or deeper into the dark remains to be seen.
Irony was the word of the morning, with the Accounts paper being surprisingly less tough than what was expected. Hans had time to triple check his answers, Sue Anne could not forget Econs and learnt she could not apply Economic concepts in Accounts and John Bow felt the paper was relatively easier than past tests he had sat for. Irony. Save for Jay Dic, who was starting to transform into a more cloying version of himself. As if the bold remark the day before was not conceited enough, he went one step further by proclaiming the Accounts paper was easy. Everyone knows Jay prides himself on being the Account savant, but surely he remembered being beaten on several occasions. Hopefully history won't repeat itself, or there'll be more than just sweat on his face.
Hans, Sue and Angie Flo had made plans the night before to have a mini celebration after the Accounts paper to ease some steam and enjoy the welcomed 5-day break until the next paper. John planned to catch up with his sister while Sanya Dival's itinerary stated "Bad Girl Go Good" with 'stay out of trouble' in fine print below. As for Jay Dic, his was as interesting as going to college daily- the banal trip back home. No extraordinary outing on his list. Then again, what was extraordinary for him was the norm for the civilised society.
Hans' small outing soon overblew into a massive preponderance vacation to Sunway Pyramid, as Angie's other friends invited him and Sue to watch a movie with them, which they duly obliged. Things were moving pretty smoothly, but with Hans Basil, it's a tacit fact that no good thing lasts even for one day. Somehow, he failed to realise that Sanya's itinerary stated "Sunway Pyramid" as well, and as fate intervened, the two were strung together.
Ever since Sanya's propensity to pernicious acts, Hans had been trying to distance himself from her. He had felt confused not only at her behavioural change but at his too, a direct result of hers. One moment he was yearning for her, the next he could not stand her. Needless to say, his current one was that of mild irritation, as he could no longer figure out how to be that friend she so desperately needed. While Angie struggled putting in effort to save Sanya and their friendship, Hans had given up hope. And he impetuously let his feelings known. A little prudence would have been better, for it would have saved the resulting argument that occured later that night.
Hans and John enjoyed a rare night of bonding after the latter returned with his own bonding with his sister. Their bonding was done via pool, one activity both enjoyed more than almost anything. Well, as previously stated, nothing good lasts very long in Hans' life, as he soon recieved accusatory messages from Sanya amidst the pool game. It seemed Hans' life was doomed, a one way street straight to destruction with one unpalatable impasse after another.
Sanya was trying her hardest to change, and she needed her friends around her. Sadly for her, her best friend was on the verge of giving up while her ex had revoked his offer of support. To top it off, he did not remain a neutral figure in her life, but one who displayed indifference. These probably caused her to launch her angry messages that interrupted Hans' bonding session with John, but it was probably worthwhile, as Hans called her after the game of pool to give him a piece of his mind. Ironically, it appeared to help Sanya, as she vowed to get back on track. Whether the track she got on leads to the return of her old self or deeper into the dark remains to be seen.
The Re-Cycle
Sunlight has usually been synonymous with cheer and an ethereal form of optimism, albeit the heat, while rain is usually interpreted as a symbol of gloom and depression. While it was sunny on the day of the English Final, rained poured down relentlessly on the morning of the Mathematics Paper. Will the symbolism of rain translate to the Math Paper?
Appreantly so, as Hans Basil discovered. Carelessness seems to be an innate trait in him that just refuses to disappear. Hans had lost a whopping total of 28% in 3 tests due to careless errors, and he vowed never to repeat the dreaded trend ever again. Unfortunately, his mind was not aligned with his willpower. And after the exam ended, he realised he may have lost 6% due to careless mistakes again. Guess it's unequivocal that Hans would never ever be in a propitious situation in Math, with carelessness looking set to torment his academic life.
John Bow and Sue Anne left the exam hall with similar feelings as Hans, both unsatisfied with the Math paper, disconcerted with their respective performances. While both dissimulated their emotions and Hans vented his frustrations, Jay Dic exclaimed that the least he could get was 90%, much to the chagrin of the others around him. Jay Dic should have thought about the ramifications of making such a remark. If he fails to achieve what he had presumptuously announced, hopefully he finds a bag big enough to hide his equally big head.
John, Nick Ivans, Hans, Leroy, Ean and Rodger ventured into part 2 of their 'House-Hunting' project, but like the previous phase, they failed to achieve satisfaction from the results. With all hope truly lost and none able to assent to a solid decision, it seems the only way in was out for each individual. And with John having made an agreement with an old friend few months back, it seems that the triumvirate of John, Nick and Hans look certainly set to part.
It had been previously stated that Sanya Dival and Angie Flo had been the best of friends, portraying every visible characteristic of one. Whether they were something more was anyone's guess. While their friendship had withstood every possible tribulation, even the threat of Hans Basil, neither had the prescience of anticipating what would imperil their supposedly impermeable friendship.
For a few days now, Sanya Dival had slowly been evolving, so slowly that the nuances in character was inconspicuous to anyone,even Angie. Initially struggling with the inevitable truth of going through college single, she had recieved calming advice from Hans, of all people, that friends were always there for her and that she did not need to be attached to feel loved or important. Sanya accepted the belief, but discarded it faster than she had imagined, debilitated by her single status. Whether the break up with Hans being the catalyst for this metamorphosis was verifiable or not was impertinent, as Sanya was on a downward spiral. Angie had tried her hardest at preventing the rate of change in Sanya's attitude, but to no avail. And it seems the latest episode in the "Depreciation of Sanya Dival" was the last straw for Angie.
Drinking in the day was usually not the decorum in society, and in some areas simply not acceptable. Yet this was exactly what Sanya and her close friend Jim A. D. did after their Math exam, enjoying one bottle of beer too many. Both returned to college drunk, though Sanya was a little more sober. But that did not alter the fact that the activity she and Jim had engaged in was one that was not espoused by Hans or Angie. While Hans was mostly shocked at seeing the 'new' Sanya, Angie was thoroughly disappointed and emotionally cut, admitting to Hans that she could no longer handle the change her in best friend, that she had given it her best in playing the obligatory confidante role requisite of a best friend. Hans' response was one of advice, but whether Angie would take it was anyone's guess. After all, the advice was not exactly friendly. It seems the cause of initial destruction of Angie's and Sanya's friendship was not a boy, as first feared, but Sanya herself. Who would have thought.
Hans Basil, though no longer attached with Sanya, still felt a modicum of responsibility for his ex's well-being, and as a favour for Angie, attempted at putting some perspective into her. Sanya, despite her haziness, received Hans' words and felt contrite at her behaviour, but could not cite any possible reasons for her change in behaviour when pressed by Hans. He left it at that and soon departed back to his hostel, where John was struggling with his studies and his fever. With Accounts on the Exam menu the next day, clairvoyance was in the air as both Hans and John could envisage more struggles in the exam hall. With Hans suffocated by his careless mistakes, it seemed he had given up studying for the exam. His reason? It's better to make mistakes due to lack of knowledge than to make careless mistakes after hard work. Hope it serves him well.
If Sunlight was the equivalent of cheer, Nick Ivans would definitely be sunburnt as he seems just about the only person in Sunway to be replete with mirth, with apparently nothing being able to dent his mood. The same can't be said for Hans though, as more rainy days lie ahead. And Angie's disturbing secret about Kia Jens more or less corroborated that fact. Just how much pain can one body and mind take?
Appreantly so, as Hans Basil discovered. Carelessness seems to be an innate trait in him that just refuses to disappear. Hans had lost a whopping total of 28% in 3 tests due to careless errors, and he vowed never to repeat the dreaded trend ever again. Unfortunately, his mind was not aligned with his willpower. And after the exam ended, he realised he may have lost 6% due to careless mistakes again. Guess it's unequivocal that Hans would never ever be in a propitious situation in Math, with carelessness looking set to torment his academic life.
John Bow and Sue Anne left the exam hall with similar feelings as Hans, both unsatisfied with the Math paper, disconcerted with their respective performances. While both dissimulated their emotions and Hans vented his frustrations, Jay Dic exclaimed that the least he could get was 90%, much to the chagrin of the others around him. Jay Dic should have thought about the ramifications of making such a remark. If he fails to achieve what he had presumptuously announced, hopefully he finds a bag big enough to hide his equally big head.
John, Nick Ivans, Hans, Leroy, Ean and Rodger ventured into part 2 of their 'House-Hunting' project, but like the previous phase, they failed to achieve satisfaction from the results. With all hope truly lost and none able to assent to a solid decision, it seems the only way in was out for each individual. And with John having made an agreement with an old friend few months back, it seems that the triumvirate of John, Nick and Hans look certainly set to part.
It had been previously stated that Sanya Dival and Angie Flo had been the best of friends, portraying every visible characteristic of one. Whether they were something more was anyone's guess. While their friendship had withstood every possible tribulation, even the threat of Hans Basil, neither had the prescience of anticipating what would imperil their supposedly impermeable friendship.
For a few days now, Sanya Dival had slowly been evolving, so slowly that the nuances in character was inconspicuous to anyone,even Angie. Initially struggling with the inevitable truth of going through college single, she had recieved calming advice from Hans, of all people, that friends were always there for her and that she did not need to be attached to feel loved or important. Sanya accepted the belief, but discarded it faster than she had imagined, debilitated by her single status. Whether the break up with Hans being the catalyst for this metamorphosis was verifiable or not was impertinent, as Sanya was on a downward spiral. Angie had tried her hardest at preventing the rate of change in Sanya's attitude, but to no avail. And it seems the latest episode in the "Depreciation of Sanya Dival" was the last straw for Angie.
Drinking in the day was usually not the decorum in society, and in some areas simply not acceptable. Yet this was exactly what Sanya and her close friend Jim A. D. did after their Math exam, enjoying one bottle of beer too many. Both returned to college drunk, though Sanya was a little more sober. But that did not alter the fact that the activity she and Jim had engaged in was one that was not espoused by Hans or Angie. While Hans was mostly shocked at seeing the 'new' Sanya, Angie was thoroughly disappointed and emotionally cut, admitting to Hans that she could no longer handle the change her in best friend, that she had given it her best in playing the obligatory confidante role requisite of a best friend. Hans' response was one of advice, but whether Angie would take it was anyone's guess. After all, the advice was not exactly friendly. It seems the cause of initial destruction of Angie's and Sanya's friendship was not a boy, as first feared, but Sanya herself. Who would have thought.
Hans Basil, though no longer attached with Sanya, still felt a modicum of responsibility for his ex's well-being, and as a favour for Angie, attempted at putting some perspective into her. Sanya, despite her haziness, received Hans' words and felt contrite at her behaviour, but could not cite any possible reasons for her change in behaviour when pressed by Hans. He left it at that and soon departed back to his hostel, where John was struggling with his studies and his fever. With Accounts on the Exam menu the next day, clairvoyance was in the air as both Hans and John could envisage more struggles in the exam hall. With Hans suffocated by his careless mistakes, it seemed he had given up studying for the exam. His reason? It's better to make mistakes due to lack of knowledge than to make careless mistakes after hard work. Hope it serves him well.
If Sunlight was the equivalent of cheer, Nick Ivans would definitely be sunburnt as he seems just about the only person in Sunway to be replete with mirth, with apparently nothing being able to dent his mood. The same can't be said for Hans though, as more rainy days lie ahead. And Angie's disturbing secret about Kia Jens more or less corroborated that fact. Just how much pain can one body and mind take?
The Aftermath
Despite the thousand apologies and explanations offered by Hans Basil to his closest friend and roommate John Bow over the misunderstood "joke" the night before, the Silent Killer was having none of it, discreetly despising the perpetual disparaging of the 'sensitive topic' while a conglomeration of sorrow and anger was simmering just beneath the surface. The duo had a silent lunch, with the past event still playing on their minds. The final nail in the coffin?
Joker turned Emo Boy Nick Ivans was going through a very tricky phase, one so delicate and slippery that one wrong move could plunge him into the depths of the icy ocean and freeze more than just his heart.But should he manage to cross this 'bridge' successfully, the rewards awaiting him on the other side were great, too great in fact for failure to be an option. At the rate things were going for Nick, chances are he'd get across without much trouble, and recieve his rewards. Hopefully, he understands that it's not in the bag yet, and he still has to avoid slipping and tripping. Will he get overconfident of success, and be rewarded with failure instead?
The paucity of activity due to the advent of Finals lead to Sue Anne cooping up in the library to study as she discovered one too many times that uncooperative house and roommates caused her hostel to be an unsuitable environment to study. While cramming Math formulae in her head, she recieved a message from Hans inviting her to dinner. For once in a long time, she accepted his offer, not because she felt bad at rejecting him so many times, but because she was genuinely hungry. And so it led to Hans, John and Sue having a relatively quiet dinner, with sparse conversation strewn in between consumption of food. Not one of the three able to hold a proper conversation with the others? Is this a sign of things to come for the trio?
After the awkward dinner, Sue returned to her self-described "Isolated Island of Distraction" while Hans and John trooped back to their hostel, determined to shove last minute notes into their minds which were already replete with the apropos of Math. Amidst the studying, John felt a sudden urge to play with Hans' lighter, and started burning pieces of paper, much to his delight, while Hans looked on amused. A sign of truce?Anyway, John should be careful. Playing with fire might end up with him getting burnt. Who knew that the effects would be so immediate.Shortly after playing with fire, John felt a burning sensation coursing through his veins. Unable to shake it off, he realised he was contracting a fever. With exams the next day, will the fever cause him to lose focus? It seems the lesson for playing with fire was taught much sooner than expected. Hopefully John learnt it.
While Sue Anne could definitely claim the title of the luckiest girl in Sunway, Lady Luck looked to have added a little twist in the plot involving the former. As if her failing attempts to study amidst noise pollution was not bad enough, a blackout occured, darkness conquering her entire apartment. A little unlucky? Especially with exams the next day. And with no place of solitude to escape to, how would Sue adapt? Perhaps Lady Luck forgot to register 'Bad' as her middle name.
Joker turned Emo Boy Nick Ivans was going through a very tricky phase, one so delicate and slippery that one wrong move could plunge him into the depths of the icy ocean and freeze more than just his heart.But should he manage to cross this 'bridge' successfully, the rewards awaiting him on the other side were great, too great in fact for failure to be an option. At the rate things were going for Nick, chances are he'd get across without much trouble, and recieve his rewards. Hopefully, he understands that it's not in the bag yet, and he still has to avoid slipping and tripping. Will he get overconfident of success, and be rewarded with failure instead?
The paucity of activity due to the advent of Finals lead to Sue Anne cooping up in the library to study as she discovered one too many times that uncooperative house and roommates caused her hostel to be an unsuitable environment to study. While cramming Math formulae in her head, she recieved a message from Hans inviting her to dinner. For once in a long time, she accepted his offer, not because she felt bad at rejecting him so many times, but because she was genuinely hungry. And so it led to Hans, John and Sue having a relatively quiet dinner, with sparse conversation strewn in between consumption of food. Not one of the three able to hold a proper conversation with the others? Is this a sign of things to come for the trio?
After the awkward dinner, Sue returned to her self-described "Isolated Island of Distraction" while Hans and John trooped back to their hostel, determined to shove last minute notes into their minds which were already replete with the apropos of Math. Amidst the studying, John felt a sudden urge to play with Hans' lighter, and started burning pieces of paper, much to his delight, while Hans looked on amused. A sign of truce?Anyway, John should be careful. Playing with fire might end up with him getting burnt. Who knew that the effects would be so immediate.Shortly after playing with fire, John felt a burning sensation coursing through his veins. Unable to shake it off, he realised he was contracting a fever. With exams the next day, will the fever cause him to lose focus? It seems the lesson for playing with fire was taught much sooner than expected. Hopefully John learnt it.
While Sue Anne could definitely claim the title of the luckiest girl in Sunway, Lady Luck looked to have added a little twist in the plot involving the former. As if her failing attempts to study amidst noise pollution was not bad enough, a blackout occured, darkness conquering her entire apartment. A little unlucky? Especially with exams the next day. And with no place of solitude to escape to, how would Sue adapt? Perhaps Lady Luck forgot to register 'Bad' as her middle name.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
The Initial Final
The moment had finally descended upon the students of Sunway University College; or the college freshmen rather- Finals exams. That one barrier to delirium that had caused widespread intensity in studying in and around college. With diverse forms of information stocked in their minds, it was time to see if they could apply what they had learnt successfully, or realise that all their hard work came to naught.
First on the list was English, the most fundamental of languages used to communicate in almost every country globally, and how apt it was that the topic of the essay was the English Language itself and pertinent cultures. Could it have been more straightforward? Unfortunately not, as Hans Basil, Sanya Dival, John Bow, Sue Anne, Angie Flo and Jay Dic found out, struggling to comprehend the discerning topic and comprehension. Whoever said English would be easy? If even the great Hans Basil was left stumped, how would the others fare?
As the abovementioned persons left college with bruised and battered emotions and mental tremors, none had the right frame of mind to get back to studying, especially Hans Basil and John Bow. The roommates skived through the afternoon lamenting the tough English paper and resting their bodies and minds. While the afternoon passed by uneventfully, the night packed plenty of surprises. Doesn't anyone know everything happens at night?
Having no paper to worry about the next day, Hans decided to pay a friendly visit to Nick Ivans, who was probably the happiest person in Sunway University College, if not earth. And not just because he did not have to worry about exams until the end of the week. Well, the little visit turned out to be a dizzying mistake, as Hans was about to discover.
As Hans and Nick basked in their pernicious activity, the latter's roommate, Shayne and his girlfriend, Hans' classmate Alicia, made an early return from their shopping trip. Whether they had weird thoughts about Hans and Nick being on the same bed was anyone guess, but what was definitely on their minds was Maths. As the couple deliberated about Mathematics, Hans failed to realise he was in too deep in his activity. Well, Play Boy was about to become Woozy Boy.
Leaving Nick's room with a pall of black air swirling in his lungs, Hans managed to lead himself back to his own room, where John was busy studying. Sensing something was amiss with his friend, John decided to investigate, and learned of the activities Hans had participated in. Hans had never been in this condition before, mind intoxicated, while in Sunway. And John was clearly enjoying the different side of Hans he, or anyone, had never seen. A return to the Dark Side? Or the Drunk Side?
After the effects had been extinguished, Hans decided to put off studying while John resumed his. While the pair engaged in friendly banters amidst their individual activities, Hans may have taken one joke too far that could prove costly in the downfall in their friendship. While taking potshots at and ribbing friends are common, there is a limit and boundary one has to get accustomed to, and Hans realised he had overstepped his, playing on a sensitive issue pertaining to John that completely left the latter engulfed in sorrow and deploration. What happens to this roller-coaster friendship now?
Preperations for Finals had left most of Hans' friends missing in action, isolated in their islands of obscurity. So it came as a pleasant surprise for Hans when Sanya Dival and Sue Anne both communicated with him through different means. While Sue's came via electronically, Sanya adopted the old fashion more practical approach-calling. The exes could've talked about more interesting issues, but Math and sleepovers probably suited them fine. And what was with the surprise message from Erin Faro July that left Hans all confused yet pleased? Will it have any significant bearing on his current status?
First on the list was English, the most fundamental of languages used to communicate in almost every country globally, and how apt it was that the topic of the essay was the English Language itself and pertinent cultures. Could it have been more straightforward? Unfortunately not, as Hans Basil, Sanya Dival, John Bow, Sue Anne, Angie Flo and Jay Dic found out, struggling to comprehend the discerning topic and comprehension. Whoever said English would be easy? If even the great Hans Basil was left stumped, how would the others fare?
As the abovementioned persons left college with bruised and battered emotions and mental tremors, none had the right frame of mind to get back to studying, especially Hans Basil and John Bow. The roommates skived through the afternoon lamenting the tough English paper and resting their bodies and minds. While the afternoon passed by uneventfully, the night packed plenty of surprises. Doesn't anyone know everything happens at night?
Having no paper to worry about the next day, Hans decided to pay a friendly visit to Nick Ivans, who was probably the happiest person in Sunway University College, if not earth. And not just because he did not have to worry about exams until the end of the week. Well, the little visit turned out to be a dizzying mistake, as Hans was about to discover.
As Hans and Nick basked in their pernicious activity, the latter's roommate, Shayne and his girlfriend, Hans' classmate Alicia, made an early return from their shopping trip. Whether they had weird thoughts about Hans and Nick being on the same bed was anyone guess, but what was definitely on their minds was Maths. As the couple deliberated about Mathematics, Hans failed to realise he was in too deep in his activity. Well, Play Boy was about to become Woozy Boy.
Leaving Nick's room with a pall of black air swirling in his lungs, Hans managed to lead himself back to his own room, where John was busy studying. Sensing something was amiss with his friend, John decided to investigate, and learned of the activities Hans had participated in. Hans had never been in this condition before, mind intoxicated, while in Sunway. And John was clearly enjoying the different side of Hans he, or anyone, had never seen. A return to the Dark Side? Or the Drunk Side?
After the effects had been extinguished, Hans decided to put off studying while John resumed his. While the pair engaged in friendly banters amidst their individual activities, Hans may have taken one joke too far that could prove costly in the downfall in their friendship. While taking potshots at and ribbing friends are common, there is a limit and boundary one has to get accustomed to, and Hans realised he had overstepped his, playing on a sensitive issue pertaining to John that completely left the latter engulfed in sorrow and deploration. What happens to this roller-coaster friendship now?
Preperations for Finals had left most of Hans' friends missing in action, isolated in their islands of obscurity. So it came as a pleasant surprise for Hans when Sanya Dival and Sue Anne both communicated with him through different means. While Sue's came via electronically, Sanya adopted the old fashion more practical approach-calling. The exes could've talked about more interesting issues, but Math and sleepovers probably suited them fine. And what was with the surprise message from Erin Faro July that left Hans all confused yet pleased? Will it have any significant bearing on his current status?
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
The Dark Side
Depression.Anger.Revenge.Killjoy.Narcissism.Egregious.Sorrow.Sepulchral.
Not the 7 deadly sins, but the 8 signs of one entering the famed "Anakin Skywalker" phase. Never a passage one wants to undergo, but this tunnel is out of one's hands. And once you're in it, chances are you'll remain there for some time, wallowing as the darkness envelops your soul and mind. And sometimes, the light at the end of the tunnel is that of an oncoming train.
Hans Basil had experienced the Dark Side more than once, and had always emerged emotionally battered, though he managed to regain stability each time soon after. It had been months since he had last encountered this phase, though events and situations of late has the Darkness calling Hans' name back to the place where he reigned supreme, the emotional backlash often terrifying those around him. Was Hans about to turn back to the Dark? Or would he prove to be a stronger opponent this time around and hold his fort...
It seems Hans has had enough. Enough of being the perpetual lampost in situations where language limitations and barriers have constituted to him being one. While he had endured these situations one too many times and often without complaint, it seem that the blast from the past has lead to slight nuances in Hans' reactions and emotions. An escape from a community where the spoken language was a norm but alien to him seemed to have breathed new life into his stuttering one. But it seems in his current place of accomodation, the spoken language has once again reared its head and started revolving around Hans. Looks like he can't take the role of a lampost. A Play Boy maybe? Or the dreaded Dark Boy?
As previously mentioned, Hans Basil had always been financially stable, never harrassed by a credit crunch. Till now. And whoever thought the progenitor of it would be a friend back home.
Hans had been called the good friend many times, for his sheer effort contributed in any friendship he's in. But not always has the effort been reciprocated, usually resulting in insignificant and triffling squabbles. While the friendly phone call, albiet being at an ungodly hour, was a welcome surprise, the contents of it were not.
Hans had never been blackmailed in his life, but he learnt that there's a first for everything. The order was simple: Give a certain amount of money to help a certain friend in need, and all dark secrets remain in the dark. Disobey, and the secrets be unleashed to his family, where all hell would certainly break loose. At the mercy of his friend in devil's clothing, Hans was in a mental rut, with Final exams and other things already weighing down upon him. Hasn't Lady Luck had enough tormenting him? Or was she really enjoying watching Hans get beaten down at every turn he made?
Hans had the money to offer his friend, but he also possessed the brains to not throw it away unnecessarily. Shoving aside the initial anger and shock at the unscrupulous devil his friend turned out to be, his tired mind hatched a plan to escape the tricky situation and emerge unscathed. And he did. With a few calls made, he managed to avoid unpalatable ramifications and at the same time land his 'friend' in serious trouble. Has Hans Basil already heeded the call of the Dark Side?
While Hans' personal demons and battles could result in emotional scars for his friends, it seemed he still had the will to contain the burgeoning darkness waiting insidiously to erupt inside. A short meeting with Nick lead to no indication of the troubles Hans was enduring, with the latter offering advice to the former in a certain field. And with Sanya Dival, John Bow, Sue Anne, Jay Dic and Angie Flo literally in MIA mode, it seems the repercussions of Hans' change fortunately cannot be felt yet. Yet.
Not the 7 deadly sins, but the 8 signs of one entering the famed "Anakin Skywalker" phase. Never a passage one wants to undergo, but this tunnel is out of one's hands. And once you're in it, chances are you'll remain there for some time, wallowing as the darkness envelops your soul and mind. And sometimes, the light at the end of the tunnel is that of an oncoming train.
Hans Basil had experienced the Dark Side more than once, and had always emerged emotionally battered, though he managed to regain stability each time soon after. It had been months since he had last encountered this phase, though events and situations of late has the Darkness calling Hans' name back to the place where he reigned supreme, the emotional backlash often terrifying those around him. Was Hans about to turn back to the Dark? Or would he prove to be a stronger opponent this time around and hold his fort...
It seems Hans has had enough. Enough of being the perpetual lampost in situations where language limitations and barriers have constituted to him being one. While he had endured these situations one too many times and often without complaint, it seem that the blast from the past has lead to slight nuances in Hans' reactions and emotions. An escape from a community where the spoken language was a norm but alien to him seemed to have breathed new life into his stuttering one. But it seems in his current place of accomodation, the spoken language has once again reared its head and started revolving around Hans. Looks like he can't take the role of a lampost. A Play Boy maybe? Or the dreaded Dark Boy?
As previously mentioned, Hans Basil had always been financially stable, never harrassed by a credit crunch. Till now. And whoever thought the progenitor of it would be a friend back home.
Hans had been called the good friend many times, for his sheer effort contributed in any friendship he's in. But not always has the effort been reciprocated, usually resulting in insignificant and triffling squabbles. While the friendly phone call, albiet being at an ungodly hour, was a welcome surprise, the contents of it were not.
Hans had never been blackmailed in his life, but he learnt that there's a first for everything. The order was simple: Give a certain amount of money to help a certain friend in need, and all dark secrets remain in the dark. Disobey, and the secrets be unleashed to his family, where all hell would certainly break loose. At the mercy of his friend in devil's clothing, Hans was in a mental rut, with Final exams and other things already weighing down upon him. Hasn't Lady Luck had enough tormenting him? Or was she really enjoying watching Hans get beaten down at every turn he made?
Hans had the money to offer his friend, but he also possessed the brains to not throw it away unnecessarily. Shoving aside the initial anger and shock at the unscrupulous devil his friend turned out to be, his tired mind hatched a plan to escape the tricky situation and emerge unscathed. And he did. With a few calls made, he managed to avoid unpalatable ramifications and at the same time land his 'friend' in serious trouble. Has Hans Basil already heeded the call of the Dark Side?
While Hans' personal demons and battles could result in emotional scars for his friends, it seemed he still had the will to contain the burgeoning darkness waiting insidiously to erupt inside. A short meeting with Nick lead to no indication of the troubles Hans was enduring, with the latter offering advice to the former in a certain field. And with Sanya Dival, John Bow, Sue Anne, Jay Dic and Angie Flo literally in MIA mode, it seems the repercussions of Hans' change fortunately cannot be felt yet. Yet.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
The Breakaway
Home is where the heart is. True. But ain't one's heart in one's body? And what if that body wasn't at home but surviving elsewhere away from home. Does that somewhere fall into the category of 'home'? And does it mean that that is where one's heart is?
Increasing prices, fines and inefficiency aren't just economic terms and concepts but annoying situations that Hans Basil, John Bow and Nick Ivans had to face- increasing hostel fees, ridiculous electricity fines that couldn't be proven and inefficient hostel management which seems to skive. Apparently, all these have taken a toll on the trio and it simulated a call of action from their friend Ean- to look for a new place they can call home, one without pathetic deficiencies. Together with Ean, Leroy and another friend Rodger, the three guys decided to check out the condo just beside theirs-seemingly a slap in the face for the current condo they were living in.
After a meeting with the agent, the 6 friends had the opportunity to view the unit they thought they could call home in the near future. And after the viewing, they wished it would never be their home, with the unit in a complete mess and the size of the rooms a disaster. Rodger held a glimmer of hope for the remaining 5 though, informing them that there were other units they could rent, according to the agent. During lunch, everyone, excluding Hans, discussed about the new unit and price. Hans' mind was being haunted by the cryptic phone call he had recieved at 4am the past morning and the disastrous repercussions it could cause. On top of that, he had the little 'blast from the past' situation to worry about. With final exams just a few days away, will all these unwanted distractions lead to a spectacular flop in the finals or will he rally back and emerge victorious?
The advent of Final exams sensibly leads to less activity in and around campus, with the only thing one can see is the multitude of sudents studying in the library or foyer. Among those studying were Nick Ivans, Angie Flo and a mysterious 'someone' whos never been spotted before. Just who was this person who was studying with Nick and Angie? How did she appear in the picture?And for those who just cannot study in the library, like Hans and John, they had to resort to studying in their hostel, amidst all the untimely distractions around them. And as if that wasn't bad enough, they had to struggle to study as they battled their self-discipline and faltering friendship. For Hans, it was only another burden on his creaking shoulders.
After days of secretive contact with a certain Kia Jens, Hans had the chance to let off some steam and enjoy a night out as the former invited the latter to a Halloween party. Both were coy on the issue of attending the party, as neither knew what to expect from the other, and in the end, Hans deicided to bail as he couldn't shrug off the problems enveloping his tired mind. Coincidentally, Kia had also decided to bail. Something seems to be happening with the two. Was Hans just getting back at Sanya for eyeing another guy so soon after their break up? Or was he sub-consciously living up to his reputation? From Poor Boy to Play Boy? Things certainly seem to be heating up.
Increasing prices, fines and inefficiency aren't just economic terms and concepts but annoying situations that Hans Basil, John Bow and Nick Ivans had to face- increasing hostel fees, ridiculous electricity fines that couldn't be proven and inefficient hostel management which seems to skive. Apparently, all these have taken a toll on the trio and it simulated a call of action from their friend Ean- to look for a new place they can call home, one without pathetic deficiencies. Together with Ean, Leroy and another friend Rodger, the three guys decided to check out the condo just beside theirs-seemingly a slap in the face for the current condo they were living in.
After a meeting with the agent, the 6 friends had the opportunity to view the unit they thought they could call home in the near future. And after the viewing, they wished it would never be their home, with the unit in a complete mess and the size of the rooms a disaster. Rodger held a glimmer of hope for the remaining 5 though, informing them that there were other units they could rent, according to the agent. During lunch, everyone, excluding Hans, discussed about the new unit and price. Hans' mind was being haunted by the cryptic phone call he had recieved at 4am the past morning and the disastrous repercussions it could cause. On top of that, he had the little 'blast from the past' situation to worry about. With final exams just a few days away, will all these unwanted distractions lead to a spectacular flop in the finals or will he rally back and emerge victorious?
The advent of Final exams sensibly leads to less activity in and around campus, with the only thing one can see is the multitude of sudents studying in the library or foyer. Among those studying were Nick Ivans, Angie Flo and a mysterious 'someone' whos never been spotted before. Just who was this person who was studying with Nick and Angie? How did she appear in the picture?And for those who just cannot study in the library, like Hans and John, they had to resort to studying in their hostel, amidst all the untimely distractions around them. And as if that wasn't bad enough, they had to struggle to study as they battled their self-discipline and faltering friendship. For Hans, it was only another burden on his creaking shoulders.
After days of secretive contact with a certain Kia Jens, Hans had the chance to let off some steam and enjoy a night out as the former invited the latter to a Halloween party. Both were coy on the issue of attending the party, as neither knew what to expect from the other, and in the end, Hans deicided to bail as he couldn't shrug off the problems enveloping his tired mind. Coincidentally, Kia had also decided to bail. Something seems to be happening with the two. Was Hans just getting back at Sanya for eyeing another guy so soon after their break up? Or was he sub-consciously living up to his reputation? From Poor Boy to Play Boy? Things certainly seem to be heating up.
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